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paganlilith666

36 / F / Straight / Seeing someone

Plymouth, United Kingdom

Her Details

Last Online
Today – 1:00pm
Ethnicity
Native American, White
Height
5′ 10″ (1.78m).
Body Type
A little extra
Diet
Strictly vegan
Smokes
No
Drinks
Rarely
Drugs
Sometimes
Religion
Buddhism and very serious about it
Sign
Sagittarius and it matters a lot
Education
Graduated from high school
Job
Income
Less than $20,000
Offspring
Doesn’t have kids, but wants them
Pets
Has cats
Speaks
English (Fluently), Spanish (Poorly), Italian (Poorly)

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My self-summary
WARNING: I am seeing someone.We are Poly Amorous.*gasp* If you have not read this and find out later that I am not single, then it is your own fault. It also proves that you do not read profiles..

I am not enamored with people that ask me what is up and then proceed to try and show me their penis on cam as if they posses the most amazing thing. A unique penis...? Laughs...yes they generally look the same and I'm not going to be impressed. Also a reminder that if you IM me with hi, I am horny I will remind you of the overabundance of free pornography on the world wide web. Then once you have sated this need with a satisfactory ejaculation please go ahead and message me again and we may speak to one another. I am quite horny on occasion too but I prefer to masturbate and then continue on to intelligent conversation. In fact in all likelihood I will close the chat box and giggle at you if you do any of this and don't follow simple instructions.

I found I have had to add this in here. Since body type and the chosen *a little extra* Does not seem to cover it. I am five foot ten and currently i weigh about 195lbs. I am not interested in i guess what could be described as your average male stereotype. I hate saying that it feels mean but..I like beer but dark European beer. I dislike sports intensely.I am not generally attracted to muscular men. It's funny seeing that they have a bigger chest than me. (There are exceptions to every stereotype and I am aware of this)) I do not find the guido type attractive.I like a man that is clean,honest,dependable and is in touch with his emotions.That does not see being in touch with his inner emotions as an indication that he is weak.I do not want to hear about the latest reality TV show.

I dislike a man that assumes because I am female that I care suddenly about shoes and clothes and hair and makeup and every other type of stereotype out there.That there is such a thing as women's work.That i actually like mainstream music.I do not.That I can actually like hardcore death metal and industrial music. I cannot tell you how irritating it is to hear from a man..but that is so aggressive...as if what? I am supposed to listen to celine dion and her ilk and LOVE chick flicks? Oh my no thank you. Give me a horror flick ANY DAY over another holly-wood regurgitation type movie that supposedly understands the woman's psyche. Just like they get sex right too? *laughs*

Now i just moved to Plymouth and so far I'm not too happy. Perhaps someone can help me delve through all of the overly cookie cutter types? I hope so.

I enjoy reading and i do love corsets. I love to cuddle,dancing is my freedom. I am exmilitary believe it or not. I find George Carlin, Robin Williams and Dennis Leary quite funny. I am defined as Goth therefore I love gothic clothing, decorating, music as you will see below. I expect honesty in my relationships. A good date I would consider two horror movies cuddling.Me feeding you by hand and you enjoying the company. I dislike films that are supposedly directed towards women. That are headlining the latest pop princess or blonde phenomenon...please move on. I usually have incense burning, and industrial music playing. Laurel k Hamilton is one of my favorite authors. I also truly enjoy keeping up to date on the latest political lies the government decides that we might actually believe. These are a few of my favorite things, bibliophiles, people that wash themselves regularly and smell good. I love incense, wind chimes, cats, lip gloss, I enjoy using Samhain skull props as decorations. I love a cold house.

I am polyamorous, Goth, and introspective

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What I’m doing with my life
I am a sanguine vampire,in that yes i do feed on blood.From willing donors.But unfortunately it has been three years now at least since my last feeding.So miserable and weak describe me.

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I’m really good at
Making things,sewing,uplifting other people,helping others,baking,cooking,writing poetry,decorating.For some reason i seem to be good at helping people out of their conservative shells.

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The first things people usually notice about me
Im very open and honest and blunt and have no taboo's. I am far from being politically correct because I think that whole concept is dated. It is just another way to control society and take away more freedom of speech. I have been told I have very pretty eyes,and very soft skin. People also always say that I smell good. I am a very clean person and I like to smell good and be clean. You have to shower or take a bath please.

