My name is Grey. I have been on OKC since 2004. In those 8 or so years I have slowly become a whole different person, and have finally decided to start anew with a fresh identity here. Two years ago I completely uprooted and relocated from Texas to Utah to be with my partner. I found new friends, new family, and very carefully chose a new name.
Today, all of that is gone, and I've spent over a year in self-imposed emotional seclusion, trying to figure out what the fuck happened. I'm at the point where I'm ready to start living again. I'm looking to collect people, one at a time, who I can truly trust and keep around for a good long while, romantic or not romantic. My ultimate goal is to build a tribe of sorts that can work together, adapt and cope with the struggles ahead of us, and finally build something wonderful that will last longer than we will.
Note: I actually live in Lake Jackson, not Houston, but I am semi-closeted because of my job.
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I was raised in a small town by some very hard-core Evangelicals. I didn't really make up my mind to follow my own path until I was 22. No matter how much I see, how much I learn, how far down the alt-culture rabbit-hole I go, my original family's legacy weighs heavy on me: Unlike most religious people, despite their flaws and occasional intolerance, they are honest, well-meaning people who taught me the importance of love and showed me that personal integrity, having an ethos and truly living it, is real. The standard they set is rarely matched here in the secular world. I never "rebelled" or "reacted" to a hostile religious environment. I quietly and deliberately turned my back and walked away when I truly became an adult.
Today I am a follower of questions, of balance, a true believer only in Complexity and the astounding capacities of the human species. Order, chaos, whatever, all that matters is love/companionship/interaction/intimacy, life/warmth/sanctuary/trust, and a healthy dose of food/drink/laughter/sex/pain/music/experience.
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I am a HUGE dork, in the old-school, not-hip sense of the word. Be warned.
I am poly and kinky (and a for-serious switch, since people keep asking), and only 85% straight. I am nerdy, analytical, and introverted. My straight-forward nature and dry humor ensure that when I am sarcastic, no one can tell and looks at me oddly. And when I am goofy they think I'm adorable. I like action movies, sci-fi/fantasy in the broad sense, turn-based strategy board and video games (though I have little time for them), and Joss Whedon.
I think overly much about politics and economics and love the social sciences, and I greatly respect those fileds that deal in hard data, including historiography, archeology, geography, bio-anthropology, and statistics and statistical method. These are very complicated fields, however, and I'm lazy, so in the past I've mostly stuck with history and economics. I'm also greatly concerned with infrastructure, complexity, and natural resources. I think peak oil is a huge issue.
I am subtle, quiet, and evolving.
This profile is still (always) under construction.
Extra tags I haven't worked in properly yet: BDSM, polyamory, Burning Man, Burners, Burner, tribe, community, anarchism, pagan, paganism ...