during my misadventures in online dating i come across quite a few profiles containing the phrase "i'm not your average vegas girl". funny part is, that this phrase is usually followed by:

"i like outdoors-y stuff"

"i like to party, but enjoy staying home too"

"i love the twilight books and movies"

"i'm going to school to be a make-up artist"/"i'm going to school for nursing"

or they just write what seems to be utter randomness to make themselves come off as either quirky, unapproachable, or pretty much insane

now, i'm not trying to be judgmental, just making an observation. the average vegas girl isn't your average vegas girl...howbeit most of them are exactly the same.

i'm just waiting to be proven wrong.

i've died every day
since she walked away
and said "hey"
with an air of disdain
i dip my brush in the paint
a dull red hue of pain
i depict fire and flames
melting to red tears
and flowing down a drain
the salty sweat of lusts
emboss the pipes in rust
frozen in the the past
causing the ducts to bust
the future is flushed
and never to be refilled
love at first and last sight
and thus my soul was killed
and a single rose red
rose the dead
forsake the casket
and left the carson in my stead
to be pollenated and bred
withered botanical hybrid
true sign that the closed mouth is never fed
if to see her again
would i have the courage to befriend
or rush into the end
of a dream yet to begin?
or would i wake
draped in the linen capes
tangled and trying to escape
the eternally damned love of hate
the fate
to have my heart locked in purgetory in a crate
for each delay
for every angel i let get away
i die for each 1
once a day.