malcolm tucker is my life coach. you should know that first.

this profile will probably be changed soon to reflect changes in my life. i love summer in olympia, and it sure is nice to spend it with a partner, so i guess i'll be on here more frequently soon!

i'm encore.
i'm an occasional transvestite. it is something i enjoy, but the pnw is not necessarily on the same page as me, weather-wise. i don't know how people do it, but unless it is bright and sunny, i'm probably going to dress like a male - not that i don't look spectacular in male clothes. i classify myself as pansexual. i simply don't prefer guys. i have in the past, i may in the future, but generally speaking, i just don't. that being said, there are a plethora of other sorts of wonderful folks with whom i like to share, um...myself. i also tend to default to a polyamorous lifestyle. given the right circumstances, i'd be glad to be in a monogamous relationship. it is difficult not to desire that, as that model of relationship is constantly reinforced by society at large. i'd really like to have something intimate with a couple or maybe very few people. (clarification: when i say 'a couple,' i mean 'two people.')
that said, i don't place a huge emphasis on my sexuality. it's just one aspect of my personality. i like personalities, not billboards for whatever's academically trendy right now.

i am a muhammed [ali/ce] cooper;
i am the greatest [freak] of all time

i'm cognizant of the cultures that collide within me.

i can be a bitter and cynical fuck, but i also have so much fun. you're missing out.

(you should definitely check out the 'questions' section before messaging me. even though i answered some of them while drunk or otherwise intoxicated, i think it is a far better assessment of what i'm like than this. also, don't hesitate to ask me questions/argue about my responses. WAY better than reading this nonsense!)

getting my shit together. it's a bit of a process :)
sometimes i falter, but i know that that is inevitable. i tend to be fairly hard on myself. less so on others, because i don't really have any great expectations for most people.
part of getting my shit together has been working out. i love it, but only when i do it hard - though i won't lie, i falter in this, as well. it makes me feel really really good immediately. the exhaustion carries echoes of post-coital bliss, which is always great. it also fills me with self-confidence to see what i've built. and above all of that is the inherent optimism of working out - it is planning for tomorrow. i didn't always feel like a future was something to plan for, unfortunately. i'm glad to reclaim working out from bro culture. being fit is an important part of revolutionary culture. listen to dead prez.
i've also been getting in touch with my inner perry farrell. perry has been a great talent creatively, as well as a massive douche. he took it to extremes, but the point is that he loves himself. i'm starting to do that, rather than tie myself up in relationships with broken people that will get neither of us anywhere. there's nothing wrong with being a broken person - you've got the liberty to rebuild yourself any way you like! but i'm not there anymore. if that sounds like you, you'd probably make a better friend than a lover to me. you should definitely message me if that's the case. you're probably the kind of friend i actually do want :)

i'm good at a lot of things. i've spent much of my adult life being a successful touring musician. i don't have much formal training with visual arts, but i work in a variety of mediums, and have done very well in a variety of judged shows, especially works that are political, dystopian, part of a larger conceptual project, and multimedia. my work in visual arts has largely focused on feminist issues in academia, so far. this was due to the fact that i went to a school where female staff members were sexually harassed frequently, promotions were withheld, etc. it was a long story that i can get into some other time.
i'm also literally the best looking guy you've seen on okcupid to date. it isn't going to get any better. i'm just telling you what i know. you have never seen anyone as pretty as me.

as far as physically? i feel like i look great. i think i have something to offer everyone.

you've probably noticed that i tend to be focused, intense, driven...you will not find the words 'laid back' or 'chill' used as self-description anywhere. i don't really engage in a much low-level bullshitting. i don't understand the mentality that views being passive as a good thing. i tend to be direct and straightforward. societal norms don't really seem to serve much of a purpose - the few purposes that we can find in our societal norms tend to be malicious and oppressive via manipulation.
generally when you see "i'm straightforward," or "i tell it like it is," that's coded language for "i like to say 'nigger!'" or "women always friendzone me!" that's not straightforward. that's just being a pathetic and bigoted fuck.
i am straightforward in that i don't play this west coast nonsense. i dislike passive aggressive bullshit. i like my sarcasm dry, bitter, black, and preferably on a bbc show. or in the context of a shared joke. people out here use it to cut each other down, but they haven't got the courage to be direct about it. just say what you mean.
speaking of friends and being direct, i'm not here looking for friends (there was an exception above!) i have a few close friends with whom i share a specific kind of love. i am here for a different kind of love or affection than that.
strangely enough, i did not join a dating site to make friends.

