.....Just (12/2x/012) ran across a woman with 200 questions previously unanswered by me. So I answered them too, but I don't think I'm going to do that anymore.....I've pretty much stopped answering questions.
.....IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS, just ask me yourself
.....I wrote six questions, by the way
"I tried to sell my life story -- that's what memories are for --
but I was told to come back when I'd lived a whole lot more.
After due consideration given without prejudice or haste
my best efforts were rejected purely as a matter of taste.
Characterization was judged none existent to thin
and most days the plot didn't even begin.
Whatever happened to my life?
How did I ever wind up this way?
Whatever happened to my life?
I never thought I would hear me say
I want to be young and stupid again
Given another chance to do now what I didn't do then --
although if I knew then what I know now, it would probably turn out the same anyhow.
I just need a little more time to complete this verse
I'll try to make it better
before It gets any worse." (ME)
TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT ( hah, that'll be the day. )
I graduated from college and made the mistake of coming back home and I never escaped again.
2 businesses and 3 rental properties later ( 1 remains) I'm still trying to pick up the pieces. I have settled down into a hopelessly boring work-to-live job. I worry if 80 is really the new 65 and I wonder about whatever happened to love and lust and passion. I'd be interested in your thoughts on that last part.
PSYCHOLOGICALLY I'm kind of a mixed bag. I could use less introspection and depression and a whole lot more action.
PHILOSOPHICALLY I would say I'm probably a mix of Cynic and Existentialist; not the most mentally healthy combination (see depression, above) -- you can look that up. Or we can talk about it. Or we can ignore it.....full speed ahead.
My Muslim friends think I'd make a good Muslim. My Baptist friends think I'd make a good Baptist. And I'm still good friends with the priest who was my Catholic religion instructor during high school.
But, in truth, I like the Buddhist mantra of "Don't Worry, Be Happy". Live in the moment and focus on doing your best at whatever it is you are doing.
I don't meditate or chant or levitate or whatever, although sometimes I might admit my life might be better if I did. Really need to stretching...both mentally and physically.
SO, WHAT'S THE MEANING OF LIFE ??? Pretending you are going to make it out the other side..
LOOKING FOR: "She had a promising mouth, and good legs and a restless predatory air. Her clothes had style." ( Ross Macdonald, THE CHILL ) And then she goes and gets killed in the next chapter; so much for happily ever after.
If I knew what i was looking for I might not still be looking.....OH...SO YOU WANT A LIST...How about (in no particular order):Smart, Attractive, Funny, Up-Beat (careful how you read that), Energetic, Assertive, Articulate, Independent, Honest, Loyal and True-Blue, Passionate....uh, oh yeah...all those things and Rich, too.
................You see, the trouble I have with lists is that sometimes -- rather than helping you to define and achieve your goal -- they can box you in instead because they trap you into a fixed idea of what you want or think you need. And don't allow you to be open to other possibilities.
Might not it be better "If you can't be with the one you love, then love the one you're with" (Steven Stills) There's some controversy about that statement that might lend itself to further inquiry.
"If wishes were fishes I'd live by the sea
Just me and my mermaid
I'd throw out my net
and it's happy we'd be" (ME)
"Just remember when you go off in search of your dreams,
a nightmare is a dream, too." (ME again )