I see you, you see me. Isnt that something?

I'm really not all that sloppy, or bad mannered, and I'm adventurous as hell. The 'personality profile' or whatever on this website is retarded.

This profile is pretty long. I'm not sure why I feel the need to expose so much of myself on here but I do and I am doing it anyways despite certain reservations I have about it. Ya never know who might actually give a fuck enough to read it, right?

Im trying to figure out the best way to make the world a better place by helping people and animals. I want to travel someday, live on the edge of society. I think about a lot of things. I prefer to talk rather than text. I really like intelligence. I want someone who wants to show me affection, and wants to please me as much as i want to please them. I know no one is perfect, and i will admit it if i am wrong. I try to be open minded, and i enjoy studying every aspect of something. I am looking for someone to share my life with.

Go ahead and mention my spelling errors and see how quickly I stop talking to you. I write most of this and my messages on a phone. i dont give a fuck about spelling errors. in fact, anything about passive activities such as video games and television being your main interests I will not bother talking to you. I have learned that I do not mesh well with these types, at all, despite my unfortunate intimate knowledge with a lot of the subject matter. i am trying to clear all that space in my brain for more important things. I'm not looking for small talk, or 'friends' who do not share my main passions. Don't worry though, there's plenty of 'gamer girl' types out there waiting for you. Carpe diem! I dont mean to come off as a judgemental person, but i just dont have time for that stuff in my life right now and its just like, okay the fucking world is burning. Get off your ass and put out the god damn flames.

I know what i am looking for, which is a strong, smart and responsible partner who shares the same values as i do. I want to get to know someone who wants to eventually live off grid or close to it, and who wants to learn to build things with me or who can already build things and grow things. I love permaculture. Animal lover is a must. I am also pretty nerdy, i like a lot of sci fi stuff and crazy books but honestly that is really not what i am about. I do like to just chill and occasionally watch movies or cartoons but again that is really not what i am about. I want someone strong and confident and full of life who i can adventure with and be myself with, who wants to love me and stay by my side. I am weird, and i have a dark sense of humor at times, but i try to take very good care of myself and everyone around me. I believe in being centered and balanced. I do not eat gmo foods and am very active. I work part time on a local organic farm already but am interested in exploring more in the area or far away by joining the WWOOF program. I love alternative media, weird internet stuff. Pretty knowledgable about compters and tech but definitely lookig to learn more about eco and off grid more than anything else.

This is pretty much what I am looking for in a nutshell: Either someone I can get to know who is working on a sustainable off grid ecovillage or organic farm and making that their home that I can eventually get to know and come help with that, or, and more preferably because I want desperately to travel and experience all the things I have not yet, someone who wants to eventually have the aforementioned ecovillage / homestead but wants to get out and travel the world with me and do crazy volunteer work in all sorts of places, and who knows how to take care of himself in the woods and camping, is not obsessed with his hair, beard, clothes, whatever, and doesn't mind if I don't wear makeup every day, someone who is peaceful and wants to heal himself and the world.

I am a musician, i play guitar and bass and hand percussion and sing. I also record all my own stuff. I play bluesy southern metal and folk and sometimes more progressive hardcore sounding stuff. Im really not interested in someone who just wants to play music. I need more than that, sorry. I am very ambitious and driven and ready to go out and make this world a better place and sing about truth and love and also the changing times. But i also want to have fun and explore.

I am a writer and a poet though i am sure my writing here does not reflect it. I just find it difficult to express myself fully with words any other way than bluntly, to the point. I reserve my wandering prose for external purposes.

Update april 2013: i am practicing sleeping on the floor in my sleeping bag and going without my phone (as in turning it off and leaving it in another room) bcause i am certain the raditation from the damn thing is interrupting my rem sleep and also guiding more unpleasant thoughts. I am also in the process of aquiring all ultralight camping gear i need for my bugout bag and studying every aspect i can think of about living portably. I do not trust the system to remain livable much longer, so the majority of my energy is being spent attempting to acclimate myself to more uncomfortable conditions since i ha e been so used to the creature comforts i feel this transition is necessary to keep myself motivated and from shocking my body too much. Been practicing the 'simple shower' technique as i learned in the series dwelling portably, hung a jug with holes poked in to my back porch rafter filled with water i boiled. Next step is boiling the water over i fire i started usingonly flint. This one may take a while. Having to do it in underwear cause of peeping neighbors. Will be very glad when i no longer have to piss away all my time and money to pay for a.house i rarely spend time in. Been doing all laundry in the creek. Shit you not. I smell like a dream. Hiking through my land with a weighted pack is building crazy stamia very quickly.

Making weird music and finding strange internet things... listening

Probably tattoos... its pretty annoying

Kurt Vonnegut
Progressive anything. jazz rock hip hop nature sounds, whatever
Documentaries about real things
comedies. good ones
crazy stuff, wild stuff.
Hunter S. Thompson
Sci Fi of all kinds
BIZZARO fiction!
Sam Pink
Krishnamurti
Elkhart tolle
Alan watts
Abraham hicks
Circa survive and Anthony green
Ram dass
Gypsy punk
Bluegrass and badass country

I believe a whole foods plant based diet can reverse nearly all that ails the human body. Therefore I am acclimating to a nearly full vegan diet. However I will not skimp on something when it is offered to me and i am hungry as long as I know it's not terrible for me. I also learning how to identify edible wild weeds and would very much like to learn how to live almos entirely off of wild food and think that the no till food forest horticulture thing is beautiful and could start a revolution to undo the damage of agriculture and industry.

