i guess i have to put this first: JUST BECAUSE i AM BISEXUAL DOES NOT MEAN i AM LOOKING FOR GUYS RIGHT NOW, i AM NOT!!!!

i am a proniac. (the word pronoia is the antithesis of paranoiac it means someone who is convinced that unseen forces are conspiring on our behalf)

who am i? i am an abysmal mystery, not to myself but to most all people...i do not intend for people to be afraid of me, but i am at the same time not going to go out of my way to explain myself or justify who i am to anyone...people are most afraid of that which they do not understand and i am complex.

i am 28 in this body and my story is long and difficult to explain. i am an intergalactic hitchhiker (no, not the movie) and i am here on a mission from my real home.

i am polyamorous, not a slut and i am not looking for someone to complete me, but i do need the Goddess in my life; i am spiritual by nature and i know that we all are its just that some of us are not as aware of that fact as others...

i cannot say what the most important concept is to me but i have a list it goes: COMPASSION, WHOLENESS, ONENESS, BALANCE, UNITY, HUMILITY, LOVE AND REVERENCE i do worship the Goddess and i know i owe Her my life and well-being She is my provider and protector...

i know that i live in an existential multiverse where life is a serious joke and i am a joker in a world full of clowns(the difference between a joker and a clown is simple, when a clown makes you laugh you laugh briefly and then you forget but when a joker makes you laugh you laugh and then you remember forever, a joker laughs at and with the absurdity of the absurdity, a clown at and with the banality of the banality)

i do not write much poetry anymore instead i have decided to imbue it in my life. i have become myself, a living poem...a living, breathing, walking crime...

i think that life is a gift to be received not a task to be taken, or a test to be passed nor a race to be won...

i cannot tell you what the innermost core of my philosophy is because to do so would be to shit on it...

my occupation is simple i am a messenger and i work for Prometheus to help rekindle the spark of omniscience...it means that you don't know everything and neither do i but the synthesis and synergy of our knowledge is limitless and we are all of us connected to that 'database' known as the Jungian Unconscious...

i am only a facilitator in reminding people that, that spark exists and sometimes i help remind that spark but i never own it no person owns it because its not a possession its a gift...

there is so much more that i could say but for now i will go with what i have

I am undeniable, unforgettable, and unsuspected

right now i am trying to build community and find people who can be part of the tribe that i am 'in'. i am not an elitist and i do not know exactly who those people are or what they look like, i just need to have more artists, musicians, poets and freethinkers in my life, people who will inspire me and people who i can inspire as well...

thinking, feeling, reading, riding my bike, photography

there are many skills that i am accomplished at but i do not need to go into all of them here

my smile, my eyes, and other features, i am a wave that just keeps coming most people do not have a way to accommodate how much i can receive into my abyss and how much comes out of me as well.

another thing i am good at is overheating receiver circuits.

((((AAAAAAAAA)))) i have read so many books that its hard to remember them all here is a list of some...

my absolute favorite book is Siddhartha by Herman Hesse i could write a book on why i love that book it is that good and one of the only books i have ever cried to, not because it was sad but because it was so beautiful it left me KNOWING that i am Siddhartha, that you are Siddhartha and that we are all on the path of Siddhartha and no-thing we can do will make us stray from that path...

[more on that later... Stranger in a Strange Land by Robert Hienlin, one of the most powerful science fiction books ever written it literally spawned a generation and initiated a movement that is vast and still going on to this day

The Lucifer Pricniple by Howard Bloom,

Prometheus Rising...The Cosmic Trigger Quantum Psychology, The New Inquisition and the walls came tumbling down, Illuminatus! by Robert Anton Wilson,

World of a Thousand Colors...The Majapoor Chronicles...Tower of Glass...Valantines Castle...Valantine Pontifix by Robert Silverberg,

