7.18.05

Last night was more than interesting...it was beautiful. Before the ceremony I was very nervous and apprehensive. When the ceremony began and I knelt before Diego (the shaman), I prayed that Madre Ayahuasca would allow me to focus on others rather than myself. I also prayed to have an experience that would allow me to focus on my surroundings...Like the first ceremony, the visions began with an assortment of colorful and very complex geometeric patterns, very similar to some of the artwork shipibo indians produce (http://www.amazon-indians.org/page14.html). Interestingly, the sounds from the jungle seemed to come alive pretty quickly as well. I heard specific tones which slowly developed into more complex rhythms and textures. I also became very interested in the shapes I saw...more so than the first night....this time I sort of allowed myself to float into them. Soon after taking interest in the shapes/designs/colors, I found myself in a darker area where some sort of alien figure appeared. This "alien'' looked like something between a bee and a figure in a blue space suit. It started communicating with me, maybe telepathically, and it called me a name, which I recognized as my own...Although I can't remember exactly what it said, the name sounded a lot like "tutankhamun." I also remember the name "hambraic" being used, although this wasn't referencing me personally. This strange blue figure then began to grow a series of arms that resembled long tubes or snakes. He then began to slide them up my shoulder and into my ears and mouth. The music then started...the lyrics sounded as if they were some ultra futuristic language and I suddenly felt like a warrior in the future. It was a facinating yet uncomfortable place. A lot going on. It was then that I began to hear others in the ceremony space begin to vomit...I felt a purge coming on...Yet at this moment, I decided to move away from these visions...I pushed the alien aside and began to recognize the songs as Spanish. This realization brought on a new series of visions that were incredibly "Amerindian." I had a heavy alpaca blanket on me and I felt a very native American flavor in the air. I began to feel like a wiseman. During this whole time, I was seated upright, as opposed to the first ceremony when I was thrown on my back helplessly. I felt a great strength. I then noticed that there was a giant moth on the screen behind me and I immediately recognized it as an ally...this connection also gave me strength. During this ceremony my eyes were wide open and for awhile I saw a blue and red series of fractal patterns hanging in the air. In them I saw the face of an Egyptian Empress/Goddess who may have been Madre Ayahuasca. The songs began to grow more powerful and I was in awe. I began to feel a sense of love inside and out...Although I felt great, I noticed that many around me were getting sick. I wanted to help them with their purge, but I was too captivated by the songs. The energy that the songs gave me instilled a very true sense of love...I wasn't going to give this up. It seemed that every chord, whistle and shake of the leaves tickled my body lovingly. I began to think of everyone I loved...I felt whole and happy to just love without seeking love in return. I felt to love was to be loved in some way. From this point on, I rode the waves of the songs and never once had a bad thought. I also had trust in Ayahuasca to keep all this up. This exctasy went on all night (10:30pm-5:45am). By the end of the ceremony I had so much love in me, I could hardly walk. Furthermore, because I didn't vomit, all the medicine remained inside of me and prolonged the effects.

To anyone interested:


As you can see, the ceremonies take many turns and twists. No matter what you see or what you feel, you always learn a tremendous lesson...each lesson is about truth. I looked again at some of the writing of Graham Hancock tonight and I can't get over the fact that he had some very similar experiences. I really believe that this medicine allows you to access another reality that is mainly unchecked by human kind. The amazing thing is that there are signs of this reality everywhere you look. I can't tell you how differently the world looked to me after this ceremony. I felt more of a part of the puzzle.

I think you should look at some of the paintings of the Shaman Pablo Amaringo. He captures what some of the visions are like in his work. http://tinyurl.com/46t7pc

Here is the link to the place I visited in Peru: Ayahusaca-wasi.com

You can listen to a bunch of the music here: http://ayahuasca-wasi.com/english/icaros.html

Finally, here is a link to a Terrance Mckenna article that I like to read every few months...it makes so much sense after experiencing ayahuasca. http://deoxy.org/t_ppp.htm