I got to set up my art and help with some UV string art at a benefit for ending human trafficking. There were giant mirrors on either end of the space. There were two areas of music, we had the smaller of the two rooms, but it looked fabulous and everyone loved it. It was a great time, and I got my groove on quite a few times. The organization wants me to make a piece of UV art specifically for them. The managers of the space were asking if we'd set up art for other events, and said we're welcome to rent out the space anytime. It only went until 2, but it was still a positively wonderful experience.

There are 4 lava lamps, 6 black lights, 3 spinning lights, 4 lamps (one blue, one red, one tiffany glass overhanging the DJ table/chimney, and one small artistic lamp), the projector, plus a slew of tealights and two fish tanks which need attending in the main room of the house. I know, it is a travesty against the environment that we have so many extraneous lights, but it looks so cool when everything is going.

Neverland is mostly finished, and my job in the lab is still on hold, so I have some good time to focus on music, art and writing. I'm currently working on a few music compilations, a new UV banner and my novel.

Musically, I've been listening to the new REM - accelerate, the new Nick Cave - Dig, Lazarus, Dig!, the new Kula Shaker - Strangefolk, and the new Gnarles Barkley - The Odd Couple. Certain tracks from each of these have inspired me to put together a rockin, but introspective mix. I'm also working on a deep downtempo/chill mix. No specific party dates lined up at the moment, so I'm not going through too much party music at the moment. I like to switch up my music listening habits.

The next UV banner will be an intricate mandala based on crop circles and geometric forms in my screensaver. If crop circles aren't faked, I believe they are created by resonance in the earth. I don't think its an alien transmission or anything trying to communicate with us, I think its just a neat, unexplained phenomena, or a cool art prank. My screensaver is the coolest. It is called electric sheep. It works on a distributed network (meaning it uses the processing power of the more than 5,000 other computers running the program). It evolves and changes over time.

My novel has been an ongoing project, which I had reached a critical writing block which lasted a while, but I finally figured out what happens next. I need to alter a few details in the preceeding chapters, but the first 5 are mostly done if anyone is interested in checking them out. I welcome input; most people just tell me they want to read more. I promise more will be coming soon!

The house I'm living in belongs to an old friend I went to high school with. He used to call it the home for wayward girls, as there were a number of females who lived here for a while. There are now 5 boys living here, so we decided it would be called the home for Lost Boys. I was doing some Peter Pan research, and at the time, there were 4 of us. I was unable to figure out what they call the Lost Boy village, but there are 4 primary Lost Boys, which correspond amusingly to me and my roommates.

Curly, in the bear suit, is the most troublesome lost boy, and is in charge of building the little house in chapter 6. Carter is the tallest of us, owns the house, and is very troublesome.

Nibs in the bunny suit is gay and debonair, probably the bravest lost boy. This would be my gay roommate Eric, who is all that.

Tootles (skunk suit) is the humblest Lost Boy because he often misses out on their violent adventures. Although he is often stupid in voice and demeanor, he is always the first to defend Wendy. This would be Happy (sarcastic nick-name), who isn't as wild as the rest of us, and doesn't come across as the nicest person, but he's a good guy.

Slightly (in the fox suit) is the most conceited because he believes he remembers the days before he was "lost". He is the only Lost Boy who "knows" his last name - he says his pinafore had the words "Slightly Soiled" written on the tag. He cuts whistles and flutes from the branches of trees, and dances to tunes he creates himself. Slightly would be me, the DJ who goes through all the music I can get my hands on and puts it together for the rest of the gang.

The fifth addition requested to be "Tink"... he likes fairies and tinkers around with things. He helped a lot on the reconstruction of the attic. Eric's response when he heard that Joe would be Tink was, pouting, "I didn't know Tinkerbell was an option!" Classic moment.

Neverland is our name for the top floor, where we have our main party area, and my bedroom is in a cosy cubby-hole with odd angles, but plenty of space. The color in the main area is Arcadia Blue (Indigo) and my bedroom is Neverland Teal. This was only partially intentional, as I had intended Indigo and Teal, my favorite colors, the borders between blue and purple and blue and green.

When I told another friend of these synchronicities, her response was, "God isn't subtle. Whether for good or bad, you're obviously all meant to be there right now."

I wouldn't say I'm "less-emotional". I would say I'm emotionally experienced, and exercise Love under Will. I feel passionate about many things, and have been to high pinnacles of love and deep pits of depression, through chapel perilous. I pay homage to a love goddess, I have felt such intensity of emotion that words fail to describe. I guess I did break myself of the need for blind adoration of another, and I'm not looking for someone to fall head over heels for. I'd like to find someone who is emotionally mature. I can't really say that I'm without emotions, I just try to keep them under control.

