I want to take a walk in the rain with you, listen to all the fucked up things you heard about today, wanna show you, theres some hope....when.... the light begins to fade.....its not over just yet.... we could make it out with no mortal scathing, no moral regret. When we get back from this walk, I want to start to talk. ABOUT how we are the masters of our own fate. About how we can change the world simply bye changing our minds, these small ripples in time.grow and grow. Like the tectonic plates we move together, as we merge our bodies in too one. The start, haste, faster pace. The love, we feel, conceptualized and real. And soon we are fucking as if we where told fifteen minutes to Armageddon. she comes, I come we hold each other tight. Our embrace glows brightly, like a shield against the night, and the worlds vampires disintegrate away, mabey this moment can extend the laws of time. we fight through our blindness with eyes only designed to see the future.... and th future is dim, but within that sliver of light its bright and I know that we can be lanterns for each other. We dont have to be stuck, doing what we where told. In this future i want to be holding your hand and hand growing old.

So It has been a back and forth battle. One that I need to lose. The craving that is. I miss being a nonsmoker, I miss the high energy, low bad attitudes. I miss it all. So I have convinced my roomie, and my coworker to quit with me. It should be rather interesting to see how the three of us hold us in a check and balance, so come the first nicotine is going to be like that ex you avoid. Wish me luck, and cut me slack in april.

Brian

From now on I will be using the term Vaegan to describe myself, Basically Im going to be vague and not in any ones face. To all the VEGANS, we do things everyday that are not vegan. Except it, or sell the homestead and go make a shack. I wanna have fun with everyone, I dont want food politics to make people unwelcome at a diner setting. On the same note, i have been a cook for 15 years. I dont care if you like bacon, sweet its a savory meat. Bacon being your primary food like makes you sound like someone who is going to die of cardiac arrest at 60, which i plan on being globe hopping with a partner, and screwing in ancient ruins with them. Not nursing them due to eating too much bacon. can we please come to a place where people lighten up on the dickishness? and if not will you all F.O.A. drink not near to me.

That seems to be the reoccurring theme in my life. I noticed, I have a hard time keeping my chin up. I realize the mistakes of ones past will haunt them always. And unless you reinvent yourself, you have no hope of escaping. But reinventing yourself is not always a move away and tell someone about your past endeavor. In fact it is the kind of thing where you sit down and are Honest and say "look self, you fucked up. You through away opportunities. Have spit in the face of chance. And its time to stop raging against the light of day. Maybe let it soak into your skin, get some vitamin d and a fuckin tan." These are my thoughts of the day. And I am going to seek out a perky attitude no matter what.