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My self-summary Propose an edit

Please note: I am not sane, down to earth, or easy-going. I thought this might be an important thing to tell people.

I identify as a bohemian, and I've recently been better about not letting my job suck out my soul, though I am again a corporate drone. I like gothic aesthetics and hippie ideals. I like geeky diversions and nerdy stimulations, without the dorky lack of grace. I'm polyamorous.

I am an atheistic (though much like Fox Mulder, I want to believe), pantheistic Unitarian Universalist. I am also a fairy princess. Luckily for me, technology sufficiently advanced is indistinguishable from magic. Metaphysically.

I am fueled by love, unholy rage, and dissatisfaction.

I don't live up to my own expectations. Neither does anyone else. That is how I want it.

I'm incredibly spacey and detached. I leave my head places despite the fact that it is attached to my neck. My mind wanders. I'm fairly incapable of mentally single-tasking. Related to all of these items, I prefer conversation with people who can carry on interlocked conversations about unrelated topics with no need to segue between topics.

I'm extremely arrogant, but have low self esteem. It is a magical mystery tour.

I hate puritans. I tend to blame things on puritans, but really, it's usually their fault.

I'm not really actively looking for relationships of any sort right now. But I still have everything checked in "looking for" because, you know, evs.

I now must give a "shout out" to "my peeps": my BFF BFSCR, my favorite Nocker krashtek, my lovely former roommate and co-lolcat mommy pravda82, my Sparkies djsparkydog and roflmeow, and my AWILDFAT TheArcane

What I'm doing with my life Propose an edit

Playing a lot of Rock Band and singing karaoke. Screachily practicing the violin. Spending less time than I want to with everyone in my sitcom-like array of relationships. Making plans for an air fuel explosive to blow up a van bought from Craig's List in the desert, and making plans on how to not make that cause a flash fire of Russian thistle. Reading and posting to a very high volume email list of which I have been a member for 7 years now.

I currently work a rather cushy and completely unchallenging information technology job. Sometime in the future I'll do something else. I have been at most points in my life incapable of fathoming the future beyond about a year in advance. I was also working with a friend on his dotcom startup developing algorithms for natural language processing software. I've sort of fallen off that wagon a few times, and we seem to be constantly busy with other work.

I tend to move a lot. I've been in New Mexico since September '07. We'll see how long it lasts.

I'm really good at Propose an edit

Spatial reasoning, pattern recognition, systems, anything self-referential. I'm quite good at learning just about anything if I try. Which I don't, so it turns out that I just suck.

I change my mind on major worldview-affecting issues when presented with new data AT THE DROP OF A HAT.

I can drive well, and carry a tune, and I run a mean RPG. I give the appearance of being preternaturally empathic as long as I have no real personal interest in how people feel. I'm rather stronger than the average human, and I have a high pain tolerance and a mutant healing factor.

I've been told that my singing is like unto the Sirens'; and I get complimented on my dancing at the goth club by the hardcore rivetheads, the weird creepy dudes, the drag queens, the fluffy hippie chicks, and the confused mainstreamers that look confused as to why they are there, so I assume I'm doing OK in that department.

The first thing(s) people usually notice about me Propose an edit

I have a figure like a ridiculous hentai character, big blue dreadlocks, and a Surreal Quality.

My favorite books, movies, music, and food Propose an edit

Books: anything and everything by Neil Gaiman, Hound and Falcon series by Judith Tarr, Book of the New Sun by Gene Wolf, Mageworlds series by Debra Doyle and James D. McDonald, Mary Russel series by Laurie R. King, Fifth Millennium series by a slew of authors.

I enjoy speculative fiction in general. I also enjoy reading textbooks. I also like poetry, and my favorite poets are Don Marquis, Clark Ashton Smith, Sara Teasdale, A.E. Housman, Percy Shelley, and Lord Byron

Movies: I like arthaus cinema and terrible terrible sci-fi and kung fu flicks. I also really like Zoolander and Orgazmo. I went about two and a half years without seeing any movies except at the indie theater, which I acknowledged made me a douche. I broke that with the fine piece of cinema Doomsday, and have since seen The Dark Knight which really is as good as everyone and their mom thinks. Other favorites are Sin City, Batman Begins, and Muppets from Space. I really have a hard time sitting through most movies.

