So gaming... Gaming is just something I do. I've never not been a gamer. Please understand that although I do play a lot of video games, it in no way has an effect on my attentiveness when I am in a relationship. I am fully capable of maintaining my priorities between the one I'm with and the games I play. I also enjoy reading quite a bit, but that's another subject completely and I've got to keep some things up for question, right?
So onto me as a person I guess. I am as honest as I can be at all time. I won't say I don't lie because that would honestly be a lie... or would it? ;) But seriously I never lie to the person I'm with if I help it. For example - If I'm asked, "How did you get that scar on your shin?", my answer would be "I was assaulted by a computer case!" - ask me about it some time ;). BUT! if I'm asked "What are you getting for my birthday?!" my answer will be "Absolutely nothing!" and that would be a lie (most likely).
Relationships... I am completely loyal in relationships. I have NEVER cheated and will never cheat. I couldn't do that to someone. Mostly because I know how it feels, but also because I would feel bad. I do however appreciate attractiveness in people. I don't gawk or do double-takes at all. I am respectful when it comes to noticing attractiveness. Yes... there are attractive people in the world. There is nothing I can do about that, but when I am with someone - truly with them - it is 100%. Always. I have the type of personality that feels deeply and when I feel deeply for a specific person it's as though the rest of the world calms to a dull roar, and there is just her.
A bit deep for a profile on a dating site but I feel it's important to understand who I am.
Moving onto something a bit more lighthearted, I am pretty sure I have a decent sense of humor. I am always having fun and laughing, having a good time. I enjoy tons of stand up comedians. I promise, given the chance, I can get a laugh or two out of you.
I am also very... self aware. I know that I am not the best 'fish' in the sea, but I also know I'm not the worst. I am comfortable with who I am as a person and in the way I look. Yes, I am overweight, but in no way does that mean I am lazy or unattractive. I believe confidence is a source of great attractiveness and I lack no confidence. I am also slowly working on my weight because who wouldn't want to be fit? And I guess I had better just get any possible down falls out of the way... I am losing my hair on top a bit. I'm fine with it but I know some people are not so there's that... I'm also in debt (just like everyone else). I do have my own car. And (maybe) last but not least - I take trust extremely seriously. If you earn my trust it's yours until you do something to lose it. If you lose it... it's going to be very difficult (if not impossible) to earn it a second time around.
SO.... what else? The pictures I included where the ones I chose because if someone wants to talk to me I refuse to give a false image of who I am with tricky camera angles and low lighting. I am what I am. Nothing more, nothing less.
Also I can be fairly shy in some situations but generally speaking I am pretty open, with a dash of social awkwardness. I have lived in Oregon for a bit over 2 years, but I am originally from northern Nevada.
Currently I am working to better myself and my situation. I am working to get in better shape and be a healthier person all in all. I am also working to better my career. Currently I'm studying for a few certifications for when I can take the time and have the funds available to take. I will eventually go back to school proper, but for now I am working with what I can.
I am honestly unsure of what I'm looking for as far as specifics go... Obviously what I have gone for in the past has not worked out for me so it may be time to switch things up a bit... just as I am doing in my life. So, I guess I am looking for someone who will support me, and challenge me at the same time. When I say support I don't mean financially, but support me as a person, and be able to challenge me to be a better person. I am looking for someone who shares my interests but certainly not all of them so we have things to show each other and learn from each other. To be blunt I am looking for my better half, but I will not jump into a life long commitment such as marriage without knowing, in my heart, that it's true. I tend to find the cute look more attractive than I do overtly sexy. I enjoy being with someone I can share in every aspect of my life with. Someone to be my equal and opposite at the same time. When I want to stay in I want someone to be able to get me out of the house, and on some occasions when she wants to go out I can convince her it's a good night to stay in.
Physical qualities.. it really all depends on the person. Everything works together to create the whole image and if the whole is attractive to me, the details follow suit... It is really, really hard to describe this, but if I find you cute, you will know.
If you've read this far and have found anything interesting to you or anything you feel we have in common... well as my headline states... who says the guy has to message first? If you are interested please feel free to message me, but please have a photo or I will not reply.
TL;DR - Please read it... I feel it's worth the read.