****Recently moved back to Vancouver (late April '13). Putting most of my initial focus into setting my roots back down, settling into my apartment, sorting out work/career direction, reconnecting with good friends, and soaking up the west coast summer (i.e. Wreck Beach, hiking). I'm not looking to rush into anything all-consuming, although where there are signs of a special compatibility/spark, I'm generally open to exploring.
Locals only please (trying to keep life simple).***
WHO I AM:
One might say I'm a good-natured and somewhat misanthropicfree-spirit :) Young at heart, yet an old soul. Sensitive and socially-conscious yet playfully-irreverent and politically incorrect. Gregarious and compassionate yet quite selective when it comes to who I spend time with (i.e. I like to avoid rude/pretentious/moody/status-driven/narrow-minded people - call me crazy). I like to talk yet I'm also a good listener. Overall, I'd say I'm a pretty positive, easy person to be around - friendly, funny, grounded, low-maintenance, open, adventurous, well-rounded. I have a goofy/dark/weird sense of humour; I'm happiest when sharing it with someone similarly inclined, who's not easily judgmental. It comes very natural for me to shift from silly to serious (and back again, and mixed together), as the context calls for. I daydream and feel a lot... and also have a strong analytical side (I think a lot about my own mind, people and the environment around me, social issues, etc). I get along well with people who have a nice balance of head and heart (not looking for uncurious minds, nor an inconsiderate, flippant, smart-ass hipster fag).
I tend to be quite affected by the energy and environment around me, so I like to spend as much time as possible amongst fulfilling company and in beautiful/inspiring places (i.e. parks and wilderness, concerts and community arts festivals, independent bookstores/cafes, farmers markets, etc).
TOUCH and sex are vital to me, as is physical exercise like biking or swimming.
This being the west coast, I should clarify that I don't live every moment blissed out in the 'power of now', in continuous gratitude towards everything in the universe. Sometimes I/things just suck - and I appreciate people who can appreciate that and roll with the randomness. :-) I struggle with my weak points and insecurities like we all do, and try to be open and honest about them (i.e. difficulty with discipline/focus/time management, getting overwhelmed by choice/fear of missing out, judging others and myself). I strive for self-awareness, but also try not to take myself - and life - too seriously!
WHERE I'M AT:
As of late April 2013, I'm settling back into Vancouver after a reinvigorating 20-month break from the city...
My most recent chapter-'o-life has been an interesting mixture of new frontiers (a working-holiday adventure in New Zealand, gigs with Parks Canada in Newfoundland) and getting grounded back in my east coast hometown (undertaking a long-overdue mega-purge, spending time with family). Now it's time to re-root myself in Vancouver. There's lot of things I need/want to focus on - finding meaningful work, spending time with my dearly-missed community of friends, fuelling my photography and comedy passions - but there's always room for an intimate relationship if there's special chemistry. I'm ok with being single and not looking to just rush into anything with anyone...
Note: I'm not inclined towards polyamory (multiple romantic relationships at the same time), but I am inclined towards a serious relationship with a degree of sexual openness. If you're only looking for a relationship-with-strict-sexual-monogamy-til-death-do-us-part, we should probably save the time now and not get entwined :-)
WHAT'S THIS ALL ABOUT:
Before I go any further, a question: Does anybody else find pouring through all these profiles a bit intimidating, like "where do I fit in"? So many *smart, hip, educated, good-looking, in-shape, go-getter gay/bi men*, brimming with confidence, wit, and masculinity and living big lives in big cities like New York and San Francisco and London... We're all here gushing about our cool cultural interests and edgy hobbies, showing off the depths of our intellectual, spiritual, social and physical attributes, and displaying hot pics of ourselves doing amazing things. I get it, it makes sense - we've all got to promote our best selves in these profiles, myself included - but the ego-puffing can become a bit of an ego-rattling 'look at all these superhuman men' BLUR. It's certainly weird to think someone may look at my profile and feel intimidated by it. Extending from that thought, even if we're 20% "enemies" according to OkCupid, feel free to message me and get to know me... you just never know...
THINGS I LIKE:
Telling and listening to interesting stories that show the best/worst/funniest sides of human nature, exploring city streets and parks on my feet (or bicycle) and with a camera, watching/performing sketch comedy, climbing every mountain/fording every stream, dressing up in funny costumes, group games, dancing, hiking, camping, folk music festivals, singing folk tunes and cheesy easy-listening songs on roadtrips or around a campfire, discussing politics/current affairs/sociology/psychology, trees, bitching and moaning, inspiring examples of community-building/activism/cooperative solutions, farmers' markets, pretending to be drunk, thinking about thinking, mixed company, friendly gay-friendly bars, Michael Jackson, Paul Simon, toffee and caramel flavoured sweets, channeling frustration with idiots and assholes of the world into humour, etc.
Overall, I'm most inspired and energized by...
(1) quality FRIENDSHIPS - through which I especially enjoy sharing the following...
(2) shameless HUMOUR (i.e. absurd, dry, irreverent, twisted, satirical, sarcastic, silly, potty-style, puns/wordplay - I enjoy many kinds)
(3) the beauty of NATURE (basking in it, hiking in it, taking photos of it, speaking up to protect it, traveling around the world to see different examples of it, etc)... also the beauty of COLOUR and ARCHITECTURE and ART and the human body
(4) the sound of MUSIC (especially pop and folk/singer-songwriter stuff... also soul/motown, jazz/standards, classical, country, etc.)
(5) explorations of POLITICS, PSYCHOLOGY, SOCIAL ISSUES and ART - through conversation, studying and community involvement. *not* into pretentious, dogmatic, overly-politically-correct academic jargon in said explorations when down-to-earth speak can be used.
