I've been separated since November 2011. My eventually-to-be ex husband walked away from our marriage & family, leaving me with all of our financial responsibilities. He apparently met someone at work at some point before he left, and chose to give up the life we shared together to begin living a new life with her. He moved right in with her when he left me. And I'm not sure if it makes me feel better or worse that she's ugly and fatter than me.
He & I do not communicate, and there is no possibility we will ever get back together. I can't afford to initiate our divorce yet, and it seems he can't be bothered with the responsibility to file.
I'm sharing all of this here because I've learned that some men may choose not to pursue getting to know a woman who isn't yet divorced. I want to be honest upfront about my situation & allow you the opportunity to decide how you feel about my current status. I consider myself single, but legally I am still married.
Everything I have experienced through all of this has led me to a very grounded and self-aware place in my life today. I know the kind of love I want to find, hopefully with a man who has gone through challenging life & love experiences himself and has learned positive lessons from those difficult journeys. I finally understand what it takes to nurture love and passion so that they never stop growing. I hope to find a man who has come to understand this too.
Now that you've read through the heavy stuff, please let me lighten the mood and tell you a little about me! :)
I'm happy, intelligent, hopeful, strong, goofy, tender, playful, sensual, loving, appreciative, giving, faithful, honest, sometimes flighty, open, and kind. I snort sometimes when I laugh too hard. My favorite color is purple. I recently lost the second of two dogs who were part of our family for 14 & 13 years, and gained two adopted kittens. I'm learning that cats are a trip! And I'm possibly addicted to HEB's Southwestern Tortillas & "That Green Sauce".
I'm proud that I am able to financially support myself in this world of mine that was originally built on two incomes. I love unsweetened iced tea, and a really good fountain DP with crushed ice! I'm learning to forgive and move on. And I have an acoustic guitar that I don't know how to play (newly strung & tuned!), but plan to teach myself at some point.
I'm great at Trivial Pursuit and logic puzzles. I'm not so great at Scrabble, but I still love to play. I'd like to learn to ride a motorcycle. I'd also like to learn to shoot a gun. I still love 80s music. I brush my teeth in the shower. And I only drink coffee at work...with cream & sugar.
My favorite flower is the Daisy. My favorite scent is Patchouli. I tend to giggle when I'm nervous. I still enjoy swinging on playground swings. I'm finally learning to love myself...mind, body, and soul ~ I'm pretty hot! (ha!) I'm working on being less procrastinating. I value open & honest communication. I'm a really good listener and love being around other really good listeners. And my grandson calls me LaLa. (:
I have a car named Allie that I love driving! I've really missed my maiden name. I suck at lawn work. I've just discovered the thrill of NASCAR racing & might be addicted. I hate shopping. A monkey once climbed onto my head during a live broadcast of a local kid's TV show called Uncle Zeb's - I was 5, and slightly traumatized! I like going fishing, but haven't in a really long time. And I tend to sing best when no one is around to hear it.
I love the sound of horses hooves clopping on downtown San Antonio streets. I love big, Texas shaped waffles & getting to eat them sitting across from the guy I love! I've never eaten a crawfish, but would be willing to give it a try. And my purse probably weighs 10 lbs...wtf!?
I tend to cut my own bangs on an impulsive whim, and they usually end up a little on the short side because I'm apparently a bit OCD about them being perfectly even. My favorite word is "epiphany". I've been stung by scorpions on 3 different occasions, and each one of those creepy critters died gruesome, splattered deaths in response (my scorpion wrath is relentless!). I love French Toast! And I'm thinking about inventing a cat diaper because I hate, hate, HATE cleaning out my cats' litter box twice a day (on second thought, the cat diaper may have already been invented...Google search, here I come!).