Have to admit, it has really turned me into an unlikeable monster. In all honesty, I am like this when you judge me at first. I'll be very calm, emotionless, and un-social; this is not the case entirely.
I spend a lot of time "protecting" myself and keeping everything bottled up, and have only opened up to a few people (I find it hard to express emotions at will, since I consider any possible reaction to it.. And just remain silent of my own issues).
People have described me to be one that "lives under a rock" and pretty far behind (or too far ahead) of people my age. Not only that, but have also been told that I "think and speak as if I do not exist or matter." I attribute this to how I shut myself out from the world, socially, while in grade school and middle school. These tendencies are still active, unfortunately.. Just the same as being an observer more then an active person in a social setting. Heavily introverted*
Find certain things not worth caring about.
There is a great deal of me that has not been brought to light.
For those that party, go to clubs, dance, drink, have "fun" (to the definition they believe it to be) I've been there and experienced what it was like.. briefly. Whereas it was "fun," people had tendency to express a little too much of their lives and issues like I was a therapist.. Too much drama for me to care for.
What is good in that? I'm not completely against trying new things. There are boundaries but not everything is black and white.
My fun? Well, since most of my time is spent alone, I attribute my fun to freedom and experience; Listening to music and hanging out online while reading something; taking advantage of warm weather and driving my motorcycle however I'd like to (whatever your judgment may be, you will not find me to be an asshole that races everything and do stunts); go to Lake Michigan whenever I have the free time (yup, while on the bike); humor the ideas of traveling out of the country again (yes, again); Try different foods (why the hell not?); Lay on a roof at night and look at the stars (fk yes!); go out and take scenic photos and nature shots; schedule range time and go shooting (yea, I'm a gun owner. Fucking get over it); drive to whatever city/state if i have the vacation time to do so (driving to Vegas was nuts from Illinois, but is well worth it once you get to Denver and have mountains to check out); exercise and stay up and out until whatever time I get tired
The idea of kids and family are something I'm not ready for yet. Settling down takes a ton of responsibility, And I know I'd go nuts if expected to handle everything.
For me to want to be in a relationship, means I'm more than interested and will likely go in exclusive mode because I'm not all about drama.
You wont really catch me chasing tail or confronting for dates because the little guy wants some. Naaa. It isn't likely you'll get it up unless I like you.
Downside: I'll find myself sacrificing a lot for another person if I'm really interested in them. Abuse this, and we've got a whole mess of issues.