I am popping my journal cherry, so go easy on me. I am trying to figure out what to write about. I could express my views about politics for this Presidential Election, but I don't want to defend my opinion to every a-hole that wants to post a comment just to get on my nerves. I could talk in depth about my past relationships, but I'm sure that's what everyone on this site does and it gets pretty boring and annoying when you find out the person you like is pretty fucked up and blames it on who they went out with before you. Since I have only had 2 boyfriends in my life, kinda tough to do. I knew I was fucked up before then since I didn't have a boyfriend until I was 19. Speaking of which, I could talk about why I'm so fucked up. Truth of the matter is, I don't even know why. It seems that no one is "normal" so what's the point in boring or scaring you even more than you already are? Well, I figured out what I want to say:

You never really know someone by studying their profile or reading their posts or even chatting with them, and no one will ever know you until you open up. I am not saying tell your deepest darkest secrets on the first meeting, but don't feel like you should hold back until you've caught the fish on the hook. No one likes being surprised when they're so deeply committed (or at least they think they are). Know what you're getting into before you make a decision that affects the rest of your relationship (or friendship or whatever-ship). If they aren't scared off by your itty bitty tidbits, then you should not be scared off by theirs. I know this is starting to sound preachy, I will not be much longer.

Just figure out what you want and what you are willing to give instead of being with someone because they're a good fuck or have a good amount of money, etc. And I know this is gonna sound bad but NEVER SETTLE. Don't ever think "well I know this relationship sucks but there's no one else out there for me" because you know that's bullshit. But this does not mean change your mind about being in a monogamous relationship by cheating on your significant other. Don't allow yourself to have another person be the reason your relationship falls apart. But for God's sake don't bend over and take it when cheating does occur (whether you've done it or not).

If you're still reading this, bravo, I'm surprised you were able to follow my rant. If you comment with your own personal opinion, I will respect it but I will not change mine to make you happy because I am not trying to change yours. These are not my beliefs, they are things I have thought out for many years and can change in the blink of an eye, but not because I want someone to like me. If you don't agree, say so, but don't try preaching to me with your own opinion because I know not everyone will agree, don't need to tell me that. I thank you for your time and patience.

I need a cigarette, I hope that was good for you as it was for me.