"Laughter and tears are both responses to frustration and
exhaustion. I myself prefer to laugh, since there is less cleaning
up to do afterward. " -Kurt Vonnegut
If you don't like reading...It would probably serve you to click
away or, at least, just skim...not only do I love to swoon over
books, but also, I admit to having gotten way out of control in
writing this thing.
Disclaimer for the reading impaired/uninterested: check.
Random observations and perspective that represent a portion of my
During summer I travel however and wherever I can, and I've just
moved to Durango in January from Lawrence,KS. My family is spread
like dandelion seeds, I visit my mother and sister in Missouri
pretty frequently. We are the kind of family that is weird,
understands one another, and even if we don't speak for a while,
never miss a beat. It's a good ship in which to sail.
I feel as though most people want to possess kind of idea, rather
than share space and time with the complex, beautiful, and
inherently flawed machine that is another human being. I'm very
flawed, I'm often amazed and perplexed, full of change, and I don't
know just how everything is supposed to go. I laugh and smile more
often than not, I study and learn, I dream and desire, of course,
and I do care enough to help those that I can, not for some heroic
ideal, but I feel that every man is guilty of the good he does not
do, if not guilty per se, then certainly a douche. I'm not trying
to save the world single-handedly, but I think I can give more and
einmal ist keinmal. It's worth it, to me anyway, to live and
entertain and be entertained.
What I’m doing with my life
I'm delving deeper into higher education, specifically mathematics
and neuroscience (but I have heavy English undergrad roots), and
adventuring around the US for research, recreation, and lifelong
education. I'm working on my connection to my optimum self, the
greatness and charm in every earthling and the invaluable mysteries
in this world, I want to experience it all; without regret. I also
write and love to talk about things that people love, especially
books, music, games, nature/humans.
I’m really good at
Making a fool of myself, understanding what you mean when you just
can't find the words; hoping beyond hope(options are slim or
similar, but I love grinning through the shit of life.) believing
that things are more than what they seem; telling a good story;
looking at things differently; poking fun at most serious things;
carrying my own baggage; recognizing there's a time and a place for
The first things people usually notice about me
A confused look under a feathery mop of hair and usually a hat and
a Kurt Halsey crown in the middle of my chest...or other silly
semblances of tattoos that light shirts fail to conceal. Friendly
confusion, questions, laughing and more questions.
Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
I read everything I can get my hands on, love satire and dark
humor, those that deliver the truth in interesting ways, like Kurt
Vonnegut, Bukowski, Julian Barnes, Jack, Allen, Neal, Tom Wolfe,
Sartre, Borges, Garth Ennis, Roberto Bolano, Marquez, Alexie,
Marcel Proust, Flaubert, Rimbaud, Margaret Atwood, Sylvia Plath,
Philip K. Dick, Kesey, Chekov, Baudelaire, Warren Ellis, Brian K.
Vaughan, Neil Gaiman, Moliere, Oscar Wilde, Milan Kundera and
specific others as well as good old or new text books and
math/science supplements. Most things I enjoy are unexpected things
or perspectives, the way the world shapes things into uniqueness,
the jokes that only some people can deliver because they've seen
what it looks like and can still laugh.
I spend a lot of time thinking about
...possibilities, that the greatest barrier to truth is often the
belief that you've already found it...how fantastic and absurd it
is to be alive. If Kurt (Vonnegut Jr) would think I'm a twerp.
On a typical Friday night I am
not a big believer in "typical."
There's really no telling, I try not to set too many presumptions
on each day, I may be in bed with book, ignoring a heavily knocked
door, or on a road trip to the grand canyon because nostalgia is
contagious, or just at the local pub, scouting for good characters.
The most private thing I’m willing to admit
I feel ridiculous about this...and most things...Es muss sein.
You should message me if
...you have a thirst for knowledge that just isn't sated by the
labels on shirts and the sharp edges of the closest magazine, if
you've got better things to do than ever talk about the weather
unless you're making up an excuse to do something different, if
you're not satisfied just wondering...
....you want to trade/workshop
....you want to write a book/graphic
novel/essay/epic/screenplay/cartoon/have a good suggestion or
perspective, be it must-see film, book, or just provoking idiom,
let's network knowledge, at least.
...you prefer to look outside the standard gender-sexuality
dichotomies and mores.
...you read my whole profile...feel free to message me so I can
congratulate, appreciate, and apologize.