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Favorite books, movies, shows, music, and food
BOOKS: Dracula, Exquisite Corpse, Anything by Laurell K Hamilton, Fiend, Memoirs of a Geisha, The pillars of the earth, Books by Jean Auel, The stand, Tommy knockers, IT, Silver wolf, Twelfth night, Lucifer Rising, Pagan heat, Pagan Europe, Geisha, A dozen black roses, Rosemary's baby, Son of rosemary, Brain droppings, Napalm and silly putty, Life during medieval times, Dark side zodiac, Victorian women, Piercing the darkness, The elemental encyclopedia of 5000 spells, Natures end, The return, Sexy origins and intimate things, Sexual culture in ancient Greece, Aphrodite a memoir of the senses, The harry potter series which i read before i saw the movies.

Movies: Better than chocolate, Finding Nemo, The Exorcism of Emily Rose, Hellraiser, Subspecies, Chocolat, Mansfield Park, Kill Bill, Donnie Darko, Detroit Rock City, Dracula, Heartless, Ink, The Last Mimzy, Mirrormask, Pan's Labyrinth, Auntie Mame, My Fair Lady, V For Vendetta, Constantine, Kiss Me Guido, Exorcist, Underworld, Ginger Snaps, From Hell, Office Space, Quills, Harry Potter Series, SLC Punk, Lord of the Rings, Black Sheep(The zombie sheep film), Army of Darkness, The Crow, Dogma, Excalibur, Hook, The Incredibles, Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back, Labyrinth, Lord of the Rings, The Mummy, Pirates of the Caribbean, Serenity, What Dreams May Come, Cold Comfort Farm.

Television: Carnivale, Firefly, Invader Zim, Without a trace, Cold case, Bones, Lie To Me, Boston Legal, Frasier, True Blood.

Music:
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Aesthetic Perfection -the ones
a covenant of thorns - serafina
Amduscia - Sad Warrior SoulA Perfect Circle - A Stranger
Andain - You Once Told Me (Arcdsa Edit Videoremix)
aiboforcen - not unique (DOS)
and one -wasted
assemblage23 - awake (imperative reaction)
a perfect circle - judith(danny lohner remix)
assemblage 23 - lullaby
A Perfect Circle - Blue (remix)
Afghan Whigs - Rebirth of the cool
Accessory - Humanity
Apoptygma berzerk - coma white
Ayria - lovely day
adema - immortal
ayria - lonely day
Azam Ali - Sackpipslät
Agonoize - Femme Fatale (Rough Mix)
angelspit-make you sin
Assemblage 23 - Lullaby
ASP - Requiem
ASP - Lykanthropie
Android Lust - Stained
Android Lust Refuse
Abney Park- I am Stretched on Your Grave
Abney Park "Breathe"
Abney Park - The innocent stigmata martyr
Abney Park -The Black Day of Jasper Morello
Angelspit- Skinny Little Bitch
Armin van Buuren ft Sharon den Adel - In and Out of Love
Apocalypse EXTREME VERSION
Asphyxia - My hatred
Asphyxia - obliberate my fate
Azam Ali- Lasse Pour Quoi
Wumpscut - Die in winter
Azam Ali-The Tryst
A Perfect Circle - Annihilation
Abney Park - Airship Pirate
Angel Theory - Black and Blue (Terrorfakt-mix)
Artésia - Tristesse
Agonoize - Sexual Violation
Android Lust - Suffer the Flesh
ANDROID LUST Kingdom of One
ANDROID LUST The Want
Android Lust - Cherished agony LastDrops
Android Lust - Burn
Android Lust - The Body
Agonoize - Dad Is Dead
And One - Enjoy The Unknown
All That Remains - two weeks
All That Remains - This Calling
All That Remains - The Air That I Breathe
Alcoholika La Christo - Trance La Mort

Anything by Bassnectar
Black Lab - hole in my heart
Black lab - this night
BlutEngel - Vampire Romance (Album Version)
BlutEngel - Mistress of the Club
Breaking Benjamin "So Cold"
blutengel - im dying alone
Beborn Baton - Dr Channard(funker vogt remix)
Blutengel - angels of the dark (remixed by lost area)
Bigod 20 -The Bog (shot mix)
Blutengel -seelenschmerz
Blutengel - soul of ice
Blue Man Group/Esthero - white rabbit
BYOB -system of a down
Black lab - hole in my heart
Bauhaus - Bela Lugosi's Dead
Bile -In League
BILE - I Reject

