So I've gotten this walking buddy recently. & I've found out the extra exercise really helps me calm down my aggressive driving a lot. Part of it's because I can have some really good conversations with this person, too, so I think that's what adds to the whole effect. Last night, I found myself NATURALLY driving slower than the speed limit. Weird. & I wasn't nearly as annoyed with other drivers either. Who'd have thunk something like that would help?

You know, I there are some profiles I'd probably never get interested in looking at if they didn't have a dang dog in their slew of pics (like in an inbox message). It's like I HAVE to inspect every inch of the little bundle of warm, cute, cuddly love.

It totally bugs me. I mean, it's funny as hell, but at the same time it kind of annoys me that I can't just say "no" to looking at the dog.

Heck, even if they had a cat in it, I'd be doing the same thing. The dogs are harder to say "no" to, though.

Since it's fire season...

I'm hoping to god Cooks Corner won't get burnt out this year. It came pretty close last year. That place is just too awesome. It would be total utter tragedy.

Off I go to there!

OkCupid needs to find an extremely compassionate genius who loves to travel & help others to fix their website. Because the cover-ups & new features just ain't working.

I just realized that the majority of my highest percentage matches on here tend to show the same looks as my dad. Ok, now that's scary.

Apparently people with personality awards who are less socially free, more spiritual, & less scientific have a huge distaste for me after talking with me for a while...

Or maybe perhaps it's somewhat of a "conservative" mind set?

It still intrigues me for some reason. & I'm not referring to just a couple people.

I've felt another strange sense of relief in knowing more things about myself. Well, basically reading a book that practically described me. I literally feel like I'm reading my life story here in at least 95% of this book.

I really realized I must have ADD. The more & more I read this book, the more & more it reflects upon journals I've written about myself & my sensitivity to other people (or perhaps non-sensitivity), things people have said about me, conceptualized pictures in my mind of the past of situations that I have never forgotten. I mean, there has been lots of things that I've read that seemed to describe me because usually the human mind is constantly trying to find ways to match things up, but nothing that hit home like this. For the longest time I felt like I was strange, never at home with the people I've lived with & I've always felt like an insane freak of nature from the constant negative feedback I've gotten from people over the years, but now I know WHY I'm so sensitive & why I do these things. I used to try to act like the average person, or like people in my family, but the way my mind & emotions worked... it just wasn't the same as my family. I couldn't do what they did & I always felt that somehow I was worse than them because of that (& sometimes they even treated me like that). I've read the descriptions about 3-4 weeks ago & realized then I had ADD, but it never gave any tips on how to deal with ADD like this book does. If it wasn't for Alex, I probably wouldn't have even read the initial description & get motivated to look it up more, so kudos to him.

So now that I have a manual to follow, I'm going to try to "teach myself" (the book talks about teaching kids/adults with ADD), & try to do things that will help improve my esteem, efficiency, & etc. It has helped me to become more aware of what I should allow for myself & ways I need to change things to help myself. I'm not sure if I'll need an actual mentor or anything; hopefully I'll have enough success at doing this myself. But it just feels good to find SOME solutions to this. So we'll see what happens.

I finally don't feel like a mental/emotional freak anymore.

Mmmmmmmmmmm. Moscato & Red Leicester Cheese. Deliiiicious. I probably should have chosen the Pinot Grigio instead, but this works, too.

So what's up with all the people knocking down prop & election signs. In Orange County, I especially notice people knocking down the Obama ones & the Prop 8 ones. Wtf? It's just a SIGN. What? Like if you leave the posted sign, your child might look at other choices & vote against you when they grow up? Get over the paranoia. I mean, that's the only reason I can think of that people would take down a sign for. I mean, taking down a sign for revenge is still stupid. It's not like the person's name doesn't show up on the ballots or the cataloged info. Besides, taking down a sign is also a form of criminality.

Sometimes, I think there's too many people getting too worked up about politics & signs, when they should really be worrying about the important things in life - like their lifestyle & WORK.

So this last night at work, one of the residents was wide awake & talkative & joking a lot, right? Normally, she's pretty sleepy, maybe perhaps a little grouchy, but not nearly as alert as she was this time.

Well, I went to the other side of her bed when I was done changing her to put her call light next to her hand, & she looks at me & asks me something I can barely comprehend. After the 3rd time hearing it, I realized she'd asked, "Are you with fetus?"

Ok... now normally people DON'T say "fetus", they say "baby" (although fetus is a more accurate term, & I'm sure Gregory House MD would agree, lol). Well, the scrubs I was wearing last night were big, so I can see why she'd come up with that theory. The last ones she saw me in were much smaller. But it was just too funny. I think partially why it was so funny was because I had just finished my period.

But yeah... I think that was kind of a red flag pointing out I'm gaining unnecessary weight. :-/ Oh, well. I probably should do something about that, but everytime I try to come up with healthy goals, I end up dropping them really soon. I just don't have the persistence I used to. Not at ALL.

I must be showing up on a LOT of people's Quivers, especially considering the nonsensical messages like "hi!" (which I would assume is their easy way out of saving me to their "accepted" section, but they're unsure about conversing with me).

If 40-something percent (or hell, 17%) is one of the best someone could get it really makes me wonder about the people joining.

Kudos for the people who MENTION I showed up on their Quivers.