Beyond Good & Evil...Thus Spake Zarathustra...The Gay Science by Nietzche,

Fear & Trembling...The Sickness Unto Death by Soren Kiekagaurd,

The Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis,

The Lord of the Rings Trilogy JRR Tolkien,

Nothing in this book is true, but its exactly the way things are by Bill Frizel,

Remember BE Here Now by Ram Dass,

Behold A Pale Horse by William Cooper,

The Acient Sceret of the Flower of Life by Duronvelo Melkezedek,

Ishmael My Ishmael, The Stroy of B, Beyond Civilzation by Daniel Quinn,

i have read every book by Carlos Castenada

Play of Conciousness by Swami Muktananda,

Dandelion Wine...The Martian Chronicles Feienheit 451 by Ray Bradbury

Sugar Blues by William Dufty,

The Art of Shen Ku by Zeek,

Awaken Healing Light of the Tao by Mantak and Mantewan Chia,

Dune by Frank Herbert,

Flow my Tears the Policeman Said by Philip k. Dick,

The Tao of Physics by Frujita Caprov

The Dancing Wu Li Masters by Gary Zukov

Power vs force by David Hawkings

The Wisdom of no Escape by Pema Chodrin

Quantum Healing by Depak Chopra

The Holographic Universe by Michael Talbot

The Biology of Belief by Bruce Lipton

Angels & Demons, The Da Vinci Code, Digital Fortress, Deception Point, by Dan Brown

Gravity, and The Sinner by Sue Grafton

I'm Ok-You're Ok By Sam Harris

The Politics of Experience By R.D. Laing

The Castle The Trial By Franz Kafka

Women in Love By D.H. Lawrence

Galapagos, Cats Cradle By Kurt Vonneget

Conversations with god by Neale Donald Walsch

Food of the Gods by Terrence McKenna

The alphabet verses the Goddess by Leonard Shlain

Breaking Open the head The Return of Quetzecotal by Daniel Pinchbeck
and so many more i just cant remember them all right now

((((BBBBBBBBB))))here are some of my favorite movies they are in no particular order

Apocalypse Now, The Thin Red Line, The English Patient, Ghost Dog: Way of the Samurai, Glen Gary Glen Ross, Ameliee, Adaptation, Equilibrium, Hero, Kill Bill, House of Flying Daggers, Crouching Tiger Hidden Dragon, Kung Fu Hustle, Akira, Vampire Hunter D, Ninja Scroll, Amerikan Beauty, The Legend of 1900, Sideways, Iam Sam, I Heart Huckabees, Waking Life, Ghost in the Shell, What the bleep do we know?, Schitzopolis, Minority Report, The Matrix, The Lord of the Rings Trilogy, Aliens, Office Space, Sin City, Pleasantville, Preadator, The Big Lebowski, Raising Arizona, The Butterfly Effect, Snatch, Donnie Darko, Twin Warriors, Romeo Must Die, Spaceballs, The Minus Man, Along Came Polly, The Devils Advocate, Constintine, Total Recall, Terminator 2, Instinct, The Game, Whats Eating Gilbert Grape?, The Ninth Gate, Fear & Loathing in Las Vegas, Oceans 11, Full Metal Jacket, Eyes Wide Shut, A Clockwork Orange, Dr. Strangelove, The Cell, The Silence of the Lambs, Falling Down, Batman (the first one), James Bond and some of the older ones with Shan, Highlander the first one, Stargate (the movie not the show), Existenz, AI, I Robot, LA Confidential, A Beautiful Mind, Gladiator, 12 Monkeys, Hellraizer, The People vs Larry Flint, When Night is Fallen, Better Than Chocolate, Bound, Chocolat, The Last Samuri, Star Wars but i like the orginals better, Your Friends & Neighbors, and many others most recent awesome movie was THE FOUNTAIN so amazing

((((CCCCCCCCC))))there is not enough room here for me to expound on all the bands that i love but here is a few

