now that breaking bad is over my life lacks meaning
im realllllllly sensitive, sweet, generous and kind. people always say stuff like "are you always this nice" and the truth is i am, unless you give me lots of reasons not to be. and even then it's hard for me to be a jerk...
they made a film about my life http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jHZEOweeoaE
i come from a long line of fighters (vietnam vets, holocaust survivors, texan revolutionaries, etc) and I've been through a lot of crazy shit, so despite whatever flaws or insecurities I might have, i think that deep down i am a warrior and i can pull through just about any curveball life throws at me. as a result of struggling with addiction for most of my adult life, i have seen and done a lot of awful, scary things. it was awful and shitty but i'm glad i went through it, because i am one of the most understanding, non-judgmental, kind and understanding people ever. i do my best to help people, though i tend to set poor boundaries and i neglect to take care of myself sometimes when i'm trying to help someone, and i sometimes let people take advantage of my kindness, but i'm trying to be better about that. I am a much more positive and open minded person than I used to be. I try to always see the best in people and situations and I'm learning to be present and grounded, that I might comnect with the world without getting overwhelmed and internalizing negativity. i like hip hop and punk rock and having fun. i am not very interesting. i smoke a lot of cigarettes. i'm kinda really irresponsible, but i'm working on it. i'm very candid and up-front with others, i try to always be honest now. i'm really an open book. my sense of humor is dry, sarcastic, self-deprecating, weird, probably awkward or uncomfortable and heavily laden with pop-culture references. i'm a total night-owl. i've never been shy, i'm the kind of person who makes friends everywhere. i have a big heart and i really care about people, and i was gifted with great intelligence and intuition (not to build myself up or anything, just trying to be honest.) and i want to use those gifts to help people in some way. i'm a musician, i play a few instruments, mostly guitar lately. pretty into libertarian politics and DIY ethic. (I have a DIY tattoo that says DIY and i hate having to explain it to people) points if you knew anarcho-capitalism is a thing.
i like swt tunes and swt d00ds to chill with. and blake schwarzenbach. and cigarettes, those are nice.
lets make music and have adventures!
I am sensitive, goofy, and creative.
lol i contradict myself alot