Of all the injuries and illnesses I've suffered, apathy is by far the worst.

Hey, my name is John and I'm a student at Washington State University. I'm going to be honest here, I have no idea what I'm looking for here. I've never dated before (and am therefore a virgin). I'm not even sure if I'd want to have a significant other. Basically, I'm dropping a line out there just to see what's out there. Right now, I'm not really optimistic about my chances.

Enough depressing shit. I'm studying Material Science and Engineering and I'm a total math and science nerd. I can act like a know it all, but I'll (usually) admit when I'm wrong. I have two dogs and I have to say, I'm more attached to them than any person (including family).

If there is no doubt in your heart, then you're doing something wrong.

That's a good question.

I'm going to a four year university studying engineering. I've toyed with the idea of transferring but right now I'm just focused on getting through the upcoming year. I used to play soccer and train in tae kwon do and arnis but surgery put me out of commission for a while. I'm going to try and find ways I can continue those activities at school next year. I know I could use the exercise.

I also have a very non-specific long term plan with what I'll do with my life. Basically, I'll get a job after college, whenever that will be, and build a stable financial base. After I have enough to flat out retire, I'll go back to school and become a teacher, preferably at the high school level. Also, I want to learn how to operate a sailboat, airplane or helicopter, and a motorcycle by the time I'm 50. (0 down, 3 to go)

... math, science, and some computer stuff. I was actually thinking of maybe getting a job tutoring next year. I've also been told I'm good at writing. I'd say I'm decent at it. I often use it as a way to sort out my thoughts. Keeps me sane when I can't sleep.

An optimist says the cup is half full. A pessimist says the cup is half empty. An engineer says the cup is twice as big as it needs to be.

... is that I won't hesitate to help when asked. I'm a generous person and am more than willing to help out in any way that I can when someone takes the time to ask for it and I don't want anything in return. I wouldn't say I'm altruistic, but maybe that's what I am.

I have more than enough potential. What I lack is ambition, and I'm fine with that.

I believe insanity is simply a measure on how much a man wants to escape reality.

Books: 1984, Shogun, King Rat, Tai Pan, Richard III, Hamlet, Macbeth, Diplomacy, Stiff, Dune series, Redwall series, Midshipman's Hope series, The Magician's Nephew, and Night

Movies: V for Vendetta, Fight Club, Boondock Saints, Righteous Kill, Saints and Soldiers, Letters from Iwo Jima, Gran Torino, The Devil's Advocate, Remember the Tiatns, Gattica, Jin-Roh: The Wolf Brigade, Akira, Ghost in the Shell, Rendition, Body of Lies, Serenity, Fearless, Inside Man, Fulltime Killer, Micheal Collins, Children of Men, and Thank You for Smoking

Music: Project 86, Rage Against the Machine, Twelve Tribes, Soilwork, System of a Down, Killradio, In Flames, Dead Hearts, Powerman 5000, Cold, Soilwork, Killswitch Engage, Nightwish, Static-X, Dimmu Borgir, and Linkin Park. I've also recently gotten into Alien Ant Farm and Theory of a Dead Man. I'll listen to pretty much anything, but these are the bands I just felt were worth my time to collect their music.

Food: Asian food, duh, mexican food, peanut butter, anything really

All my problems stem from two sources: lack of sleep and poor judgement.

A computer
Music
A way to write
Math
Good food
My dogs

The true theory of relativity is everything is relative, there are no absolutes.

I focus on the present as much as I can. I don't like to dwell on the past because there's nothing I can do to change it and as long as I take care of the present, I figure the future will sort itself out.

... at home alone on the computer or maybe just chilling with a couple of friends. I'm not a big party person. It's not that I won't ever go to a party, it's just not my thing and I'd need a pretty good reason (besides drunk girls) to go.

The sun is shining and the birds are singing. Man, this sucks.

... is I almost didn't graduate high school. It didn't have to do anything with grades. If you want to hear the full story, message me and I'll be happy to share.

Another interesting, but not necessarily private bit of information is I have two extra bones in my right foot (there used to be three). I'm also partially colorblind.

Low probability is infinitely better than no probability.

...you have any reason at all. I know that sounds desperate and I might just be. Either way, if you're willing to talk, I'm more than happy to respond. A few things to consider first, though: I absolutely abhor txt speak. Incorrect spelling just drives me nuts but I can live with incomplete or grammatically incorrect phrases within reason. Other than that, yeah go ahead and say whatever you want.

The 'right time' will never come. That's why you have to suck it up and do it now.