Chase and Status
Covenant - Spindrift
Collide - Tempted (Implant Mix)
Cesium 137 - Endure
Combichrist - Prince of E-ville
Cesium 137 - Simulacra
Crocodile Shop - New Ideal
combichrist - without emotions
collide - white rabbit
camouflage - me and you
Crocodile Shop - Generations(Flesh Field Mix)
Collide -halo(sensory gate aura mix)
collide - euphoria(emirianmix)
collide - tempted(conjure one mix0
celldweller - switchback
C-Lekktor - Silence Remains
Combichist - Shut Up And Swallow
Combichrist - F**k That S**t
Combichrist - Electrohead
COMBICHRIST - Deathbed
Covenant - Happy man
Covenant - Bullet
Covenant - Call the ships to port
Covenant Ritual Noise
Covenant -Like Tears In The Rain
Covenant - Dead Stars
Cradle of Filth- The Smoke of Her Burning
Cradle of Filth Carrion
Cradle of Filth - Better to Reign in Hell
Cradle Of Filth - Thank God For The Suffering
Cradle Of Filth - All Hope In Eclipse
COMBICHRIST:God Bless
Corporate Avenger - Jesus Christ Homosexual
Corporate Avenger - the bible is bullshit
corvus corax - ductia
Combichrist - today i awoke to a rain of blood
Combichrist - Get your body beat

Dubtek
DZ
Dastik
Diary of Dreams-Psycho - Logic (Extended Psycho - Mix)
Decoded Feedback - Nothingness
D.-Pressiv - Nimm mich mit (FP-PopMix)
DE/Vision - Obsolete
Decoded Feedback - nothingness
Dimmu Borgir - The Sacrilegious Scorn
DIMMU BORGIR - Progenies Of The Great
Dimmu borgir - Puritania
Dimmu Borgir - The Serpentine Offering
DIMMU BORGIR - The Chosen Legacy
deine lakaien - into my arms
Danzig-Can't Speak
Danzig - Her Black Wings
Danzig - Firemass
Deathstars - Blitzkrieg
Deathstars - Cyanide
Dimmu Borgir - The Mourning Palace
Dope Stars Inc. - Just the same for you
DJ Tiesto - Battleship Grey
Depeche Mode - In Your Room
Deathboy - playing grownup
Dot allison - colour me
DarkSeed - Cosmic shining
Die Sektor - the beating of broken wings
Dope - Spin me round
DeVision - I Regret (VNV nation remix)
Duran Duran - coming undone
Deftones -my own summer (NIN remix)
Depeche Mode - useless (cj bolland ultrasonar mix edit)
DeVision - the end
duran duran - come undone
diary of dreams - tears of joy
Dope Stars Inc. - Can You Imagine
Dope Stars Inc. - Right Here In My Arms
Decoded Feedback - Shockwave

Excision Vs. The SubDivision
Emergence - ashes in winter
Edge of Dawn - Find A Way Out (V2.0)
E Nomine - Mitternacht (extended version)
Elegant Machinery - Beautiful World
Entwine - Time of Despair
Entwine - Break Me
Eisbrecher - Kein Mitleid
Eisbrecher-Kann denn Liebe Sünde sein
Eisbrecher - Leider
Eisbrecher - Herzdieb
Entwine - Tears are Falling
Edge Of Dawn - Blackheart
Esthero - Indigo boy
ego likeness - you better leave the stars alone
ego likeness - aviary

Feindflug - Kopfschuss (Aeroflot-Mix)
Funker Vogt - History
faderhead -breakdown
Front Line Assembly - vanished
Funker Vogt - navigator
Fear factory- Demanufacture
Fear Factory - Zero Signal
Fear Factory - Self bias resistor
Ferry Corsten - Holding On

God module - Viscera
god module - the source
Grendel - rotting garden
Grendel -hate this
grendel - remnants(die sektors remix)
grendel - dirty (urkom remix)
Grendel - Hate this
Genitorturers - Flesh is the law
Gogol Bordello - start wearing purple
*glis* - Nightvision (RE Floored)
Galerie Stratique - Train Sous La Pluie

