I found someone that's 9% my match, 47% my enemy.

This is too fun. I love it! And from what I can see/read, OKcupid does not lie.

I try so hard to not be bitter about life.

About things that have previously happened, and about things that are currently happening. Turn the other cheek. Look away.

But then why do I feel like everyone isn't seeing me anymore? I'm invisible. Cellophane.

"You could look right through me.
Walk right by me,
and never know I'm there."

Are all of these things my own fault?
Well...partly.

And I believe that they're all lying right to my face.
(I believe this...85% of the time)
Did someone talk? Did someone drop the bomb?

Or maybe they've stopped asking because we stopped coming.
But it's not us.
It's them.

So why does she pretend to care? Why does she pretend that it's fine?
Maybe...
she's lying to US, too.

Am I the only one that sees this?
The only one that gets what's actually happening?

Connecting with old friends is a
cleansing thing.
It reminds me that
I'm not really alone even if
I
1) Want to be
2) believe to be

Belief.

Funny word, that.
Very humorous, actually.
If I believe that
the Holocaust didn't
happen, I have
every right to think that.
Even though the facts are there
screaming at you.

I can't forget the past
because it still impacts the present.

I don't smoke pot. I've never done it, and I really have no real desire to do so.

The Wife does, and does frequently. Do I give a shit? Absolutely not. She can do what she wants, and I have no problem with it.

But Over Possessive Wannabe Lover was surprised that I don't smoke pot.

OPWL: "Have you ever smoked pot?"
Me: "Nope."
OPWL: "...Really?"
Me: "Yeah. Is that surprising?"
OPWL: "Well...yeah. You're her best friend and you've never smoked pot?"
TW: "What the fuck is THAT supposed to mean?"

The Wife got really upset over it. But to be honest, I probably would have been upset, too. It was a stupid assumption for OPWL to make.

What you do with your life is none of my business. And that's probably the reason why very little surprises me about people.

An ex of mine came out of the closet. Was I shocked? Nope. Upset? Not really. I wasn't even phased by it.

Is that weird? I think it might be.

Who I was
is not who I am
and not who I will ever
be again

thank God for that

we are not who we
used to be

and thank God for that
too

communication runs easy
if you remember that
what happened
is in the past
and that's all there is
to it

why dwell on things that
happened so long ago

the world is changing
but everything is staying the
same
improvements are
not to be found not
yet
not here or
there or
anywhere to be seen

i hate you

i love you

but i still hate you for
what happened
and what didnt happen
and for everything that
you said

you dont know that
i know
do you?

shes been talking and weve been
talking more and
more

do i want to see you
maybe

hard to tell
isnt it

Dear Crazy Religious Right,

You're not winning over any non-Christians by your outrageous behaviour towards Obama, or any other subject that you feel necessary to flip out over.

Especially you, Dobson. I don't understand how you do it, but you're basically single-handedly ruining what's left of "The Faith." How can a supposed man of God be THAT RICH? Something about that doesn't quite sit well in my stomach.

I've read the Bible front-to-back many times. Isn't there something about how it's harder for a rich man to get into heaven than fit a camel through the needle of an eye? It's something like that. I know I'm close to it. Oh Dobson, you scary, foolish man.

It's almost as bad as Rush. If he would die, I don't think that I would care. Terrible of me? Probably.

The Faith is not destroyed...but it is clearly broken. I have a feeling that it was much more pure when Christians were underground and hunted for their beliefs. When Constantine made it the official Roman religion and got government support, The Faith was lost. Christianity became a way for political gain. You couldn't be a Senator if you weren't Christian.

And so it begins.


Sincerely,

-Me




Obama '08

Running out of time
Out of room to
breathe or move in this
world that's just getting smaller
and smaller by the minute

the world's the same
there's just
less in it
less opportunity to
achieve greatness

arriving at a stand still
we just look at each other
for profit and
profit alone no one
makes a move unless someone
waves a dollar, euro, yen, pound
in their face

we cannot go to a real war
with anyone because
of how badly it would upset
the world economy
so we're safe to
an extent

and yet
we're fucked
is there a way out a
way up to the next
level before we all
hit rock bottom

i want to see the end before
we reach the next chapter

that's like reading the last page of a book
before you actually reach it

circles within circles
all mind games with
no winner

is there an end and
if there is have
we reached it
reached the pinnacle point of
befuckery