It's been said that there is no teacher greater than living with an open heart. So, naturally, I ripped my chest wide open.
I know how to speak softly. For you, maybe even softer.
Looking at clouds, riding the waves, watching the people, walking along, growing the garden, keeping an eye out, accepting and loving things just as they are. Especially myself.
Going my own pace.
Twirling my hair.
Might also be said that I'm a soul-searching homebody but I love being outdoors but I love curling up but I love taking trips but I love coming home but I love experiencing new things but I love the old and familiar. Whether it had to do with the alignment of the planets and stars when I popped out or if there was something in the drinking water from the fountains and rivers of every place I've lived loved visited and swam in, I possibly like the feeling of home best, wherever I am, and hope I provide that same sense of comfort to others. There's something really gratifying about feeding people good home-cooked meals and sharing in all that those moments consists of. I also enjoy being whisked away at the drop of a hat. I can spend days inside getting lost in music or an endless stream of words and ideas and sentiments or just a massive ball of burning inertia curled up in one spot in the creaky recesses of my own existence, shoving yummy food in my face, of course!
I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived.
~ Henry David Thoreau, 1854 ~
My woods at the moment is Brooklyn, and it shall always hold a special place in my heart for all that I've learned here.
But as I've come to see more clearly approaching forty years on this earth school, I think the more appropriate metaphor here for me is that the woods is life, wherever it takes me, wherever I am guided to. I strive to be an authentic person, live an authentic life, with authentic intention. Not always easy, but I'm really trying. And albeit anywhere can now be home, how I still dream of that little getaway cottage where the sky and all of nature just fills you up.
So, you see, I don't live by rules, "shoulds", or follow any "isms". I don't gripe about things one would normally be expected to gripe about. Gratitude is thy meal, every meal. Laughter is thy medicine. Positivity, thy fuel. Quiet, thy sanctuary. Love, thy guide. My life is the best trip I've ever been on. DUDES, I'm trippin', alright? Maybe see ya'll there.
Staying in touch with the heart-throbbing quality of being alive. This profile is not a fluid process - I am.
What if you had the fortitude to do exactly what you wanted in this lifetime - without holding back?
Imagine what you want. Then go for it.
Break those invisible chains you hold yourself to.
See for yourself.
Think for yourself.
Decide for yourself.
"We are living in a matrix. If you are reading this article, you are here to wake up."
This is a perfect article that beautifully articulates the kinds of relationships that I'm interested in cultivating - with lovers, with friends, with family, with animals :o), and with myself:
I will fill my heart with the peace of meditation.
I will pour heartfuls of joy into peace-thirsty souls.
~ Paramahansa Yogananda ~
You are what you want to become. Why search anymore? You are a wonderful manifestation. The whole universe has come together to make your existence possible. There is nothing that is not you. The kingdom of god, the Pure Land, nirvana, happiness, and liberation are all you.
~ Thich Nhat Hanh ~
Typical mode is quiet. Just don't feel the need or desire to talk much. Rare? Probably. Not to be confused with disinterested, etcetera. Quite the contrary.
When drinking though, I can be one of those people - super chatty, friendly, and of course affectionate :0)
Really amplifies how much I love.
Not that I need substance to express this, but it does bring out those colors and helps me be more social when it doesn't come as naturally.
Allowing the (mind) to sink into the (heart).
Love is the ability and willingness to allow those that you care for to be what they choose for themselves without any insistence that they satisfy you.
Now, let it sink in:
Love is..... the ability and willingness....... to allow those that you care for...... to be what they choose for themselves....... without any insistence...... that they satisfy ----> you <----.
Could there be a kinder love!?
We do not attract what we want, we attract what we are.
What are we attracting in our lives?
The Four Cardinal Virtues:
1. Reverence for all Life
1. Natural Sincerity
According to the teachings of Lao-tzu, the four cardinal virtues represent the surest way to leave habits and excuses behind and reconnect to your original nature. The more your life is harmonized with the four virtues, the less you’re controlled by the uncompromising ego.
The mind is everything. What you think you become.
Focus on the powerful, euphoric, magical, synchronistic, beautiful parts of life, and the universe will keep giving them to you.
Be as simple as you can be; you will be astonished to see how uncomplicated and happy your life can become.
~ Paramahansa Yogananda
My religion is to live through Love. :o)
Don't be afraid, love. This is just a temporary ride. Live. Love. Give. Be honest with yourself. Be honest with everyone. No one is a mind-reader. Surround yourself with people who lift you UP. Even if that person is you for the moment. Wear your heart on your sleeves. You get what you give. Open your mind. And let it all go. THERE IS NO BLUEPRINT. And it's all fine.
I love this! --
How To Be Alone
Would anyone be interested in teaching me how to play drums or some other lovely musical instrument?
"Realized people are very quiet."
(I like quiet.)
Maybe this is precisely the thing you need to click on right now:
"Everything is coming and going," says Mooji. Yup, yup. Reminders like this from Mooji, and all of my teachers, always seem to hit the spot; reinforcing my path.