i tend to be polite about being direct, but direct i am. i realize that people take offense at direct communication, especially on the west coast. i'm not going to cease being direct, but there's no need for me to make people feel afraid of me, or as if they have no control in a situation. that's not an enjoyable dynamic for anyone. (obviously, in certain situations, being controlled by someone else is actually quite enjoyable, but you're going to have to know me a bit better before we breach that topic.)

so, be confident. i am, and i'd like to be on equal footing with you, to whatever extent that's possible.

i used to be a librarian's aide/librarian/acting library director/cataloger/program coordinator/grant writer/janitor/sole employee at braddock carnegie library (incidentally, the first carnegie library in america.) i've always read. there are certain books that i reread periodically. because of the fact that my parents are immigrants, i have been blessed with the opportunity to educate myself at absolute whimsical random. i am more pleased with the results that i have created for myself than i can foresee ever having obtained from some curriculum of "stuff you're supposed to read and/or listen to."

i am a fan of of the three davids: lynch, cronenberg, and fincher.
my favorite movies are natural born killers and taxi driver.
any movie with trent reznor involved in the soundtrack ends up being pretty great. (a couple glaring exceptions.)
oh, god bless america is a new favorite.

my listening list has not actually been approved by pitchfork. you'll find that my interests in music are mainstream and decidedly unhip. among others, i enjoy listening to: el-p,
frank zappa, nine inch nails, devo, the coup, jane's addiction, fiona apple, dead prez, black sabbath, machines of loving grace, slowdive, tom waits, cannibal ox, outkast, boards of canada, the dresden dolls, how to destroy angels, atari teenage riot, the birthday party, saul williams, a perfect circle, killer mike, david bowie, godspeed you black emperor, my bloody valentine, nas, bailterspace, 12 rounds, iggy pop, black flag, dj shadow, ministry, mazzy star, how to destroy angels, prick, prince, adam and the ants, talking heads, soft cell, bauhaus, eels

hmm, what can i say here to sound quirky and endearing enough to get you to like the fragment of my personality that i've selected to show you?

1.sex - i don't think i could get through life without sex.
2. rats. i need to have rats. they are the sweetest critters ever. they are my little friends. they watch astronomy videos with me. i have 5 of them: channon, yelena, and vita (bonus points for knowing where their names came from.) i recently got 2 babies: peaches and beeb.
3. i must have access to my vast library of music.
4. i need to have my computer.
5. i need guitars and devi ever fx pedals.
6. i must have books. they can be in digital format, though. i think i actually prefer that - i can store thousands of books on one device, so i think that option is for me.

DEVO

working on various projects that channel a chunk of my dissatisfaction with things in general. i am a malcontent. i make things better. i also hang out with smitterz who is an awesome neighbor and my bff.

have run through red lights at the last minute.
thought dirty thoughts about someone i know while masturbating.
downloaded music illegally.
penance:
20 Our Roethlisbergers
40 Hail Paris Hiltons
20 self-inflicted lashes with a G-Unit necklace

Here's something private. Really. I wear girls' socks. Seriously, women may suffer from the worst institutionalized discrimination in the world, throughout the world, BUT! Men really get the short end of the stick when it comes to socks. Women's socks are of adequate length, so that you don't feel all weird when wearing boots, with your socks all scrunching down around your ankle and just making you awkward all day. Women's socks are thick, so that you don't have chilly feet AND so your socks last for awhile! Also, they have nifty designs like spiderwebs and shit on 'em. Fuck that, I wear women's socks. They are awesome.

message me if you'd like. i have about 0 capacity for flakiness, though. the hippy-dippy greener shtick? not into it. i am interested in people with fully-developed personalities, not shallow facades.
while we're at it, i have a gender and a sexuality. i also have some rather strong leftist political beliefs. but we are multi-faceted beings. all of these things are PART of my personality. they aren't substitutes for one. i'm looking for someone on the same page.