I have a lot of social problems, so socializing with people has always been difficult for me. I don't like most people and am about 99% misanthropic. If you're very outgoing/social - I definitely won't like you. I have a lot of flaws, bad habits & emotional issues. Trust issues about people lying to me, constantly. Clinical depression, for about 6 years now, and I'll probably always have it. It's been worse since the death of my father last year. I've also had bad social anxiety since I was a kid, around 4-5 years old. I get panic attacks if I'm in a crowd of people for too long.
Plus I worry. about. everything. Some days are better than others. I'm a real life, malevolent, female Charlie Brown.
I don't like normal people, they're boring. I take care of my responsibilities, but I prefer to only act like an ''adult'' when absolutely necessary . I'm hoping to find someone that I can throw food off the top of a Ferris wheel with. Someone who would enjoy playing Mario Kart for 5 hours straight, going to a toy shop and rearranging all the stuffed animals into dirty poses, and building castles out of mashed potatoes - things that seem stupid and childish to normal people.
I'm half-redneck, and am semi-proud of that. I don't go out much, partly because of my social anxiety, and partly because I can't be bothered. I don't like fancy parties, expensive clothes, or any kind of high-end snob stuff. I dress in horror and game t-shirts, lounge around most of the day, work online, play with my pets, talk to my family, cook/eat, watch silly stuff, and play video games. I don't ''do'' a lot, and I don't want to.
I'm not religious or anti-religious. I believe what I want, and don't care what other people believe, as long as they aren't forcing it on me. As for romance, I'm heteroromantic demisexual. I've never been loved romantically, never dated, and don't want to date. I just want to go from friend > close friend > soul mate with someone. Will probably never happen, but ya never know.
I don't practice/support promiscuity, infidelity, polyamory, polygamy, poly-whateverthefuckyouwannacallit. I believe in true love, marriage, & monogamy. I'm hoping to find a person that will totally accept & appreciate me, despite the fact that I'm so fucked up. Preferably a male. The only person that totally accepts me right now is female. Go figure.
Strength = 5
Perception = 9
Endurance = 7
Charisma = 3
Intelligence = 8
Agility = 6
Luck = 2