And, THIS, this is fucking fantastic. All you Feelers, Psychics, Empaths... ♥ ~ Healers ~ ♥ cruising my profile, you may find this perspective of interest as well. I sure did. Something I picked up on as things started to become more clear.. For most people though, it won't make a bit of sense. And that's okay. But for you, it may be profound.
What a Shaman Sees...
Bedtime stories by Sir Alan Watts:
EGO - three little letters that keep us from saying things we really want/need to say like:
I love you
I miss you
I love you. I miss you. I'm sorry.
I used to think the worst thing in life was to end up all alone - it's not. The worst thing in life is to end up with people that make you feel all alone.
~ R W
"Being rich is not about how much we have, but how much we give." :
Germany’s first waste-free supermarket about to open its doors:
Okay, what this dude here did is truly spectacular. Talk about a fantastic voyage. This is how I would want to travel and see the world:
A commenter wrote this:
You can not put a price on adventure and meeting all our fellow world dwellers - materialism and trying to impress your neighbors is a far bigger waste of money.
Wherever you go,
Whatever you do,
No one can take the Fire
out of your soul,
from your eyes,
in your heart.
Those are yours
By clicking on this link you can help feed the hungry, with absolutely no further commitment. Easy-peasy. And you can do this EVERY DAY. Help feed someone today, if you'd like:
It seems Woody Harrelson and I share some intimate views about the world. Spot on. Maybe there's more like us. God, I hope so.
If interested pease watch here:
When the night has come, and the land is dark, and the moon is the only light we'll see...
"I live communally with 100 people in Virginia. We run a miniature society, with government and businesses we collectively own, and produce lots of our own food. We aren't tuned into TV/iPhones. We each earn $5000 a year (on average) and all of the money goes to the community. By sharing what we have - seven big houses, fifteen cars, a variety of talents and skills - we get by on very little. We have no leader and there is always plenty of food, comfortable shelter, and no trouble getting bills paid. We are all lucky to be secure and happy with our lives. I choose to live this way...
Anything like this here in Brooklyn? Or wherever you are? (Where are you?)
I really just wanna do this all day:
Your task is not to seek love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
This satirical illustrator is sooooo amazing. His thought-provoking work blows my mind:
He's illustrated so eerily the inner workings of my own mind in picture-form.
The Secrets of Food Marketing (Brilliant video):
Dolores Cannon Presents Moving into the New Earth:
Soul contracts? Okay. Discover the soul contracts that influence your life. Even with animals, your pets, etcetera:
Every time you spend money, you're casting a vote for the kind of world you want.
I don’t want someone who promises me the moon and the stars. I want someone who promises to lay on the grass and watch them with me.
I understand that there are varying reasons why people are on this site, and good luck to you all for whatever you're trying to achieve. It wouldn't be too much of a stretch to say that most people are looking to "connect" (or for some, "disconnect") -and it's not just limited to a dating website; I am no exception. But what I seek is something more than the "norm"; the casual. If you're basing your search on little else than the physical domain, it won't hold my interest and it'll be pretty obvious. Let's not waste time. If you've somehow made the connection between You, the universe, and every living thing on this planet, then you and I probably share some interests and I look forward to those types of encounters. I'm an uber-introvert! - just trying to reach a level of Nirvana while on this human-bodied quest; you know, love, peace, happiness through meditation, practice, and quiet. And by being an empathetic, loving, and non-judgmental human being. I don't have time for partying or pretending. Be kind, ya'll - especially to yourselves! *fist-pump*
So, is New York really the kind of place where I'll encounter the connections I speak of? The experience of living sensibly, quietly, sustainably, spiritually? And meeting others with similar views, practice, and focus? An alignment in priorities. That's the stuff. Hmmm.
Off to the farm or mountainside I go... finally?
"I think I fall in love a little bit with anyone who shows me their soul."
This mountain man:
Why Russell Brand is AWESOME:
1. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i5WGYQ45SKU (His facial expressions are priceless.)
Homesteading project anyone?
1. How To Build a Solar Cabin for $2000
2. I like this guy.
Saturday, May 24th, was the big March Against Monsanto, the world over. Here's a map of locations where they took place:
None in Russia though. Or Iceland. How come, Iceland? How come?
This Monsanto is doing a bad, bad thing - to all of us. And for what? You got it - $profit. If you eat food, or know someone who does, this video link might be worth the watch, and then decide for yourselves:
Happy eatin', ya'll.
Imagine $10,000 was deposited into every living human beings bank account (or pocket). How would that change things?
Imagine if money wasn't necessary for the basics of survival, like food, shelter, clothes. How could we change things?
Switzerland may start paying every adult (whether they work or not) a salary of over $2000 per month, based on the idea that their citizens will have more time to devote to things they are intrinsically interested in, instead of spending the majority of their time worrying about how they are going to survive. (Can you imagine? Well, shouldn't we?)
