If I were to sum up my three priorities in life, I'd say freedom, love, and truth/beauty.
By freedom I refer to our own innate ability to think and feel in terms of our own unique self expression, desires and dreams. It's an ongoing thing, to explore one's character and figure out what makes you you. To find answers are equally as important as the asking itself. Freedom to me doesn't mean shirking what's in front of us in favour of something else, it means we allow ourselves to express US, and of course make the necessary compromises that exist within a partnership. I guess what I mean to say is that freedom to me represents a laissez-faire approach to others, even if we know in our core that they are intrinsically different.
Love, well that's a very hard word to define, though I know my pursuit of it makes it easier to understand.
Truth/beauty are interchangeable terms to me, because to me to recognize any truth from whichever point of view, requires a measure of belief, much like how language takes hold of us sometimes. Often what we hold to be beautiful is reflected by how we feel and what our values are at the time.. (in my take)
I'm working at a local restaurant. It's an awesome time for me and I sometimes wonder if my life could get any better (36 has been a rollercoaster). The night life is exciting but sometimes lonely.
Here's some self-imposed character archetypes:
I'm chaotic lawful neutral (d&d). I'm fire on the mountain. (Ei ching). My first 3 tarot cards are the world, the sun, and the knight of wands. I'm a gemini taurus with aries rising, mars in leo and mercury in taurus. Very little water (which makes for my reservedness) but i have a good intuition. and above all a respect for all things living including beef which i prob eat too much of and mosquitos which are just a nuisance. All these aside, I just want to meet someone who is able to laugh at life's mystery and not think too finitely. Everything changes, I'm just trying to keep up and gain some perspective on the way. I don't bank on astrology, but I think it's a lovely art form and speaks to me in the language of the universe. My Mayan glyph:
YELLOW CRYSTAL WARRIOR
I seal the output of survival
with the crystal tone of cooperation
my favorite colour is green.
I am highly sensitive to others, which can sometimes cause me to withdraw in favour of my own emotional stability. This is my burden to bear and mine alone. I take people's words seriously, though they are allowed to change them if they wish, I don't understand why I should have to apply a filter to my expressions when others feel they are somehow absolve from being held to their word. Thus, I fluctuate between extremely quiet and ebulliently expressive. I hope you are able to bring me out of my safe zone, you may find I have a gift for conversation with the right parties involved. It is all a measure of understanding.
Because of my work, I am also nocturnal. I usually get up in the afternoon.
not sure if I want children, I'm not opposed but it would have to be the right person and circumstance. I don't see it in the cards for me right now... our world is mostly a daytime based society, so parenthood would probably be a not at this stage in my life.
My current mantra is "be agreeable"