I like stupid crazy irreverent humor from time to time but I am considering cutting almost all media from my life possibly for good because of what I seem as damage that has been done to my mind, those 'ear worms' that people get, if I am not very alert they will run in the background of my mind constantly because of the over saturation of media I exposed myself to over the years and I am putting in serious effort to minimize this noise in my head.

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I'll add on to this later

Food, water, shelter, love, warmth, clean air. I would be very interested in giving up all worldly possessions and traveling the world someday.

things that are distracting, seeing the world thru the eyes of an alien, the sky, the future, the dream i had last night or last week or years ago, the end of the world as we know it, the singularity, corporations sending bad vibes to my mind. I also like to think about the mistakes i have made and remind myself of important things. I do not have the best memory for some reason, so i have to be careful not to forget important lessons.

Yeah ok this section is mega stupid and irrelevant so i will insert something great:

Aristotle describes blind men grabbing different parts of an elephant without realizing they are aspects of one entity.

Who is Aristotle?

The elephant.

The Digital Mental Shamans:
As far as saving the world or reducing the suffering here goes, The power to reliably and repeatedly open minds to a new story, a new way of seeing things, is vastly more useful than developing some ability to purify water, Genetically engineer drought resistant crops, developing spiritual or ethical businesses, finding a cure for cancer, or developing free energy,

The world we want is already here. Building more of it will not make it more so. What we already have is obscured by language and informational noise.

We've arrived in the promised land but we have to literally shift dimensions. Who will guide us less than one foot step away from everything we know? And how?

This takes an incredibly strong understanding of mind. An incredibly strong understanding of the individual, national, global, and solar development process.

What was previously complex must be made incredibly simple. 2 days of teaching must be understood so well it becomes 11 min of teaching. It has to be made simpler than that. It has to be made obvious. We are standing knee deep in it already.

I feel many Shamans of today are no longer charged primarily with shaping and communing with the spirits, elements, and energy as we normally experience them. The density has increased. Instead they are tasked with nothing less than shaping and communing with the global mind in its own separate fearful reality. Those who fully go into this task are by necessity operating in the dark. Light they once always had access to is cut off. Left with only Love, intuition and playful innovation they guide us Through this dark and creative medium.

And I feel they will become powerful. Maybe we will see magic. Maybe we will see tricks, but what I hope to see are these shamans standing in this world's Legal courts and dismantling the very thought processes they stand on. They will have to be physically silenced as their channeled words will silence the separation of all the minds they land on. Maybe. Its a dream.

We are lost in thought. Lost in culture. Lost in information. The digital-conceptual-mental shamans are tasked with guiding us out of this imaginary forest and back into nature. I think its something new for everyone.

-Kurt Hardesty

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"the potential for a more beautiful world.

That world is at once tantalizingly close and impossibly distant. On the one hand, we don’t need any new technology to reach it; if we could only change our perceptions and social agreements, if only billions of us had a change of heart, we could be living right now in paradise. As I like to point out, half the world wastes enough food to feed the other half. On the other hand, such a shift – which would have to encompass the money system, politics, law, and the way we see each other and the world – is so huge as to seem impossible. Consider: how close is it to political reality to disband all armies, cease all weapons production, abolish all borders, cancel most debt, and adopt already-existing upcycling and permaculture technologies on a mass scale? That is the degree of change we need to save our world. None of these things (armies, borders, money, etc.) are written into material reality. They are products of our agreements." - Charles Eisenstein

I am a hopeless romantic, and i tend to choose people. Looks are important but absolutely not a deciding factor in if i choose to talk to you. I do not want to be hurt, but i am not afraid to risk rejection. I would rather be loved for who i am then who i am not. Who i am can change, but only if it is beneficial and some things take some time. Our time here is short, and soon we will be gone, so i am trying to remind myself how important that is every day. "No time to waste on what ifs and could have beens." I shouldnt have written this here, but i'm a loner dottie. A rebel.

You dont just care about yourself, you dont care about clothes or money or any of that stupid shit civilization is forcing on us, you have emotions are arent afraid to talk about them instead of pretending they arent there, you prefer reality to fantasy, but i can dig fantasy too. You have a weird ass sense of humor
You like bikes and know how to fix them and wanna teach me (im gonna learn on my own eventually if not haha)
You think the idea of carrying everything you need on your back is appealing
You can respect a woman for her biological differences and you know what that means and expect me to do the same
You are looking for monogamy eventually. Im ok with the whole trial dating, hanging out thing but I am NOT poly, i dont believe it in it and it makes me uncomfortable, the same goes for pornography and any other overly sexual things. I don't know if I will always feel this way but its how I feel now. I view sex as sacred, and very powerful and should not be taken lighly and thrown around everywhere. Im not judging anyone as long as they dont try and hurt me or others. And if you want to think i believe in being a faithful lover because of some sort of cultural conditioning that i cant seem to shake then you are insulting my intelligence and can kindly fuck off or respect my opinion and leave it at that.