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34 Austin, TX Woman


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  • Ages 25–46
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My details

Last online
May 11
5′ 7″ (1.70m)
Body type
Full figured
Other, and very serious about it
Leo, and it’s fun to think about
Graduated from high school
Art / Music / Writing
Likes dogs and likes cats
English (Fluently)
My self-summary
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So I was handfast with two beautiful women not too long ago anyway, but one of them broke my heart and my wife's. I was recently seeing an amazing woman online, then she got sick, then she died, and surprisingly my heart is still healing one day at a time. Even just the memory of her helps me more than I can easily express. Still I'm prone to crying these days. I love movies, art (pretty much all forms of it), games of all kinds, poetry, writing, books... and collecting things (movies, books, comics, tv series, games, etc.). I like to think I'm a happy person, but... well I've had a lot of bad times in my life, and... well I'm occasionally a mess, and the world hasn't really stopped spinning out of control, it's only slowed down a bit... I really hope things turn around soon, the recent dip I've suffered, well we built this whole life together, and taking out one of the key founding stones had it all crumbling. I haven't been able to recover it much since really. . . but I'm working on it, more than anything I'm recovering myself, and finding things underneath the broken spots that sometimes surprise me. My wife is still there for me, and still very much a positive force in my life, and my friends are amazing, every one of them. I have so much love in my life.

I do believe in something at least spiritually, but I don't care in the slightest if you do, I don't judge people based on that kind of thing. I've never belonged to an organized church of any kind because I've never found one I agreed with, they all seem to want to pass judgement (that I've been to mind) and use their 'faith' as a tool for hate. I have faith, but I would never abuse it that way. A persons beliefs or lack thereof are sacred to me. I am not a Christian, I was one once and I know their ideals very well.

At present I consider myself a Wiccan, I am a practicing Witch and if you have a problem with that... tough. I'm a very loving person, and I don't judge if I can at all help it. Try to see beauty in all things, usually succeed for the most part. I used to leave this out for fear of people's reactions but... sometimes you just have to have the courage to be yourself openly, that others may know that your kind exist, that the one they find is not an only, that... there are people in the world who have done what some only think that perhaps they should. That all being said....

I'm also a transsexual. If you have a problem with that... also... tough. If you don't understand it, you may ask me, I may even explain it to you if I feel I can adequately do so, but you'll never completely understand if you haven't walked in these shoes. I am both cursed in the pain this brings me, and very blessed indeed in the understanding it brings as well.

I also believe in honesty, I never lie, I know in this jaded age that sounds ridiculous, but I'm deadly serious, I believe that nothing is as precious as understanding, each other, the world, just generally, not necessarily in a scientific sense, though that is important but... when you lie to a person you undercut either their trust of you, or their understanding of the subject, either way I can't make myself do it... haven't since I was very young. I won't blame you in the slightest if you do not feel as strongly as I however, it's a hard road to walk. Hope and fear walk hand in hand with me, I always hope for the best, always hold out hope, but... I know the world seldom rewards that kind of optimism, and I try to be ready for the worst. If you want to know more... feel free to ask. There's a lot more to know, I'd put it all on here, but... somethings I prefer explaining myself, give and take, conversing upon them when they're brought up, if that makes sense....

I am sweet, truthful, and non-judgemental (or at least I try to be).

I'm also, kind of a mess sometimes, I have a lot of anger, a lot of pain in me, a lot of issues, a lot of problems, anxiety issues and the like. . . I am trying to be a better person, but. . . it's not easy and I have a lot I need to deal with, and a very hard time accepting some of my problems. Getting better at that at least, and that's, something anyway.
What I’m doing with my life
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I'm currently a stay at home wife, and quite happy to be so. I devote most of my time to my games, designing them that is. I have plans for the future but they're complicated and perhaps a bit more personal than I'd like to list here for the most part. I am also a practicing Witch, I am here to help those I can, I offer advice if it is needed, I have been known to work magic for those who I felt needed it. But mainly my job is to be one who understands much and shares in that understanding, I am not really humble, but I am in many ways wise, and it is yours to partake of if you have need and I have time. I accept no payments for my services, the gifts I am given are gifts, and are given freely by myself as they were to me. If you wish to know more about my beliefs, about me, or about anything I can illuminate, feel free to contact me, if you wish to tell me that I'm 'going to hell', please address your comments there.