I think a lot about quantity of life versus quality of life. And how to do away with all that is unnecessary so that I may live a more fulfilled, worthy, kind, loving, healthy, and peaceful existence.
And how I can be of service to others.
We, as human beings, think that through social networks, we’ve somehow become more social creatures.
The problem with this theory is, the more we “connect” online, the less actual human interactions we have, making us actually fairly unsocial.
A new video breaks down exactly how the social aspects of human beings have evolved and transformed, showing how we’ve regressed from a social standpoint.
Shimi Cohen shows exactly what’s wrong with our social structure now, and how we manipulate how we want to be presented to peers, family members, and potential mates on social media, rather than having vulnerable and genuine conversations in real time.
Check out this video below, and take a moment to truly assess how you conduct yourself, both online and in person:
Aside from all that's written below, I am just looking to meet someone who is not too hip, not too busy, not too egocentric, not too consumeristic to chill with - meaningfully. Someone conscientious of the world at large, and within, who likes to bike around and smile with. And likes animals. And cuddling. And wants to watch documentaries then go out and set up a peanut butter and jelly sandwich stand and feed the hungry.
And you are also trying to align yourself sustainably. Sweet!
You've probably considered yourself anti-establishment at some point; a non-conformist; an individual; free-thinker... a free-spirit. Bundled in love. (<---Very important to note.) Now, that's attractive.
Genuine human contact. This is what I seek. I think this is what any of us seek. For some, it's just easier to convey and acknowledge.
I don't have the energy for anything less.
Wisdom tells me I am nothing. LOVE tells me I am everything. Between the two my life flows.
~ Nisargadatta Maharaj ~
“Normal is getting dressed in clothes that you buy for work and driving through traffic in a car that you are still paying for - in order to get to the job you need to pay for the clothes and the car, and the house you leave vacant all day so you can afford to live in it.” ―Ellen Goodman
There are people we meet in life that make everything seem magical.
Been reading up on the effects of sugar, high fructose corn syrup to be more specific, which led to reading up on food and the effects on the body and our ecosystem as a whole. I'm giving eating healthier more due attention once again.
More plant-based. Less cooked.
Wealth Inequality in America
Printable List of Monsanto Owned “Food” Producers
These Ten Corporations Control Almost Everything You Buy And Watch
This guy right here ChenStyleJohn he's my new idol. They have a Community Health and Education Center in Southern Costa Rica should anyone care to help and donate to their worthy cause. I've never interacted with this person but I think he's doing a beautiful thing with his life, which is helping those in need. I admire that beyond words. This motherfucker is livin' the life.
"I think I fall in love a little bit with anyone who shows me their soul."
"I think I fall in love a little bit with anyone who shows me their soul."
I don't think you heard me:
"I think I fall in love a little bit with anyone who shows me their soul."
Modern day Bodhichitta (?) (+spiritual loner) living in one of the most centralized points in the world. I don't know why. I don't really know anyone like me. Again, I don't know why. Maybe everyone feels this way.
I think it would be pretty badass to become some warrior-bodhisattva, like Mother Teresa was, like Martin Luther King Jr. was, but living this ordinary life is also as necessary, carrying this burning light within me, and letting it radiate when and if and how it will.
"So then, here's the drama. My metaphysics- let me be perfectly frank with you- is that there is the central Self, you could call it God, you could call it anything you like. And its All of us. Its playing all the parts of all beings whatsoever, everywhere and anywhere.
And its playing the game of hide and seek with itself. It gets lost, it gets involved in the farthest out adventures but in the end it always wakes up, and comes back to itself. And when you're ready to wake up, you're gonna wake up. And if you're not ready you're gonna stay pretending that you're poor little me."
~ Alan Watts
To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment. - Ralph Waldo Emerson
"It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye." --Antoine de Saint Exupéry
Which might explain why so much true beauty and wisdom is lost in our exterior-based culture. And it just keeps getting more extreme at a really disturbing and alarming rate. All for money? Fame?
We all need role models throughout our lives and something to attain to, but look at what society feeds us. Look at these American Apparel ads promoted from within this site alone with pretty little girls stripped down to their bones, in the sexiest poses that they can get away with. Look at all the hundreds of magazine covers strategically placed by check out lines, junk food, and crap, just crap, EVERYWHERE with the "beautiful ones" looking so happy and shiny, in movies, commercials, books, we are surrounded by it every which way we look -- THEY don't even look like that were it not for make up artists and stylists and photographers and editors. It makes the majority of us average looking folk feel like we're not enough, and it's not because we're lacking anything per say. So we'll buy the products, fast for days, lose ourselves in a game that we can't win. A game that we shouldn't even be playing. And on and on it goes.
FED UP - Official Documentary Trailer
I'm a fan of health, positivity, peace. You ain't gonna find these things by turning on the news, buying those magazines, feeding into the facebook frenzy -- what a nightmare that thing is.
Does Brooklyn seem to be getting LOUDER lately? And more cramped?
