I think I enjoy life so much because of how serious I am about thoughtfully living it. I have always had an interest in helping those that do not have. This has meant doing what I can as an individual to help others and generally working towards a more pleasurable world. Examples include my having lived and studied in South Africa and doing clinical work in lower socioeconomic hospitals/clinics. These experiences have always been meaningful in light of my seeing the world around me through a psychoanalytic lens.
Yep, Freud, analysis, lying on the couch, the meaning of dreams, everything being about sex… that kind of stuff. This is my work, which is inseparable from who I am. Lol, honestly, it’s so cool because it makes so much sense. It’s tricky to understand these ideas which can be very abstract and uncomfortable to think but once you do, you can see so much in life that makes sense. I think this is awesome and feel exhilarated by it. It reminds me of those drawings or sketches that hung on the walls in freshman dorm rooms back in college. You had to hold your eyesight or your gaze in a uncommon or unnatural position to see all these others things that then popped out at you. Psychoanalysis has that quality.
Psychoanalytic work will always be a significant part of my life and I don't think I will retire early (ever?). Thankfully, I will go into private practice so the job will have hours I get to set (though this is not so right now while I am getting licensed).
In sum, I think a lot, work long hours, and value pleasurable things in life. I feel very deserving to unwind doing things that feel good. This includes enjoying wine, hanging with friends, getting deep massages, sleeping in on the weekends, seeing films, theater, jazz and classical music performances. I enjoy eating well: healthy and tasty foods, cheap foods, dining out at nice/interesting restaurants, and cooking in my kitchen. And as much as I still hate to go, I make it a priority to exercise regularly at the gym. I find the pain of it definitely bearable as long as I have good music playing loudly through my earphones....