if you're looking here - sorry I'm unlikely to respond.
I have some things to do that require all of my mind - change is afoot!
It's been tough going, but I reckon there are some discoveries I can now put in writing:
I'm often missing people for some reason, I know I can't be with everyone I love all the time, but it would be nicer probably.
Fuss bothers me; clothes, looks, personality clashes - there are so many things that just don't matter: Forget it and get stuck into stuff that matters - like feeding yourself and exploring every nook and cranny of what it means to be human.
I can understand MOST points of view and enjoy meeting people with a different take on things.
I say "chill out?", it sounds like a question, but it's not.

I am driven, reflective, and a bit sensitive

Big time wondering what's next.

Also practicing controlling myself in a corporate environment, which is going ok.
I've learned to ride a bicycle, been doing some indoor climbing [want to come with me?], keeping fit and going drinking and dancing.

Tolerating most types of pain, stretching, fitting things into my mouth, cooking healthy food, figuring things out, sleeping and saying EXACTLY what I'm thinking.

My determined walk, I also have loud boots at the moment.

authors) Murakami, Ian Banks, William Gibson, Mishima, Orson Scott Card, Robin Hobb, Anne McCaffrey, Julian May, Asimov, Philip K. Dick, Heinlein. I give books back to charities after I've read them - so there are lots more I've loved but can't remember names of. I'm keen to find more books by female authors (apart from the Bronte sisters, Jane Austen, Amy Tan, Jung Chang [who although writes interesting subject matter I find a boring storyteller] and the above, so recommendations welcome). I Love books that make you wonder how someone knows your mind so well - Stephen Fry did that; which means I have the mind of a middle aged gay man?

movies) Growing up in a video shop might have been a factor in my broad and sometimes childish taste; I've probably seen every PG rated 80's film ever made.
I saw The Science of Sleep and cried most of the time in pure amazement that it was so honest and true and real. I have had those childish notions before about a book or film being made from thoughts stolen from my head - this one felt like it was made just for me. But then I thoroughly enjoy laughing at Snakes on a Plane and Deep blue Sea, and since coming of age have added violence, horror, sexually explicit material, adult themes and strong language to my viewing selection.

music) I don't own any; I stream anything that comes to mind or view including producers I follow on Soundcloud. If there's a new mix to download I'll do it.
This is difficult: Trying to describe sounds becasue I'm not good with band names and song names. I like: the long instrumental bits at live gigs, albums, bass... I sound like a twat, I'll shh now.
I dislike deep house, funky house and soulful house esp. with vocals.

food) Cook for me and I'll really respect you, but if I tell you I'm hungry and you ignore it then I'll find food and you'll lose me.
I don't eat wheat, pork, potatoes, )
Korean is my current favourite food in London. I like all Asian food though.
I'm quite healthy so do love to eat lots of vegetables, meat and fish still on bones and parts of animals most people baulk at [vegetarians; you'll hate me - trust], seeds, whole grains, nuts and dark chocolate (I have a block on my desk most days).
I'll pick up a Pot Noodle or two on the way home from a night out.

Cuddles; I can now admit I'm made of things that die without them, the Internet, my sisters, dancing, laughing, green things.

An enchanting combination of how to get the money to buy some land so I can have the company of a dog, build a kiln and make pots until life's inevitable end; how to manipulate management to get more of said money; to gym or to lie in; how much I've spent on rum this month; what job to go for next and what to put in my CV; what to eat for lunch, or dinner; what time it is in Sydney 'cause I need to call family; whether I should keep those shoes and my massage bed or give them to charity; who I can get to go to that gig with me; the Berlin project: Moving there, making stuff with talented creative people.

Exhausted but generally satisfied.

I'm a masochist sometimes, mostly. I love hands and feet [definitely attached to a nice person].

- You can laugh [genuinely] at your shortcomings and inadequacies
- You know how to belay safely and need a climbing partner
- You're totally comfortable with a woman earning well
- OKCupid says between 65 and 89%
- You know bullet points don't need full stops
- You're healthy, truly single and bigger than me
- You have lovely clean hands and teeth