While it may appear otherwise, I am actually not much of a talker. I've gone long stretches in silence. Most people would find that impossible. But for me, it's serenity. Get a few drinks in me, though, and I'm the happiest chattiest friendliest drunk around. Sort of like I am when sober with kindred spirits, albeit it doesn't happen often.
I keep writing new things, just to see the old disappear at the bottom. I guess they've finally put a cap on it.
Thinking about Omega Institute
Or a farm
Or a beach on an island
Or something else, a volunteer program helping those in need. I'd be good at that.
Maybe for a weekend
Or until it's time
Love still compels me
Where do I find thee?
I'm not afraid to walk alone
I've done it forever
but a little light along the way is always nice to encounter
We are energy. Everything is energy. Our natural state is a very high state of energy. The more we stay in that high energy state the more our lives are blessed. We often make the error in believing that the negativity of others pulls us out of our high state of energy. We are wrong. Only our reaction to others can drag us into a lower state of energy.
The universe is a system which forgets itself and then again remembers anew so there’s always constant change and constant variety in the span of time. It also does it in the span of space by looking at itself through every different living organism, giving an all around view....Therefore, you are virtually nothing. A hundred years from now you will be a handful of dust, and that will be for real. All right now, act on that reality. And out of that...nothing. You will suddenly surprise yourself: The more you know you are nothing the more you will amount to something. ~Alan Watts
"You suppose you are the trouble
But you are the cure
You suppose that you are the lock on the door
But you are the key that opens it
It's too bad that you want to be someone else
You don't see your own face, your own beauty
Yet, no face is more beautiful than yours."
May 9, 2014
Something just shifted. I don't know, but I feel like I'm ready for a major change of some sort. Like the portrait I painted here with all these words, as it came to be throughout the past year or so, learning an incredible amount? I thought I could feel at home anywhere, and I did, but lately I'm starting to feel a real pull. Away from this. I am tired, I am so fucking tired. I feel like I'm drowning. Drowning in social anxiety.
I am tired of the chatter.
I am tired of the noise.
I am tired of people who don't care,
or caring about nonsensical things of absolutely zero substance.
I am tired of the egos and aggression and all that comes with them.
I am tired of being around drones & zombies.
I am tired of not being fully and properly nourished by the environment around me.
I am tired of all this junk,
Junk that people buy as acceptable standards of living.
I want a little house
With a little land
And a hammock
With some animals, plants, and food
With time to daydream, sing, breathe
As the seasons pass
As the days grow into nights
As my skin becomes more weathered
A line of clean clothes rustling in the breeze
I want to be free
To live out the rest of my life
On this amazing planet
Surrounded by natural beauty, peace, joy
Not wait until society says I can retire
To live my own life
Like I do
Like I do
The Secret Life of Plants
I seem to live in a very different world because how radically different I view and experience life. I don’t care for the things that people care for, like money, status, upgrading, social media, media in general. I feel more akin to nature, and animals, and trees, and clouds. I understand people and their suffering. Empathetic as the flesh covering my body. Most folks have no quiet space in their mind, full of second-hand opinions.
How I long to be near more human beings who are whole, kind, intelligent, alert, awake, sensitive, not dogmatic, always learning and growing. But not imposing. Not judgmental.
Knowing how powerful and limitless they are, and using it positively, for the good, even if if wasn't necessarily so arriving to this point.
If you prefer quiet, introverted, non-ironic, non-conventional, loner-ish-type girls with love that could fill the sky, we should try orbiting through space, side by side, tumbling through the universe.
I'm rarely bored alone; I am often bored in groups and crowds.
And if you are of a higher frequency, a little mentoring would be nice so that I may keep evolving. Not too many people in my world who understand.
Here's to the people who get back up more times than they are knocked down,.. who give more than they ever expect to receive,.. who still show love to others,.. even when their own heart is broken,.. who smile through the sad times,.. who light the way for others,.. who spread laughter and joy... Thank you for making the world a sweeter place to be.
Huh. Maybe we are all at fault for the way we are allowing our society to be.
Kindness, a world made more beautiful.
Damn you Thai Life Insurance ads. I see a lot of similarities in Mae Toi ha.
Follow your heart.. Let your love lead through the darkness.. Back to a place you once knew.. I believe I believe I believe in you.. ! Follow your dreams.. Be yourself an angel of kindness.. There's nothing that you cannot do.. I believe I believe I believe in you... !
The Dalai Lama, when asked what surprised him most about humanity, answered "Man. Because he sacrifices his health in order to make money. Then he sacrifices money to recuperate his health. And then he is so anxious about the future that he does not enjoy the present; the result being that he does not live in the present or the future; he lives as if he is never going to die, and then dies having never really lived."
Can't Turn Me Away
Let's Get Lost
Ya know, I think I'm going to try to get through the whole Carl Sagan Cosmos series this weekend. Here's Episode 2.