Note, I neither know it all, nor think I do, but I know some things, and I will try to help anyone who needs it. . . I'm also looking for work in spite of my preferences. . . it's hard going with my. . . disabilities, but, I'm trying.
I’m really good at
Go on, brag a little (or a lot). We won’t judge.
Creating worlds. That's what I do really... I'd like to fancy myself an author, but... honestly, my talent in writing doesn't line up that way, I can do all the things involved, write dialogue, create characters, plot, settings, describe things, but... chaining it altogether I fail somewhere invariably. I'm told my poetry is decent though. My greatest talent is designing games, not on computer, I can do that, but I really don't care to, but table top games, I've created everything from card games, to strategy games, to board games, to... but my baby, my masterpiece is my role playing game system. I've been working on it for more than 15 years now, run it every week for the last 10, refining, I intend to publish someday, but... with my own money, under my own name, I don't want to lose control of it like so many writers have. I'm good at alot of other things as well, video games, problem solving, I'm actually rather intelligent, don't like to brag, well, no... actually I love to, but hate it when I catch myself doing it. I also have a knack for run-on sentences. ;)
The first things people usually notice about me
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Not really sure, but people seldom forget me so something must be catching their attention I guess.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
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I'm a reading machine, so that's a tough question, I also own well over two thousand movies, so same there but... I'll make a stab. For movies, let's see, Willow, Switch, Dick Tracy, Popeye (my wife turned me onto that one), Who Framed Roger Rabbit, Labyrynth, The Last Unicorn (that one is high on my books list too), Secret of Nimh, Little Nicky, My Best Friend is a Vampire, countless others. For books, nearly anything by Eddings, The Dark is Rising Saga (hated the movie attempt), Most of Asprin's Works (Myth Series and Phule in particular), The Retief Series by Laumer, Most of Zelazney's Works (Especially Lord of Light, The Amber Series (both first was better), and Jack of Shadows), Ender's Game (perhaps the best of the lot, but not necessarilly my favorite), Most of Anthony's works other than Xanth (the first few of those I liked too, Apprentice Adept is my favorite, especially the original trilogy, Stile=Awesome :P), Armor by Steakley, Wild Seed by Octavia Butler, Some of Moorcock's stuff (Nearly anything with Elric, Corum, or Hawkmoon is a winner for me, fell in love with those three at a young age)... and many many others. For food, I like a lot of things but my favorite is Snow Crab, hands down. Music, I have odd tastes in music, can't divide them by time periods or genres really, I mean I have favorites from the 50s and earlier but... as recent as tomorrow if you know what I mean. Generally dislike Rap and Country, but there are exceptions to both rules (more to the later than the former). Techno isn't my thing though it usually doesn't bother me much either.... I'm terrible at remembering actor names or musician names, I try but... just because I don't recognize something right off doesn't mean I wouldn't know it if I heard/saw it... better with movie names, though there are a few I foget occassionally.
The six things I could never do without
Think outside the box. Sometimes the little things can say a lot.
In no particular order other than the first three obviously being of greater value, my loves, love, friendship, libraries, games, and movies.
I spend a lot of time thinking about
Global warming, lunch, or your next vacation… it’s all fair game.
My game, first and foremost, I've spent more than half my life working on my system and it's practically the center of my world (the literal center being my wonderful). I also spend a great deal of time thinking about deep philisophical matters, the nature of people, of the universe.... I'm always thinking.... bit of a daydreamer. And lately, about myself. . . circumstances have exposed some nerves for me, and I'm a little fascinated and a little afraid of some of the things I'm seeing there.
On a typical Friday night I am
Netflix and takeout, or getting your party on — how do you let loose?
At home, being a boring housewife, used to be my game night but it got moved to tuesdays, then thursdays due to scheduling issues, usually my wife is working that day and it's just me and my thoughts. Quite often online somewhere, most commonly on Furcadia.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
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I'm shy, shyer than I let on, it's not that I'm introverted exactly, not that I don't like people, I love people, love talking, it's embarrassing how shy I am. But... people have hurt me before, and usually not in relationships, I mean when I was just being friendly, and I've become very gunshy about that. Well, that was true anyway, honestly getting a bit better about this, though I still have one heck of a hard time opening that first conversation, quite sociable with people I know, even just in passing but, that first move... I just stink at it.
You should message me if
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If you want to, I'm pretty open to contact, very hard for me to make any kind of a first move though. I'm only really looking for friends though. Thankfully the new laptop has an easier time running OKCupid at least, so while it's still slow, it doesn't take hours for me to check my most basic messages anymore and I am therefore a lot more likely to get back to you.