I would like to meet a manly man. Someone that is not afraid to get his hands dirty. Someone that respects their mother. A man that has strong character. Someone with confidence. What happen to all the men like Charles Ingles from Little House on the Prairie? He was a hard working man and loved his family. These days everyone is keeping up with the Jones and forgetting whats really important in life. Are men being more shallow these days? Are women just forgetting their roles in the cycle of life? Are men just becoming the women in the relationship and women becoming the men? There's no balance. Power overrides simplicity. Material overrides family and friends. What happen to love, gathering together and enjoying each others company? Why can't people put their egos aside and look at the big picture? You make life what you want it to be. Sometimes you can't control what's happening in your life but you still make what you want it to be. Before I wrote this I did a little research on divorce. 50% of marriages get divorced. The older you get less chance of divorce. Putting aside marriage and divorce. Does a long lasting relationship exist anymore? Does love even exist?

This year is the first year, and hopefully the last, for feeling really lonely and depressed. The other years I felt it but had some distractions. It's really hitting me hard this year. It sucks not able to spend Holidays or even the cold seasons with someone. It would be nice to have someone to do things, like just to hang out with, to bitter back and forth on how that he doesn't open the doors for me(reality I don't care), go for long walks, hold each other while watching a movie or by a fire, talk to about the day.  I am just getting tired going to these family gatherings and everyone has someone and I am by myself. I mean what the hell, what is wrong with me. I am hot, smart, okay little ditsy, entertaining, funny, kind, talented, and some other awesome characteristics. I am a great catch, I mean what is it, do I need to be divorced or have a child or two to connect with single people around my age. Or is there alot of shallow men out there that want a super model, barbie doll the whole package woman. Well good luck on that. Hey, don't get me wrong I want my guy to be attractive but I keep a wide range of "the look" I am attracted to. I am just a woman that knows what she's looking for and what she wants in life. Two things, no particular order, my own family and to travel. Maybe I just need to let the pity party go and let life take it course. It is easier said than done.  Someone is out there for me and me for them.

Not really exited it is Sunday, that means tomorrow is a work day and not ready for it. I need atleast 1 more day of not working. Oh well what do you do? I do love my job but sometimes the people I work with are worse than the children and I need a break from all the drama.