Greatest Speech Ever Made
Nothing kinda tops Charlie Chaplin but some British guy created a spoken word video called "My Call For Humanity". LOVED IT. Sharing this shit. That's what I do when I love something.
You may cry watching this video of a rescued pit bull.
There are essentially only two drugs that Western civilization tolerates: Caffeine from Monday to Friday to energize you enough to make you a productive member of society, and alcohol from Friday to Monday to keep you too stupid to figure out the prison that you are living in.
I love Bill Hicks. I love booze and coffee. I love the truth.
I'm finding polyamory more and more interesting to explore due to the fact that it's just more people to love. I mean, what is it except multiple people getting along without the inclusion of cheating, lying, killing, hurting. It seems to be win-win all around. It's a tribe. Unity. I am currently one thousand percent single and have never been in anything quite like this. I would also love it if the universe would sprinkle more of this love stuff toward my (and your) way: http://www.newsweek.com/polyamory-next-sexual-revolution-82053. Like, I've always thought growing old with some-ONE to be the most romantic thing (since this is mostly the "norm" in "society" and what we're accustomed to growing up, and I still find the idea quite fuckall romantic) but what if you could grow old with multiple people? I dunno, just keeping an open mind about everything. Making my own reality as I go along.
I mean, can't I just love people, whether it's one, two, two hundred, two billion people who are simultaneously spinning in the same Galaxy with me like an enormous pinwheel because I can't help but not to? Without feeling guilt, judgment, or remorse about it? Right. So I will.
What am I doing on SoundCloud? I dunno, what are you doing on PlanetEarth? But there I am. And by some strange coincidence, some strange human being, from some strange far away land found me, sampled two of my strange poetry-ish, stream of consciousness recordings and sent it to me. Strange! = So cool.
...because today I read a quote that said
Live in the opening where
there is No door to hide behind.
So funny. Any time I upload a photo like the one above I get a barrage of half-naked torso shots on my visitor's page. And tons of "Hi sexy" messages. Obviously, these folks aren't reading a word of my profile. Yeah, let me get back to you son, cuz you be everything I been dreamin' about.
I know. And I do know better. But still.
But if supposing say the right situation presented itself, I would not be opposed to a good-hearted lusty playmate (let's just say!). One that doesn't creep me out. (Good luck with that.) Preferably one that ovulates.
I want you to know
You know how this is:
if I look
at the crystal moon, at the red branch
of the slow autumn at my window,
if I touch
near the fire
the impalpable ash
or the wrinkled body of the log,
everything carries me to you,
as if everything that exists,
aromas, light, metals,
were little boats
toward those isles of yours that wait for me.
if little by little you stop loving me
I shall stop loving you little by little.
you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.
If you think it long and mad,
the wind of banners
that passes through my life,
and you decide
to leave me at the shore
of the heart where I have roots,
that on that day,
at that hour,
I shall lift my arms
and my roots will set off
to seek another land.
if each day,
you feel that you are destined for me
with implacable sweetness,
if each day a flower
climbs up to your lips to seek me,
ah my love, ah my own,
in me all that fire is repeated,
in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,
my love feeds on your love, beloved,
and as long as you live it will be in your arms
without leaving mine.
~Pablo Neruda (+ mystic_writr)
It's just like this.
Earth is so amazing. Thirty-three unbelievable places to visit before you die.
Some people are old at 18 and some are young at 90; time is a concept that humans created. It's true.. Somewhere my birth certificate may say that I was born in 1974 but where does it say how old my soul is? Can I please get a proper past life regression hypnotherapy session once and for all? Besides, I look (or act) like I'm 12. It gets very confusing.
But this body? There is no mistaking it; it couldn't be, taste, or feel more woman.
Which of the following forms of poetry best resembles what you desire in a relationship?
A Sonnet - Controlled, deliberate, and surprising.
A Haiku - Short, simple, and vivid.
-----> An Epic - Long, meandering, and powerful.
Free Verse - Wild, shifting, and confusing.
Like my soul. Like your soul.
"I bequeathe myself to the dirt, to grow from the grass I love;
If you want me again, look for me under your boot-soles.
You will hardly know who I am, or what I mean;
But I shall be good health to you nevertheless,
And filter and fibre your blood.
Failing to fetch me at first, keep encouraged;
Missing me one place, search another;
I stop somewhere, waiting for you."
~ Walt Whitman
"There's unconditional love there. You hear that phrase a lot but it's real with me and her. She loves me in spite of everything, in spite of myself.”
Our adopted Sioux uncle once told me, "Niece, the longest journey you will make in your life is from your head to your heart, gently touching his forehead and then his chest.
If you are looking for that one person who will change your life, take a look in the mirror.
There is no exercise better for the heart than reaching down and lifting people up.
Love is hugging the same way 50 years later.
The greatness of a man is not in how much wealth he acquires, but in his integrity and his ability to affect those around him positively.