High Tone
Hocico - Drowning
Helltrash - I Am The Enemy (Epidemic Mix)
Hocico - Twisted lines
halou- honeythief
hollywood undead - the loss
Hocico - coward as a slave
Helltrash vs. VoodooVelkro - Last in Line
Helltrash - Cannibal
Helium Vola - Selig
H.I.M. - Kiss Of Dawn
HIM feat. The Rasmus - Apocalyptica bittersweet

Imperative reaction - you remain
Iambia - Helluci Nation
Imperative Reaction - Disoriented
Iskald - Dommedag
Infected Mushroom -Shakawkaw (vibe tribe remix)
Infected Mushroom - Dracul
Infected Mushroom - Heavyweight
Infected Mushroom - Psycho
Infected Mushroom - Cities Of The Future
Informatik - Revolutions
IMPLANT - fuck things up (tantrum mix)
icon of coil -access and amplify
Infected Mushroom - Riders on the storm
In Strict Confidence - Seven lives (clubmix edit)
Iris - sorrow expert
Icon of Coil - sleep:less
Icon Of Coil - Other Half of Me

Jakatta - american dream

Korn -starting over
Kidney Thieves - Crazy
kill hannah - lips like morphine
kidneythieves -Zerospace
Korn - Shoots and Ladders

Lords of Acid - Kiss Eternal
L'ame Immortelle -jenseits der schatten(void remix)
L'ame Immortelle - Suffocating Endlessly
lisa hall - is this real
L7 - Shitlist
LACUNA COIL - Swamped
LACUNA COIL - Enjoy the Silence ...
LACUNA COIL - Within Me
Linkin Park - My December
Le Mystere Des Voix Bulgares - Polegnala e Todora
Love and rockets - so alive
Linkin Park - Shadow of The Day
Lamia - Dunkel Leben

Anything by Mt Eden
Monofader - Mimic
Melotron - folge mir ins licht (verdienter mix des volkes)
Mindless Faith - Transcend
Mesh - Step By Step
Marilyn Manson - mOBSCENE
Miss Murder (VNV Nation Remix)
My December-Linkin Park
Marilyn Manson - This is the new shit
Massive Attack - İnertia Creeps
Mind.In.A.Box - take my soul
Mind.in.a.box - Amnesia
Mesh - open up the ground
mindless faith - transcend
muse - map of the problematique
melotron - folge mir ins licht (verdienter mix des volkes)
Mindless Faith - Singular
ministry - kaif
Marilyn Manson - This is Halloween
Marilyn Manson - Heart-Shaped Glasses
Mind In Box -change

Nerve Filter - Sea Lab
Niyaz - Allahi Allah
NIN - zero-sum
Neuroticfish - they are coming to take me away
Neuroticfish - Ultrahymn
Nitzer Ebb - join in the chant
nine inch nails - a warm place
nine inch nails - zero-sum
Noisuf -X - hit me hard (club mix)
New Skin - cherry flowers and bedroom songs
Niyaz - Sadrang
Niyaz - The Hunt
Neikka RPM - Bound With Sympathy (Razed In Black Mix)

Orgy - Eva
Orom - Csondben
oHgr -wateR
OTEP - GhostFlowers

Panzer AG -battlefield
Project Pitchfork - Carnival
Pristina - Skies (Rename mix)
Pride and Fall - Free Me From My Demons
Papa Roach - Forever
Pride and Fall - Adored
Phoenix/Nebulin - acid bath
Poisonblack - love controlled despair
pride and fall - The painful Regret
poisonblack - love infernal
PIG - Prayer Praise & Profit
paradise lost - ordinary days
POISONBLACK - Love Infernal
Infernal (OFF...
POISONBLACK - Love Infernal
Paralysed Age - The Grave Shall Be Forever
Paralysed Age - Famine
Paralized age - Bloodsucker (empire of the vampire)
Porcelain and The Tramps- My Leftovers
Porcelain and the Tramps - King Of The World

Qntal "Von Den Elben"
QNTAL - Vogelfluc
Qntal - Sumer
Qntal - Entre Moi et mon Amin
Qntal - obscure

Reaper - Weltfremd (Extended Electronixx Version)
rotersand -drug
rotersand - electronic world transmission
retrosic - bomb
Rage Attack - Darkstyle Syndicate
Retractor - Morbid Place (Life Like Mix)
Recoil - Allelujah
Recoil - Drifting
Recoil -want
Radiohead - House of Cards
Rabenschrey-Sch warze Vögel
Raison d'être : falling twilight
Raison d'être : fall of the damned
Rob Dougan - Nothing at All
Room Of Angel - silent hill
raison d'etre - Dreams Essence
Royksopp - What Else Is There (Trentemoller Remix)
Retractor - Redemption