Amusing that it shows a little robot icon. I do believe that we are robots, programmed by society and our experiences. We either run on auto-pilot, which could yield a positive or negative result, or we stop the natural reaction, we reasess the situation and choose the path which leads to harmony. Also on the subject of robots, I wouldn't hook my brain through a computer and link up with the hive mind. I may be a transhumanist, but I don't like the idea of my thoughts being compromised in that way.

I am aware that there is some series of questions which I answered to receive "less desiring of love" and "less of a planner". I feel as though I should clarify myself.

The "less of a planner", I suppose fits, because I am prone to spontaneity, but I do like to have at least a general plan to work from. A finished piece of artwork or construction requires some pre-planning, even if the end result differs from the original idea. Spontaneity only goes so far in my opinion. I embrace the ever-changing nature of reality, but I have grown wiser from experience, and am not quite so foolhardy as I once was. I'm aware that no matter how much you plan, the end result will vary, as will the means to the end. But without some sort of idea to work from, what are you working towards?

As for being "less desiring of love", I would say this is somewhat of a misnomer. I would love to find the girl of my dreams and live happily ever after. I have experienced true love, and would love to find that in someone to share my adventures with, but I'm going to be myself with or without a partner. I have listed that I'm looking for New Friends and Activity Partners, because that's how you get to know someone. While there may be some magick in love at first sight, you really need to have positive experiences together in order for true love to manifest. Learning about one another is not instantaneous and cannot be intuited from words on a page. I'm not looking for a one-night stand or a "booty call". I'm looking for genuine interrelation, real communication, mutual growth. Whether that leads to something more is not something I can intuit before even meeting someone.

Okcupid has been a wonderful tool of discovery for me. It has helped me explore who I am and what I am looking for.

I feel as though I am coming out of a place of great darkness and into my self again. As if this website is an external conceptualization of my being which I can observe as an outsider. A system cannot understand itself from within itself, and while other's opinions can be useful, there is nobody who can understand one's inner workings as one's self.

I'm reading a book called "The Raw Shark Texts" at the moment. It is about a man whose personality has been eaten by a mind-shark. Deep thinkers out in unknown conceptual waters sometimes encounter these creatures, which devour their being. I can emulate with this, as I have constantly pushed myself to the farthest reaches of my mind, and not all that comes back is pleasant. There are dark truths in all of us, and we all stumble and fall occasionally, to be devoured by our own thoughts. We must bolster ourselves with snippets of reality to "define" ourselves and come into our own.

Who are you? What do you want? Are there any real answers to these questions? I am so many things, and I have experienced so much in this life already. I want less stress in my life, I want someone who doesn't want to change me, who respects me for who I am and wants to help me manifest my potential. I am a large-hearted, forgiving, compassionate and trusting individual. I've been broken so many times by women that its a wonder that I keep searching for more. My true love is Oshun, the Orisha of love and love lost, the river, and the enjoyment of life. Thoughts of her strengthen me as I hit the rapids in the proverbial river of life. (For anyone reading this who don't know what an Orisha is, Oshun is a river in africa which has been given a persona... she may have been an actual individual, even the specific river is unimportant in the grand scheme of things... Orisha are somewhat akin to catholic saints, hence the syncretization [combining of religions] with voodoo to make santaria)

Information overload is a blessing and a curse. As information increases, the potential for novel experience and synchronicity increase, to the point of absurdity. What happens when you break down the dams and let the river flow unchecked? It can be wonderful, and it can be terrifying. But ever onward, the river must flow. There is no going back, no fighting the current. As a race, we are going forward faster than anyone can possibly keep up with. Technology will be our savior if it doesn't drive us all mad first. Through chapel perilous we go. No backing away now, we're already in deep water, powerful flows rushing us along into the future; the uncertain future with only our hopes and fears to guide us.

What we will become is unrecognizable to us now. We must somehow push ourselves to transcend everything we once knew to embrace the uncertain future. We must will into existence something beyond conception in order to free ourselves from the chains our past, society and human history has placed upon us.

I'm not looking for someone to save me. I just want someone to ride out the storms with who isn't going to rock my boat. I need someone to share my visions with. I have many friends, and I am not without love. I am lacking in a partner who is spiritually and socially versatile. I don't like to think of myself as polyamorous, I just haven't found the right person yet.