Those doing soul work
who want the searing truth
more than solace or applause
know each other right away
Those who want something else
turn and take a seat in another room
Soul-makers find each other's company
Heard this AL Green cover today of him singing Unchained Melody the only way AL Green knows how to deliver. Good grief, hose me down somebody, anybody. He made me fall in love all over again and again and again. He had me tumbling upwards, inwards, coursing through a thousand parallel universes, right through every soul that ever existed and will ever, ever exist, billions and billions of them all in one moment. Here:
Okay, me & Al Green Friday night I guess.
haha fuck this is good:
It's alright darlin's if your eyes are a little moist after listening to these tunes. Must mean you're alive.
And then there's this fucking I'm Yours song I can't stop singing:
What we share is real. Nothing else can bond humans. Joy, sorrow, care, courage, and tenderness are real. Kindness is real. Tears are real, and so is laughter. These are the currency of the heart. They are meant to be exchanged.
This is why I am here.
Every year the high school in my small town welcomes its freshman class with a special retreat. Those who are willing spend a day and a half in a rural setting, playing outdoor games, sharing their talents, and going as deep with each other and themselves as they desire.
In circles of ten or twelve on the second day, each writes on a small piece of paper what what he or she values in the other members of the group. First everyone writes about one person in the circle. Then they each read aloud to that person what they wrote. The person listening is allowed only three responses, "Thank you," or "Thank you very much," or "Thank you--will you read that again." Then they write about a second person, and so on.
They look for something fundamental to value. Not, for example, an ability such as, "You are a wonderful athlete," and not a characteristic such as, "You are so charming," but something meaningful such as, "I appreciate how you take strong stands without making people wrong," and "I feel safe around you because I know you are listening."
A few years ago a graduate of this school was killed in a traffic accident. In his wallet were small pieces of paper from the beginning of his freshman year with words of appreciation written by new friends in a circle of peers.
What can you say to someone that is so meaningful that he will carry it with him unto death? Only a message from the heart can reach that deep, heal that powerfully, and last that long.
I never knew what it would be like getting older, until I got older. Even then, everything is still a new experience, every day a new discovery -- of myself, and everything and everyone in this world where we are all together in. New and strange, so very strange, yet completely fascinating. I'm getting there.
It makes me think about and feel so much tenderness for old people, you know, the one's who've weathered every storm and every cell on their body. Yet, they were once young too, and inside I imagine they still are the same person (same soul) they've always been, except when they look in the mirror, they probably see a stranger looking back at them. Surprising? I bet. This is going to happen to all of us, and it's not as long a trip as we initially assume it to be. You'll see. We will all see. Be tender with the old, especially the crotchety one's. They haven't learned yet how to let go. It must be quite frightening for them.
There were tears in his eyes and he was laughing at the same time. He had unlocked his heart, and he saw that keeping it unlocked requires other people.
Those who danced were thought to be insane by those who couldn't hear the music.
Those who dance are thought to be insane by those who don't hear the music.
Never say there is nothing beautiful in the world anymore. There is always something to make you wonder in the shape of a tree, the trembling of a leaf.
I like being alone too much.
Unless I really enjoy being alone with you.
I love that magical feeling of intimacy, freedom, and connectedness with another human being when everything just clicks.
Don't we all know how rare and special a thing that is?
In the end, only three things matter: how much you have loved, how gently you lived, and how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you. (I got this.)
Yeah, these are little fucking hearts. I love hearts.
Mind Over Matter: Princeton & Russian Scientist Reveal The Secrets of Human Aura & Intentions
More than three decades after the debut of “Cosmos: A Personal Voyage,” Carl Sagan's stunning and iconic exploration of the universe as revealed by science, COSMOS: A SPACETIME ODYSSEY sets off on a new voyage for the star, this Sunday at 9 pm. This shit is going to be hosted by Neil deGrasse Tyson.
International Space Station Commander Opens Up About His UFO Sighting In Space (Coool.)
Is This Proof of Heaven? A Brain Neurosurgeon’s Journey Into the Afterlife (Fantastic.)
Spend your life doing strange things with weird people. (No shit?)
The stars are like letters
which inscribe themselves
at every moment in the sky.
Everything in the world
is full of signs.
Everything breathes together.
What if our religion was each other?
If our practice was our life?
If prayer was our words?
What if the Temple was the Earth?
If forests were our church?
If holy water — the rivers, lakes and oceans?
What if meditation was our relationships?
If the Teacher was life?
If wisdom was self-knowledge?
If love was the center of our being.
7 Day Silent Retreat At Zmar (I want.)
The more you know the crazier you look. (Per-fect.)
10 Reasons Why EarthShips Are Fucking Awesome
Earthships are 100% sustainable homes that are both cheap to build and awesome to live in. They offer amenities like no other sustainable building style you have come across. For the reasons that follow, I believe Earthships can actually change the world. See for yourself!
The most powerful thing Earthships do is force people to think differently about how we live. If housing can be this awesome, and be beneficial to the environment, then what else can we change? What else can become more simple, cheaper and better at the same time?
