Good morning I love you Jesus!!!!!!!!!!!! What great love you have for me! What earthly love could ever compare? I long to be with you. No earthly man would love his bride-to-be so deep that he would let her kill him just to prove his great love for her like you have. No love movie has written a script with love so selfless. Morbid lover, you forgave me for my sins and laid them on your own body. You were so beautiful until you let my sins wrinkle your body and pierce it with sadness. You became my beaten and cherished ragdoll toy that I still drag unknowingly through the dirt like a child. But I will hold you to my heart and love you back the best way I know how. You asked your Father to leave you in my dangerous hands even though you knew my love would fall short of his. You were so brave to tell our Father to forgive me that I didn't know what I was doing as I was murdering you with those stripes on your back and mocking you with that crown and that sign above your head. How could you possibly love me when my sins murder you still. Take me to be with you so I can't hurt you anymore in this sinful body. Try my heart with fire and make it as pure as yours. I'm not worthy but how can I resist a love so pure. Yes I will be your bride. Yes I will wait patiently til you take me home. I don't want to hurt you anymore. I repent.
You instruct wives in Proverbs 31:12 to do him (their husband) good and not evil all the days of her life, (meaning even before she meets him) and yet...you let me kill you. you laid your life down. you surrendered it into my hands. my hands were bloody and yet you said to me in Isaiah 1:18, "Come now, and let us reason together, saith the LORD: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool" and you lead me like a little lamb. When I go astray you fight off the wolves and protect me and you don't beat me for the sin of my wandering. You hold me and cry like the prodigal's father just so happy I am back in your loving arms. I wait for you to yell, strike me, or abandon me but you "never leave me or forsake me" (Hebrews 13:5) "If I ascend up into heaven, thou art there: if I make my bed in hell, behold, thou art there" (Psalm 139:8).
You wept in the Garden of Gethsemane and asked your Father if there was any other way to prove your love to me ...but the only way I would believe you love me is if you let me kill you and suffered for my sins. Your Father left you because of the sins you endured for me and you were left alone with no love. Oh if only I could take it back and throw that whip to my accusers and take that punishment I rightfully deserved back onto my back to spare you, my love. If only the cross was not so heavy then maybe I would not fall as you did along the way and have a begrudging stranger help me on the path to my death. My spirit is willing but my flesh is weak.
Raise up a Hosea kind of man to love my adulterous heart or take me home so I can be with you and we will celebrate our 50th wedding aniversary in Heaven because if there is no man that will answer the call of my heart, I know you will, my dove eyed love.
Cheat Sheet for wooing me:
1. Stare at me to admire me.
2. Draw me.
3. Be affectionate with me. Like pull me into your lap when you are doing something.
4. Buy a little gift that makes you think of me.
5. Follow me around or ask me to follow you around to do things or to go to see friends or public places (and hold my hand if you want to) while I am silent while you talk to other people.
6. Call me several times a day just to say hello I am thinking of you even if you just get my machine.
7. Leave me little notes online about whatever even if it is just "hi beautiful".
8. Play with my hair.
9. Be my lab rat and take my personality tests. It makes me feel like we are best friends.
10. Laugh with me. Pick me up and be goofy with me and playful. Show me things that make you laugh.
I am always looking for a friend that will accept a dare like a dare to drink 8 glasses of water in one day...4 when they first get up and then the other 4 throughout the day. I like conquering goals together.
I take care of my health. I love cuddles. I was sleeping in for a long time and I guess I felt guilty about it because when my friend tried to wake me up and complained about me sleeping in, I said, "I'm not sleepin'! I just can't see!" I dance to the music in each store at the mall like Balou in the Jungle Book. I am perfectly content laying in a hammock enjoying the heat of the day and cuddling with my love.I also like yoga (but it makes me laugh in my head). I love reading Shampoo/ Conditioner bottles!
(I guess I just like being sweet talked and those descriptions are like wow! really? lie to me again! i like it!) and cereal boxes (what? you know you read them too! heh)
Religion: Karaite Jew and Charismatic Christian
Compatible Matches: ENTP, INFP, ENTJ, ENFP, ENFJ, ESFJ, ISFP, ISTP, ISTJ, INFJ (I think I would love an ENTP that had INFJ tendencies for a best friend.)
Cognitive Functions: Fi, Ne, Ti, Si, Fe, Te, Ni, Se -or- Ne, Fi, Ti, Si, Te, Ni, Fe, Se
Global 5: sloan SLUAI; sloan+ SlUA|I|; primary Inquisitive; S(64%)L(64%)U(80%)A(78%)I(90%).
Enneagram Triptype: Heart: 4w5. Head: 5w4. Body: 9w8. The Bohemian.
Variant: sx sp so.
Archetype: 459 The Contemplative Archetype -aka-The Introvert.
Intelligences:Inter/Intrapersonal & Visual Spatial.
My Music Preferences: Romantic, Relaxing, Inspiring, Electrical, Intelligent, Sad, Instrumental, Distorted, Complex, Percussive, Dense, Tempo, Loud, Aggressive.
Signal Pattern Personality: Passionate, Aesthetic, Competent, Intellectual, Original, Curious, Innovative, Creative, Cooperative, Tender.