Music: I enjoy gothic rock, psychedelic 60s rock, industrial, hippie music, nerdcore hiphop, well-done filk, and a good amount of the very harmonic hard "alternative" rock of the 90s. I like classical music that sounds like the soundtrack to a thunderstorm or as if it was written in the throes of madness. There are many mashups that take two or more songs I hate and combine them into something that I LOVE. Bands and artists that I particularly like include: Covenant, Delirium, Don McLean, Einsturzende Neubauten, Jefferson Airplane, Johnny Cash, Joy Division, Justin Sullivan, KMFDM, Lal Waterson, Led Zeppelin, Leonard Cohen, LiVE, MC Frontalot, Neil Young, Nick Cave, Nine Inch Nails, Random Access Memory, Sam Phillips, Simon and Garfunkle, Siouxsie and the Banshees, Smashing Pumpkins, Tenacious D, The Austin Lounge Lizards, The Beatles, The Cruxshadows, The Cure, The Doors, The Sisters of Mercy, The Strand, The Who, They Might Be Giants, Tori Amos, Beethoven, Bartok, Bach, Chopin, Shostakovich, Wagner

Food: Indian, Thai, and middle eastern are my favorite. I also really like fruit, mint, dark chocolate, and goat cheese. I am a lacto-ovo vegetarian (but am in no way offended by others' food choices). Also, I am fueled by Vitamin Water and drink more hot tea than your English grandmother.

And then things from each of those categories that people seem to think are awesome but that I hate: Dan Brown, Magnolia, techno remixes of classical music (yes, even that Carmina Burana remix that you think I'll just love), and okra. What the hell is wrong with okra? Even Indian spicing can't save it.

The six things I could never do without Propose an edit

logic, emotion, honesty, freedom, communication, dissatisfaction

I'm skeptical of Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs when it comes to self-aware human beings. Myself and many people I know have clearly pursued love and esteem above the basic necessities of life, though it could be argued that if we had done this for too long we would have ceased to eat, and died. Once a person whom I considered to be an extreme intellectual inferior explained to me why she couldn't think about certain things during certain times of her life, and perfectly described Maslow's hierarchy in every detail perfectly. I felt vaguely like Socrates with the apocryphal stable boy.

Speaking of that, one time I explained how gothic and industrial aesthetics actually address the same base emotions and struggles but are separated by which level of Maslow's hierarchy they address, solving all issues of why the two genres are interminably intertwined. I think that was the best and most golden series of bullshit lines to ever leave my mouth on the spur of the moment. It was grand enough that all of the heavens should have cracked open and sung my glory. I would wizard's duel that brief exposition against the person who wrote their Master's thesis on Maslow's hierarchy in an episode of Xena: Warrior Princess any day of the year!

I like telling stories which are only vaguely related to one another and which are entirely unrelated to the heading of the section in which they appear.

I spend a lot of time thinking about Propose an edit

I spend a very large amount of time thinking about time travel, superpowers, the physical implications of superpowers, what to do during and after a nuclear/biological/economic/zombie apocalypse, and how I would phrase wishes if said wishes were being granted by the devil. And if this dress makes me look fat.

I obsess over things I said yesterday or last week or last year and about whether those were stupid things to say and whether they changed things. I obsess over things people said to me, and whether they were implying something and whether they really meant it/still mean it/indicated that what I said to them was stupid.

Also, the following topics:

A. E. Houseman, abstraction, absurdity, aesthetics, androgynous pronouns, antiques, art nouveau, astronomy, b movies, baking soda, ballet, baroque, bathroom graffiti, bicycling, bohemianism, books, cartoons, changeling, chosen families, civil disobedience, civil liberties, Clark Ashton Smith, classical mechanics, climbing trees, communalism, computers, contemplation, corsetry, costuming, Cthulhu, d&d, d-pittsburgh-bullcrap, dancing, dark alleys, DDR, Don Marquis, dreams, Edgar Allan Poe, etymology, faery tales, fantasy, folklore, fractals, freedom, frolicking in the rain, fuzzy math, gaming, geeky stuff, Gerard Manley Hopkins, glitter, goat cheese, goth, hacking the urban context, happy toads, haute couture, hippies, historical cosmological models, homesteading, honey badgers, horror, hugging trees, idealism, imagination, information theory, intellectualism, INTP, Invader Zim, John Keats, Jung, Kaiju Big Battel, kung fu movies, larp, Latin, linguistics, lip balm, Live Journal interests, Lord Byron, Louis Comfort Tiffany, magical realism, Marxist-Satanic-foreign sexual practices, math, mathematical formalism, mathematical intuitionism, mbti, melancholia, metaphor, monsters, mythology, Neil Gaiman, nerdcore hiphop, nerdy stuff, opera, Oscar Wilde, pantheism, parrots, Percy Shelley, personality type, philosophy, physics, pi, pie, playing guitar, poetry, pointless stories, polymaths, poncy elves, psychology, Pythagoras, quaint amusements, random facts, reading, religion, renaissance festivals, roleplaying games, romanticism, Sara Teasdale, science as description, science fiction, SCIENCE!, sewing, sexual liberation, shenanigans, sidhe, snow, sociology, space opera, space travel, sparkly things, speculative fiction, stained glass, steampunk, storms, stupid science tricks, surrealism, sword and sorcery, systems, tangents, tea, the moon, the sublime, the terrible secret of space, thousands-year dead languages, thunderstorms, toys, unicore, unilobe, Unitarian Universalism, Vitamin Water, Wikipedia, wikis, wistfulness, wxaining, Yagan's head, yoga, your mom, zombies

On a typical Friday night I am Propose an edit

Hanging around at home or at someone else's home, putzing about on The Tubes or out having adventures.

The most private thing I'm willing to admit here Propose an edit

*I like Changeling: The Dreaming a little too much.

*This one time, I was sexually aroused by the thought of Ayn Rand and Alan Greenspan doing it.

*I have no gender identity. Gender identity creeps me out.

*I'm excessively romantic; both in that I view the whole world through the magical lenses of imagination, transforming every action into sword-swinging heroics or the unending tyranny of pain; and in that I fall in love in a consuming, psychotic fashion. These two related qualities interact to the creation of vast excitement and explosions.

*I have this consistent fear that deep down I have a prudish streak left over from my fundamentalist upbringing. This is a large part of why I once worked in a titty bar for the lulz.

*I suffer from depression and dysphoria, and enjoy every minute of random hallucinations.

*I want to pop your zits.

You should message me if Propose an edit

You want to talk about something that is mentioned in my profile. You live in Albuquerque and would like to hang out and do geeky things or engage in shenanigans.

Generally I am, indeed, interested in chatting (though I might have my IM off or not notice it). As such, you should really just start chatting with me; it's more interesting to respond to "What do you think of the fascinating migration patterns of wildebeests?" than to "Hey do you want to chat?"

You are a nerd or geek who is not ashamed of being a nerd or geek. If you're all "I know it's horrible, but I like to read text books and play D&D," you know, get back to me when you realize it's not actually horrible.

I should draw attention to my religious leanings, as it seems that my milkshake is always bringing the Satanists to my yard. As the glorification of selfishness is possibly the most abhorrent possible thing to my moral and ethical system, I should warn you, oh Satanists, that getting a piece of my sweet sweet Chaotic Good, Humanist, love-thy-neighbor, Seelie fairy princess ass is highly unlikely. I'll still talk to you though. Also, Objectivists are Satanists with different aesthetics.

I probably will not message you back if your post contains no punctuation, all caps, substitution of single letters for words and/or rampant abbreviation, poor subject/verb agreement, elipses instead of single periods in between every sentence... you get the idea. If you don't get the idea, I probably won't message you back.

I probably will not message you back if your profile is almost empty (unless you write an extremely engaging and detailed message), your self summary can be paraphrased as "I hate trying to summarize myself" or "ask me if you want to know", your profile contains the grammaticopuntuatory issues listed in the above paragraph, or The DaVinci Code is listed in your favorite books section. It's not me; it's you.

FAQ:
Q: What kind of hair dye do you use, and where can I get it?
A: Special Effects Electric Blue. Albuquerqueans can get it at Free Radicals at Lead and Yale (http://www.freeradicalshq.com), others can get it from Amphigory (http://www.amphigory.com/special_effects_hairdye.html)

Q: Do you play/like Changeling: The Lost?
A: No

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