It’s time for us to re-think much of what we consider normal.
(oh shit yes. go little earthships!)
America Could End Homelessness in One Year by Doing This
House Construction with Plastic Bottles by Samarpan Foundation
Do not let the world make you hard...
Do not let pain make you hate.
Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.
Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place.
I want to live simply
a quiet and peaceful life
I want to sit by the window when
it rains and read books
I’ll never be tested on
I want to paint because I want to
not because I’ve got something to prove
I want to listen to my body
fall asleep when the moon is high
and wake up slowly
with no place to rush off to
I want not to be governed by money
or clocks or any of the artificial
restraints that humanity
imposes on itself
I just want to be
boundless and infinite
I live in a very different world no matter where I live, because how radically different I view and experience life. I don’t care for the things that people care for, like money, status, upgrading, social media, media in general. I feel more akin to nature, and animals, and trees, and clouds. I understand people and their suffering. Empathetic as the skin covering my body. Most folks have no quiet space in their mind, full of second-hand opinions. How I long to see a human being whole, intelligent, alert, awake, sensitive, not dogmatic, always learning and growing.
Knowing how powerful and limitless they are, and using it positively, for the good, even if if wasn't necessarily so arriving to this point.
I think I fall in love a little bit with anyone who shows me their soul, whether we're meeting for the first time or have known each other for ages. This world is so guarded and fearful. I appreciate rawness so much.
“The world is like a ride at an amusement park. And when you choose to go on it, you think it's real because that’s how powerful our minds are. And the ride goes up and down and round and round. It has thrills and chills, and it's very brightly colored , and it's very loud and it's fun, for a while. Some people have been on the ride for a long time, and they begin to question - is this real, or is this just a ride? And other people have remembered, and they come back to us. They say, 'Hey! Don't worry, don’t be afraid, ever, because, this is just a ride...'...It's just a ride. And we can change it anytime we want. It's only a choice. No effort, no work, no job, no savings and money. A choice, right now, between fear and love.”
The planet does not need more "successful" people. The planet desperately needs more peacemakers, healers, restorers, storytellers, and lovers of all kinds.
Like this guy..
It's inspiring how the spirit of just one person could affect a whole crowd of people. And how incredibly moving.
If people looked at the stars each night, they'd live a lot differently. When you look into infinity, you realize there are more important things than what people do all day.
Soaked in soul, moon spilling in...
"Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You."
Careening down unexpected paths of fiction and truth, illusion and reality, wrong and right, shadow and light, generic lessons handed and genuine lessons found, my life has been an interesting and eye-opening adventure not unlike that of Alice when she tumbled down the rabbit hole into a realm of different realities and rules where nothing seemed to make sense. And now I absolutely know for certain it doesn't.
Now, here I am, as I always was before. But I suppose it took some gettin' to.
Own less, live more.
We The Tiny House People (Documentary)
The Great Bell Chant
MY LITTLE "hope" LIST:
This isn't a list, it's more about character than anything else.
The following tendencies I generally find admirable, in people, in relationships, in life, in myself, and how fortunate to discover these dwellings, have them merge ceaselessly together somehow, regardless of whether cupid's arrow strikes us a blow or some other lucky girl/guy along the path (because they'll probably appreciate this too):
Receptive and soft
Strong and supportive
Can handle love - silence - unpredictability - paradox - change - and humor
Patient and willing to reach or swim to the other side; it's always better than not trying
And usually more rewarding than you think
Simple things that mean so much (or do you know otherwise?)
Where it no longer matters what clothes we wear (unless it's sheep)
When we are no longer attached to outcomes (unless it's the universal message of we're-all-in-this-together. Shit, homey, a girl can dream, can't she?)
Probably not a "social butterfly"
Or, rather, doesn't mind if she is not a "social butterfly" (INFJ here)
An explorer of his inner well
Makes us feel safe (it just comes instinctually) and tells us how beautiful we are
And you speak from your heart..
The well of your soul..
And you know how much it matters that you do.
Remember, this isn't a checklist. It's not really even about you, is it? But, who knows, maybe today is the day it'll make all sorts of crazy sense...
I hope he enjoys swallowing the rain and sunshine equally.
I hope he is kind and complex and will tell me how wonderful my cooking is.
I hope he likes all the stinky animals we share this earth with and is an admirer of the big badass natural world.
I hope he is surrounded by things that he loves
especially him or herself
But I hope he doesn't believe the old, unquestioned assumption that there is a connection between how much one owns and how valuable one is.
I hope he's come to some point where he no longer feels the need or desire to impress anyone--largely himself.
I hope he is nodding.
I hope he's into culture or at least interested to learn about mine.
I hope he is able to show emotional sensitivity and does not fear being different, maybe even thrives on complexity.
I hope he's looking for a warm woman to hold who takes comfort in him holding her.
I hope he's done playing the Mr. Cool-Detached-"Whatever" Guy
And that the thrill of dating and the chase no longer suits him.
