There are some decisions that are completely unfair to make. Particularly when they involve children.
I'm stuck in a situation that I got myself into due to my sense of "Christian responsibility" towards people, again, children that need help.
I live with a couple that recently got into a legal bind over a custody issue with an ex-husband. They were not wrong in their actions but wound up having to leave me guardianship of 3 of their 6 kids. The other 3 are with the ex who is quite abusive. Long story short the mother is very self serving and has made a few poor decisions that will almost definitely negatively affect the future of her 3 kids not at home. All the while doing this, she made more poor choices that leave the kids at home ill cared for and without necessary things, such as food. Her reasoning for her choices was absolutely based on her wants and not the needs of her kids.
My dilema is this question- How long do you continue in a situation that is stressful, unhealthy, and precarious to try and protect children that aren't yours? Or, provide, I guess, currently. My staying on in this household is taking a toll physically, emotionally and monetarily on me that is wearing me thin. Not only that, but the actions are obviously wrong and I cannot condone them in any way. That being the case, how do you walk out on children? Be them your own or not, how can a person leave kids in an environment that lacks so greatly in concern for them? I really just don't know what to do anymore. It's hard not to want to cream anymore. It's tearing me apart at the seams. My relationship is strained as will many other parts of my life. I know that God gives strength when it's needed, but is staying in this place for the kids what I should be doing? It seems to me that God would want all of His children loved and cared for, but should I be sacraficing myself to do it? I really just don't know. I really wish I did.

Earlier this week, question was put to me by a friend to make me think. It was solely for this purpose and it worked. A little too well in fact. So here it is, do I believe in good and evil. A very simple question that has had me mulling over it all week. I both do and don't believe in them. To start, I don't believe in them as entities of reality. They are perceptions named to add structure to chaos. They are an integral block of religion. Religion being ideas, philosophies, and faiths that create more for us to live for. They add meaning to life and and help relieve the fear that you are ultimately alone. So, from this point, good and evil are non existent. This is a very scary thought, I know it is as it even scares me. If there is no good or evil, then there is nothing to judge what is good and bad. That eliminates the need to act in any framed behavior. Society's perceptions on what is right and wrong really make no difference. If this is the case, then chaos rules. Murder, rape, molestation are all removed of their labels as crimes against society and thus meaningless. This can be debated further into, "Are rape and child molestation really bad if there is no good and evil?" If there is no good and evil, these things are no longer bad. They can only be viewed as bad. Because the majority of people view them as such only makes them less acceptable, not bad. Also, if good and evil were tangible and as obvious as black and white, there wouldn't be a need for as much of a judicial system. Bad people would be punished, good let go. There would be no need to assign a level of propensity of a crime, as it is evil. As far as believing in it, I believe that good and evil do exist, but only in the hearts and minds of people. I believe that our consciences lead us away from evil by giving a guilty feeling when we knowingly do wrong things. That doing something purposely knowing it is wrong is where evil lies. If someone does something without knowledge of it being wrong they cannot be labeled as evil as it was not done in malcontent. Ignorance is a big key in the good and evil debate. Suppose, on a far away planet rape and cannibalism were common practice and widely accepted. Sharing and compliments are considered highly offensive. In what we know as society this would be an atrocity. But because they do not know our way of thinking, they can not be persecuted for it. Nor should they. It is their way. They see us in the same light. We are not in any kind of position to say they are wrong, for who knows? They could be absolutely right and us completely wrong. All that said, now that I've shown myself to be a complete sociopath, I think I will retire from thinking for a bit. However, I would like to add, that in my thinking I have brought the question to several people I talk to on a regular basis. Their reactions were fascinating. Some people were comfortable talking about it, even when I played Devil's Advocate. Others however, where highly offended that I would argue them on these points and were quickly agitated to the point of having to discontinue the conversation to avoid conflict. It was great. I need more topics like this. Ok, now I'm done for the evening. If anyone has their own thoughts on this, they are more than welcome to add a comment.