I like to go out late...I like going to restaurants, I like to walk around, drink things, sit places and talk about things, watch people, wake up knowing I'm going to be late for work -not caring- and finding my way back from wherever I've crashed for the night.

I am currently trying to learn Mandarin Chinese in preparation of a trip to China for 10 days. I am also trying to expand my social circle.

I am a damn good driver and rarely if ever get lost. I also have an amazing ability to keep my cool in times of stress. I do well in trivia too.

that i'm always smiling. I'm tall.

(A)Angels and Demons, The DaVinci Code, The Harry Potter Books, The Satanic Verses, The Brothers Karamazov, The Count of Monte Cristo, The Three Musketeers, Worst Case Scenario Survival Handbooks,

(B)Roger Dodger, 100 Girls, 100 Women, Thirteen, Igby Goes Down, Dangerous Lives of Altar Boys, Sally, Eurotrip, Van Wilder, Amelie, Y Tu Mama Tambien, All I Want, The Bumblebee Flies Anyway, Anime, Buying the Cow, Be Cool

(C)in no particular order, Gob, Matt Nathanson, Jack Johnson, Bowling For Soup, Avoid One Thing, Death Cab for Cutie, Postal Service, Chloe Day, Charlotte Martin, Go Betty Go, Flogging Molly, The Slackers, The Specials, Ben Folds, Ben Lee, Ben Harper, Bad Ronald, Goldfinger, Reel Big Fish, Reggie & the Full Effect, The Urge, Me First and the Gimme Gimmies, Brand New, Bloc Party, Straylight Run, Bright Eyes, Iron & Wine, Gatsby's American Dream, just about everything

(D)I like almost all foods, though some I prefer over others

5 Things I can't live without:
Pursuit (I think I have pent up hunter tendencies), the ability to make happy the very select individuals I adore, discriminating taste (just in general), the ability to live with or without most anything or anyone, *and* the drive and determination to go for it when I see something I dont want to be without

the 6th is a rotating thing depending on what is going on in my life.

And I've finally worked out that this question is at the core of all my unhappiness. This question, to me, is like navigating the chasm for Holden Caulfield. The plain of this question is my rye, to speak metaphorically. I'm no Salinger, though. I don't know how to paint it in a beautiful description. I'm good, but what it comes down to for me is the philosophical question, one that's probably been asked before. I'm sure J.D. Salinger couldn't phrase his questions this way, which is why Catcher in the Rye is full of strange imagery. Okay, maybe I'm trying to convince myself that to feel better.

"As we mature, do we grow into who we were always destined to be or do our choices shape who we become? Can I help who I turn out to be?"

Why the hell does this matter so much to me? I guess I just don't like being who I am, who I'm on the road to becoming. It's not my fault I'm a product of all these factors I have no control over. Core personality, upbringing, genetics, appearance - these are things I was born with, and no matter how I'd like to, I can't change. These things shape my life in ways I couldn't imagine. Hell, these things are what make me... me. I would be someone else. I couldn't even ask this question if all these factors didn't work in synergy.

I just don't think it's fair. I don't believe in God. I used to when I was younger. But then I got smarter. It's not cynicism as such. It's not dismay at the world - I also share a deist perspective. It's just, I guess Occam's Razor - the philosophy, I mean, plays a huge role in my consideration of the world. Why over-complicate things? So what it comes down to, is serendipity for some and the misfortune for others. Fate, but with no master.

I guess what I mean is, shit happens. But I wish it didn't happen to me. Some people go through life so easily. I wish I could change.

at work and then doing nothing as of late. Sometimes I hit a place called "That 80's Club"

Ask me anything you want to know, I am rather open. I really will answer most anything, and you will not offend me, so ask away.

you're looking to chat, I am remotely interesting to you, or basically for any reason you see fit.

As for me, to love you alone, to make you happy, to do nothing which would contradict your wishes, this is my destiny and the meaning of my life.