Skream
Smash the Floor
Sukh Knight
Seabound - october song
Soman - Ruler (Extended Remix)
Suicide Commando - Cause Of Death- Suicide (Club Edit)
Snog - The Future
Switchblade symphony- Clown
Sleepthief featuring Jody Quine - "Eurydice"
Sephiroth - Wolftribes
Slipknot - everything ends
Seraphim shock- Annabell
Seraphim Shock - Happily Ever After
Sex Toy - Seraphim Shock
seraphim shock-Torture
Seraphim Shock - After Dark
Seraphim Shock: Shadow Realm
Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
Scum of the Earth - "Get Your Dead On"
Schiller - Let Me Love You
She Wants Revenge - Written In Blood
Sterling(electronica) - home
System Of A Down - Aerials
Sixx:AM Tomorrow
Sixx AM Life is Beautiful
Sephiroth - Dark Father
Sephiroth - Heliopolis
Saturnus - Softly on the path you fade
[ Sin.thetic Squad ] - Rise & Fall
[ Sin.thetic Squad ] - Freedom Fighters
SIRENIA - The Path To Decay
SHADOWS FALL - The Power Of Iand I
SHADOWS FALL - In Effigy
suicide commando - bleed for us all
seabound - sapphire
seabound - poisonous friend(iris remix)
stine nordenstam - people are strange(unkle remix)
SAM - arm of justice
SleepWalk - Hackerstate (Dos-Attack Remix by SITD
SIXX:Am Tomorrow
suicide commando - desire(dead body rem ix)
shiny toy guns - stripped
Sin.thetic Squad - Meaningless Life - Crash
Spitfire - prodigy
suicide commando - bind torture and kill

The Azoic - Conflict
Tristesse De La Lune - Nivine (Sero Overdose Remix)
The Retrosic - Ground Zero (Extended Version)
Temple of Tears - Wreck Me (Radio Edit)
The Azoic - Obsession
Trentemoller - Evil Dub-Moan
Trentemoller - missing you
Tito & Tarantula - After Dark
This Empty Flow - Useless
Threat Signal - Rational Eyes
The Birthday Massacre "Broken"
the crystal method -gyromancer (elite force remix)
technoir - silence
the crystal method - the name of the game
The Crystal Method - I think im crystalized
This is the new shit- marilyn manson
Tactical Sekt - Awaken the Ghost (final awakening)
Technoir - Dying Star
The crystal method - gyromancer (elite force remix)
the secret meeting - beautiful noise machine
the birthday massacre - falling down
T.A.T.u - cosmos outerspace
the fixx - red skies
Tactical Sekt - The Hanging Garden
Terminal Choice - Totes Fleisch
Tanzwut - Die Balz
To Paradise - Agonoize
Thrice- Digital Sea

Unter Null - The Failure Epiphany
Unter null - destroy me

Vas- Beyond Despair
VNV Nation - perpetual
vnv nation - perpetual
VNV nation - paint it black
VAST - pretty when you cry
VAST - im dying
velvet acid christ - convex
Velvet Acid Christ - Hallucinagene (Alice)
Velvet Acid Christ - Serial Killer 101
Velvet Acid Christ- Phucking Phreak
Vas - Mandara
Vas- In the Garden of Souls
Velvet Acid Christ - "Pretty Toy"
VNV Nation - illusion
Vayder X - Capacity

wolfsheim - touch
Wumpscut - alone
Wumpscut -churist(recently deceased remix)
Wumpscut - embryodead
Wumpscut - War(Revenge and nemesis version)
Wumpscut - Thorns (Distant Voices Remix)
Wumpscut - Totmacher
wumpscut war
Wardruna - Jara
Wardruna - Dusk
Wardruna - Hagall
Wardruna - Algir Tognatale
Wardruna - Ár var alda
Wardruna - Bjarkan
Wumpscut: - Soylent Green
Wumpscut - opening the gates of hell
Wumpscut - Wreath of Barbs
Within Temptation - The Howling
Within Temptation -Angels
Whitechapel - This Is Exile
Whitechapel - Possession
Wumpscut - oh how it feels

Xenomorph - prognosis
XPQ-21

zeromancer - new madonna
Zirenz - Edge of Space (White Room Remix)
Zeromancer - Clone Your Lover
Zombie Girl - Fading Away (ZG Version)
www.warprecords.com CLARK:growls garden

Food: Anything Vegan really. Raw food, Pumpkin Seeds, Bananas, Tea With Soy Cream and Unrefined Sugar,Fresh Cornish green lightly wilted in olive oil salt and pepper.