Of course, ultimately, I know that finding a great partner is not really about me endlessly describing myself... or you and I scoring a perfect OKCupid 'match'... or us having witty, back-and-forth online banter... It's about the RAPPORT we establish together in PERSON. We'll probably know pretty early on after meeting each other what that is. If there's a mutual interest, I'm into meeting up as soon as possible rather than too much back'n'forth on here.
Having high-quality human connections - to share affection, laughs, stories, inspirations, and frustrations with - is key to my life, and why I'm here on this site! My friendships have made me feel like a rich man, and I value them incredibly. With my closest friends, creating that space where we can fully feel AT EASE to be our imperfect, multifaceted, silly/critical/emotional selves is the best feeling in the world. Don't we all need/want that?
**There is room for more though - a SWEET, SMART, SEXY, SILLY, SOCIALLY-CONSCIOUS man to share some long miles on this crazy road of life with.**
Since 'coming out' in my teenager years, I've enjoyed my share of casual encounters, short-term dating, and long-distance liaisons; these experiences have offered/offer varying degrees of physical release, fun, self-exploration, and hope/cynicism. No regrets. At the same time, throughout all of this, I've remained open and excited (and yes, sometimes discouraged) about the possibility of finding a deeper, more sustained connection with a special kindred spirit/lover. **On my good days, I feel 100% ready to love/be loved.** I'm just not for everyone, and not everyone's for me - and that's ok (admittedly, there've been self-doubting moments over the years where I have to remind myself of this).
Relationships take some work, but I don't believe in forcing connections or making constant effort with a date just to get on the same page (I'd rather be single). I'm one to invest in a relationship when there's a strong, natural, clear chemistry to base it on. Easy! :-)
MONOGAMY vs OPEN RELATIONSHIPS
-If I meet a special guy i'm really crazy about, and the feeling is mutual, I'm into focusing my time, energy and love on that one guy. I'd really like to foster the kind of special companion connection that commitment can forge, and move away from splintering my attention into multiple fragments... but at the same time, I like to give a heads up that I couldn't do multiple-year long-term without negotiating some form of open sexual boundaries at some point. We all have our relationship-style preferences; I don't judge what works for other people. I just know I get a lot of joy from variety, and my definition of love and commitment to a person is not equated with permanent sexual exclusivity. Trust, open communication, and encouragement of each other's pleasure/explorations are more important to me than strict, black-or-white sexual monogamy. I'm not deluded into thinking it's easy, but to me personally it seems the healthier option.
WHAT KIND OF PARTNER/CONNECTION AM I LOOKING FOR? Would love to date a guy who's steady and mature but fun, who's able to bounce between light-hearted and serious with ease. Someone who loves showing physical affection. Someone who can express himself honestly and effectively, and who's a good listener. Someone who's comfortable being imperfect, as I am. Ok, maybe pretty basic stuff here... Moving to more specifics: I want a man who's politically PROGRESSIVE, yet totally game for POLITICALLY INCORRECT ideas, language and humour. I'm looking for someone GOOD-NATURED, who's also into enjoying NATURE'S GOODNESS (as stated above, I'm a romantic for beautiful, wild spaces). Ideally, you'd be willing to join me on a karaoke stage in wigs and ridiculous props (or at least get a kick out of me doing so) and find lots of ways to share shameless, gut-shaking FUN. We will try to LIGHTEN UP all the mundane times (or at least enjoy each other's quiet, comforting presence), bond over (balk at/embrace) the WEIRDNESS of the world, encourage each other to do GOOD for ourselves and society, and CUDDLE up in whatever corners we find. You can slap my ass if you want to, and I may massage your neck and back. We will rely on and help anchor each other, without smothering our independence, and without illusions that relationships don't take work and patience and occasional bruised egos. Sometimes we'll be tired and cranky and not at our best with each other. Fuck it, that's part of life - we'll keep things in perspective.
Physically, sure I have my turn-ons: it would be swell if you're somewhat similar body type to me (I'm relatively short and compact) or stockier. Dark features are nice - especially dark hair and dark, soulful eyes... but there are guys of all types that I can be attracted to. And no one's looks make up for being a cocky, shallow, status-driven, emotionally-immature douchebag.
Bottom line: we've got to want to stare at each other's faces (and kiss) a lot :-) By that I mean that being attracted to a guy's look AND the look in his eyes is what's gonna keep me interested. If there's hot looks but not the right personality connection, it may be a great fuckbuddy situation but nothing more; if it's a great personal connection but the physical attraction is lacking, it's more 'friendship' territory.
If being around you makes me feel 80% of what I feel when listening to sentimental songs like "Up Where We Belong" (Jennifer Warnes & Joe Cocker), "Danny's Song" (Loggins & Messina), "The Way You Look Tonight" (Frank Sinatra), "A Nightingale Sang In Berkeley Square" (Nat King Cole), "Do You Love Me" (Guster), "Someone Like You" (Emmylou Harris) or "First Day Of My Life" (Bright Eyes), I'll probably be pretty happy. :-)
Maybe one of those songs means something to you?
P.S. I should explain my name, 'pinusphile'... I do enjoy penises (peni?), and no I'm not a bad speller. :-) I chose my name because I love trees, but "dendrophile" (tree-lover) was taken. "Pinusphile" (pine-lover) was a good second choice, as pine trees (especially windswept white pines) are one of my favourite trees. Golly gee, there's just something really sweet, magical, hopeful, proud - and yes, a bit twisted - about them. The kind of qualities I like in my men.