my personality can probably best be described as what would happen if 1) a 13-year old boy who woke up one morning inside a busty woman's body, 2) a snarky and cynical old queen past his glory days, 3) your anti-government survivalist uncle, and 4) dorthy day all got together and had a baby. i recognize that reading people's profiles can be a lot like reading the ingredients on a box of processed food and trying to imagine what it tastes like; nevertheless i'll do my best.
i'm an introvert that plays the part of extrovert well. friendly and easy to talk to. unafraid of risk. literate. often mistaken for younger than i am. has fingers in many pies. largely incapable of small talk (i can muscle my way through it but for me it's only foreplay to get to the good stuff). constantly in a state of trying things on. craves authentic human connection and intellectual stimulation (and sometimes, pizza).
i'm sensitive to the cruelty and suffering in the world. awed by the beauty occasionally demonstrated by humans. searching into the future. haunted by ghosts of the past. highly emotionally developed, perceptive, and self-aware. a big soft, wet, gooey heart, but i won't show it right away. striving and wondering if i'll make it. am i a lion disguised as a mouse, or a mouse disguised as a lion? is enough ever enough?
i thrive on genuine communication about shit that matters; it is the air i breathe. consequently, i've found that being real with people right away is a quick-n-easy vetting process! my life is slipping through my fingers like sand, so is yours, and i don't have time to talk about the weather... i want to understand the world and myself better through understanding YOU. the older i get, the more apparent it becomes to me that conversation is my religion.
"when two people relate to each other authentically and humanly, god is the electricity that surges between them." -martin buber