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The six things I could never do without
Second Life
The ability to shower
Socks
Internet
Natural Salt Crystal
My brain
Water

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I spend a lot of time thinking about
Deep thoughts, Art, Why people for the most part are so lost, How can i make my friends days better, My back pain, Wishing that my back would let me do what i want which is clean this house,my friends and wondering if they are ok.

Someone asked me this:so i answered them Whats your philosophy on life? Allow everyone the freedom to express themselves in any way they want. Whatever religion you happen to be,enjoy it, but don't preach to me that i should change, i want people to STOP being scared of what they dont understand and then do nothing to find out more about it. Read more books, experience things you normally do ,just to do it. Understand that life is short and once you realize this you may learn to treasure the little moments in life more. Help people that want to help themselves. Listen to music that inspires you that makes you feel good. That expresses a deep emotion. Dance, be free just for a couple of minutes a day if that is all the time you have. Love something a plant, a cat, a dog, a person, but love something. Know this and spread love around. Give random hugs, send cute messages to friends. Give or yourself more.

Also Anyone who owns a pet, or is thinking about getting a pet should read this.

When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you laugh. You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes and a couple of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend. Whenever I was "bad", you'd shake your finger at me and ask "how could you?" But then you'd relent, and roll me over for a belly rub. My housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you were terribly busy, but we worked on that together. I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to your confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not be anymore perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car rides, stops for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad for dogs," you said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come home at the end of the day.

Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your career, and more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently, comforted you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you about bad decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you fell in love. She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" still I welcomed her into our home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy because you were happy. Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I was fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to mother them too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I spent most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh, how I wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love". As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my fur and pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes, investigated my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about them and their touch-- because your touch was now so infrequent--and I would have defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their beds and listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited for the sound of your car in the driveway. There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog, that you produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories about me. These past few years, you just answered "yes" and changed the subject. I had gone from being "your dog" to "just a dog," and you resented every expenditure on my behalf.

Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you and they will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've made the right decision for your "family," but there was a time when I was your only family. I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal shelter. It smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled out the paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for her." They shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understood the realities facing a middle-aged dog, even one with "papers." You had to prise your son's fingers loose from my collar as he screamed "No Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for him, and what lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty, about love and responsibility, and about respect for all life. You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and politely refused to take my collar and leash with you. You had a deadline to meet and now I have one, too. After you left, the two nice ladies said you probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no attempt to find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked "How could you?"

They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy schedules allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago. At first, whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it was you, that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad dream...or I hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might save me. When I realised I could not compete with the frolicking for attention of happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate. I retreated to a far corner and waited. I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of the day, and I padded along the aisle after her to a seperate room. A blissfully quiet room. she placed me on the table and rubbed my ears, and told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what was to come, but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had run out of days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden which she bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew your every mood. She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran down her cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so many years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein. As I felt the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay down sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could you?" Perhaps because she understood my dogspeak, she said "I'm so sorry." She hugged me, and hurriedly explained that it was her job to make sure I went to a better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned, or have to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different from this earthly place. And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a thump of my tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her.

It was you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of. I will think of you and wait for you forever.

May everyone in your life continue to show you so much loyalty.

THE END.

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If you are thinking of moving to a new place that doesn't allow pets, you can't move move there. You have made a promise to the animal that you have bought, to take care of it for the rest of its days. My ex-wife decided that our ferret was worth $75, should something go wrong with it. She is my ex-wife. I recently spent $2,500 on my ferret to have a tumour removed from her adrenal gland, and I would do it again. Love is the only thing that makes this life worth living. Money is just not that important.

If your fiance is allergic to your pet, get a new fiance.

If you have had your dog put down because it bit your child, you did not raise your dog properly. Have yourself and your progeny euthanized too, and do the human race a favor.

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