I hope he sees beauty in life, in spite of everything that goes on here.
I hope he is curious and still yearning
...bright and trying.
I hope he likes the music. The all kinds.
EXISTENCE, "existence is relationship, and you are smack in the middle of it." ~ Alan Watts
"This is what you shall do; Love the earth and sun and the animals - despise riches - give alms to every one that asks - stand up for the stupid and crazy - devote your income and labor to others - hate tyrants - argue not concerning God - have patience and indulgence toward the people - take off your hat to nothing known or unknown or to any man or number of men - go freely with powerful uneducated persons and with the young and with the mothers of families - read these leaves in the open air every season of every year of your life - RE-EXAMINE ALL YOU HAVE BEEN TOLD AT SCHOOL OR CHURCH OR IN ANY BOOK - dismiss whatever insults your own soul - and your very flesh shall be a great poem and have the richest fluency not only in its words but in the silent lines of its lips and face and between the lashes of your eyes and in every motion and joint of your body."
~ Walt Whitman
What a gorgeous, lovely, kind, and wise human being this man ever was. He got it.
Perhaps most people feel as if they need to travel extensively to see the world? Me.. ? I just dim the lights and head inside.
free spirit n: 1. a person with a highly individual or unique attitude, lifestyle, or imagination; nonconformist 2. a person who lives according to his or her own wishes and beliefs, unconstrained by society's conventions
If people looked at the stars each night, they'd live a lot differently - when you look into infinity, you realize there are more important things than what people do all day.
I am just centering on the journey of being alive.
I am a sky where spirits live.
Stare into this deepening blue,
while the breeze says a secret.
And here is moi reciting one of my faaavorite Rumi poems, trying to do it some sort of justice:
I love getting out and wandering this insane world, whether here, there, where anywhere, but nothing beats coming home to or with someone you care about and finding the universe there. Lame, I know. But not really. I'm a homebody, a whirling creature of comfort, but that doesn't sum it up at all. I'm not especially fond of crowds, or at least, the loud screeching look at me look at me scenarios. That goes for people who talk or scream into their phones in q u i e t places, and they talk and talk and talk and talk
1. I don't care to listen to your conversation.
2. I can't believe the shit that is coming out of your mouth.
3. Please, just shut up.
Here, this portion below is also written elsewhere in this profile, but I'm also pasting it here because I know this is a big ocean of words to swim in and it's what I most feel like sharing at this moment:
I live simply and quietly in a large loud hustling and at times uncertain world. I dare say the monks would be proud; the would-be envy of hermit-enthusiasts everywhere were they anywhere to be found. "Helloooo out there!" For the time being I spend my waking walking cycling feeding contemplating meditating learning loving weeping and dreaming hours in Brooklyn, New York. Just a bridge and a bike ride away from the Big Carnival where people from all reaches and walks of life want to come and take part. As if it's some magical playground. And maybe it quite possibly is. And there I be, like an owl gently careening through a fluttering sea of flock (on two wheels).
Going my own pace.
Twirling my hair.
It's tough, sometimes, being such an introvert in an extroverted world but no one experiences the magnitude and depth of how much we're able to feel and intuit. At least, this has been my unyielding experience. Although hard at times, it's also what a friend said to me once with so much conviction that I had to buy it, that I'm luckier than most. Maybe he was out of his fucking mind. (This is an edited version. The original remark was quite kind and agreeable. But doesn't everything ebb and flow? Don't we hate to love, then love to hate? Don't we dream to sleep, then sleep to dream? Isn't everything sort of flip-floppy? Sometimes?)
Shallow, heartless, mindless people really fucking bum me out.
And anyone who answers THIS question with a "Yes":
Would you strongly prefer to date someone of your own skin color / racial background?
Despite appearances, I'm a pretty quiet person. I'm not much of a talker, except when I do. Does that make sense? But goddamn is my mind engaged. And goddamn do I write like a motherfucker.
Anyway, what am I doing here. What am I saying. I'm looking for YOU so that we can be together, explore life, ourselves, do things we wouldn't necessarily do on our own; learn on our own; see on our own; feel on our own; be on our own; grow on our own; give on our own; transcend on our own. Maybe pick up where we left off somewhere else. Join forces and find ways to spread our disgusting love, laughter, and nurture to all who need it. (They are waiting?)
I also just wanna hang out, you know, "hang out" with other people who don't need anything specific to do, happy to meet new people, create new experiences... just admiring nature or each others grill, doing laundry or dishes with music playing in the background or whatever comes up, picking lint off each others clothes, weeding the garden, or watching wet paint dry together. I don't know. Shadowboxing with the dog? Tripping on the sky? Anything is enjoyable when the company is right, when the invisible forces interweave. That's not rocket science and I hate stating the obvious.
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...and the view above;
This sums it up quite nicely, "The image of a lonely, isolated man masturbating to his computer is the Willy Loman metaphor of our decade(s)."
(Does this path have a heart?)
"The unexamined life is not worth living."