Amon Tobin, Alizee, Atmosphere, Aesop Rock, Armsbendback, Aphex Twin, Autchre, Air, Alice in Chains, Alice Cooper, AM Radio, Aphrodite, Armor for Sleep, The Art of Noise, Avalanches, Asian Dub Foundation, Blackalicious, The Black Eyed Peas, Badly Drawn Boy, Beck, Belle & Sebastian, Bjork, Boards of Canada, Broken Social Scene, Buck 65, Bush (not the so called prez), British Sea Power, The Black Heart Procession, The Beatles, Bone Thugs and Harmony, Cake, Camper Van Beehtoven, Coldplay, The Color Red, Counting Crows, Cowboy Junkies, Chevelle, The Crystal Method, Cypress Hill, Cat Power, The Cranberries, Calexico, Coil, The Dandy Warhols, Danzig, Dashboard Confessional, De La Soul, Dead Prez, Death Cab for Cutie, Deep Forest, Dj Shadow, Dj Clue, Dj Spooky, Dj Dara, D12, Daft Punk, Delerium, Dorkweed, Depswa, David Grey, Dead Can Dance, Earlimart, The Eels, Enya, Enigma, Evanescence, Everything but the Girl, Elliot Smith, Eminem, Faith & The Muse, Faith & Disease, The Fiery Furnaces, The Fire Theft, Fischerspooner, The Flaming Lips, Floyd Jones, Flogging Molly, Franz Ferdinand, Frontline Assembly, Frou Frou, Funker Vogt, Future Loop Foundation, The Futureheads, Garbage, Godsmack, Gwar, Guns & Roses, The Ghetto Boys, godflesh, Goldfrapp, Gorillaz, Haujobb, The Helio Secquence], Handsome Boy Modeling School, The Hidden Cameras, If Thousands, The Innocence Mission, Interpol, Iron & Wine, Immortal Technique, Jacob the Baker, Jets to Brazil, Jawbreaker, Jurrasic 5, Kanye West, Keane, The Killers, Kings of Leon, Kings of Convience, Lacuna Coil, Lamb, Lamplighter, Leftfield, Linkin Park, Live, The Long Winters, Loreena McKennit, The Magnetic Fields, Marylin Manson, Maroon 5, The Mars Volta, Maru Mari, Massive Attack, Mates of State, Mellow, Mercury Rev, Miss Kitten, The Misfits, Moby, Modest Mouse, Mogwai, Morcheeba, Mos Def, The Muffs, Muse, Mushroomhead, My Life with the Thrill Kill Kult, Nada Surf, Nas, Natalie Merchant, Neutral Milk Hotel, The New Pornographers, Nightmares on Wax, Northern State, The Orb, Papa Roach, Pedro the Lion, People Under the Stairs, Philip Glass, Pigface, Pinback, Pink Floyd, Placebo, Plasticman, The Polyphonic Spree, The Postal Service, Praga Kahn, Queen, Queensriche, Radiohead, The Red House Painters, Red Stars Theory, Rilo Kiley, RJ D2, The Rolling Stones, Rouge Wave, The Rubber Duckie Experiment, Rush, Sanford Arms, The Sea & Cake, Sigur Ros, Silkworm, Sleater Kenny, Sleepytime Gorilla Museum, The Smashing Pumpkins, Snow Patrol, Sparklehorse, Stars, Stellastarr*, Switchblade Symphony, Switchfoot, Swollen Members, Talib Kweli, Talvin Singh, Therion, They Might Be Giants, Tool, Tricky, Velvet Acid Christ, The Velvet Underground, Vendetta Red, Ween, Weezer, West Indian Girl, The White Stripes, The Wise Guys, Wu Tang Clan, XTC, Year of the Rabbit, The Zutons and much much more

((((DDDDDDDDD)))) i really like Thai food or spicy food any vegetarian food that tastes great and was made with love i also love Ambrosia

the Goddess, health, good books to read, inspiration, Compassion and great food to eat

this and that i got hit on the head by a wiffle ball bat, it would take much to much time to expound upon just a fraction of the things i think about if you really want to know what i am thinking about, contact me

ontological and memetic landscapes

as of late i am thinking alot about my tribe and how to create it i am looking for mostly girls and 2 guys to become part of a network/CELL for creating healing and passing skills ect if you are serious about joining or at least seriously curious then PLEASE contact me i would like to get the members together as soon as possible...

define 'typical'

i have never had a 'typical' day let alone a 'typical' friday

i am a private person for the most part, we live in times where the most valuable thing we have is information...

you want to talk to me about something that is interesting, profound, silly as long as it is not inane, anything having to do with my interests or, if you are a girl and you think i am cute ;)

i am looking for the one i Love who will Love me back... i am looking for a Goddess to be with me in a mutual reciprocity i want someone who will appreciate me for me and not try to change me or force me to fit a mold.

i too want someone who is similar to me but i am not going to 'make' someone be like me or do what i do. i have decided over time that i do not want to date meat eaters or ciggerette smokers i do not have a judgment about them as people, but it is the activity that i do not want to surround myself with especially in an intimate (kissing) relationship.

the people who know me know that i have a sense of humor but it is not the kind of humor that is easily understood, i want someone who can have an equal regard for both seriousness and for hilariousness. i would like someone who has a zest for life and a passion for the fullness of its flavors.