I enlisted in the Navy almost the day after I graduated. I was going to see the World! I got to see the bottom of a Ship a lot. I did, however, get to stand in the Roman Coliseum though.
I was married to the girl of my dreams by age 22. Sadly, the dream was over months later.
What did I learn? That not everything that we are taught to want are things that will make you happy.
So, I have spent the time since trying to discover what makes me happy. I have discovered that for me, balance is an integral part of who I am. I have learned that money, although nice to have to buy things and afford some opportunities, is not inherently what I seek for happiness. I have been much happier at times making diddly squat as a Teacher’s Aide then I have while making decent money as a warehouse supervisor. I have discovered that staying off the beaten path is harder if you happen to love your friends and family. Not all those you love will tolerate bugs and dirt as much as you.
I realize that I enjoy socializing and dancing, I just realize I don’t particularly enjoy the drama sometimes involved, so I try to do so with those I am closest to. This tends to reduce such drama.
I like to think that I now have a better idea of my own happiness, but I can’t quite escape the nagging feeling that there is more, that there is something missing. I have observed some of my friends and the families they have created, and I still have hope that I will get that chance too.