Sometimes I feel pulled between two dream worlds. Part of me does want the cool apartment with a good stereo, large theatre-like screen etc, silver Porsche Carrera GT.. That beautiful drum set, that sleek guitar, frequent trips to the movies, so on and so forth. The other part of me just wants to have a simple life without material stuff, travelling round the world, just living and growing each day, I want something genuine.

I have this whole wide social network which doesn't interest me so much anymore. I'm more concerned with having those close friends whom I can share with, those that I care for, that really matter to me.

I do need to laugh till my tummy hurts, go crazy with my friends, but I must also have those deep reflective moments, sometimes alone, sometimes sharing with others.

I have a very rebellious streak under that 'good girl' face of mine.

Sometimes I'm very boyish, at other times I'm pretty feminine. I'm sociable and people like me generally, but I'm also shy depending on circumstances. Those who know me though, say," YOU? SHY?????? " You get the point.

I can be very positive and optimistic, but I can also go all emo and depressed.. It balances me out!

pursuing my dreams

Making people laugh, sometimes AT me, I so do make a fool out of myself when I'm being silly haha! Pushing people away when I'm depressed :(

'Charming' those I'm not interested in, and fumbling all over initially when it comes to those I'm attracted to

My mischievous grin, how fair I am compared to the typical Singaporean, how passionate and enthusiastic I am about certain stuff. Some think I'm really silly and goofy when they first know me, cuz I'm laughing like a crazy ass, others think I'm deep. *shrugs* You can tell me what you first notice about me! First impressions alone, however, are rarely accurate.

a) the Merriam Webster Dictionary (America's .1 Paperback Dictionary), seriously, that's my fav dictionary. haha.. k, back 2 serious business. The Guardian by Nicholas Sparks. Great Expectations! I Found My Heart In San Franciso by S X Meagher, and anything by Neil Gaiman, especially Neverwhere and Good Omens. We Need To Talk About Kevin, Kafka on the Shore, Catcher in the Rye, The Alchemist, Fight Club, Sula, Hedda Gabler, A Doll's House, The Quintessence of Ibsenism, The Crucible, A Dream Play, Boy On A String, The Hottest State, Seagull, Art

b)2 Days in Paris, 10 Things I Hate About You, A Beautiful Mind, Adam's Apples, Adaptation, Almost Famous, American History X, American Splendor, Anywhere But Here, Auf der anderen Seite (The Edge of Heaven), Away From Her, Babel, Beautiful Bitch, Before Sunset, Billy Elliot, Blue Crush, Boy A, Brazil, Cinderella Man, City of Angels, Closer, Coach Carter, Cold Mountain, Collateral, Crash, Dead Poets Society, Donnie Darko, Fight Club, Finding Forrester, Finding Neverland, Freaky Friday, Garden State, Gia, Half Nelson, Higher Learning, Hiroshima Mon Amour, Hitch, How 2 Lose A Guy in 10 Days, In Good Company, Interview with the Vampire, Intolerable Cruelty, Last King of Scotland, Lord of the Rings, Lost and Delirious, Love In Thoughts, Match Point, Mean Girls, Milk, Moliere, Moulin Rouge, My Brother, Mysterious Skin, Mystic River, Ned Kelly, Notes on a Scandal, Oliver Twist, Over the Top, Pirates of the Caribbean, Practical Magic, Proof, Ray, Red Eye, Remember The Titans, Requiem For A Dream, Saving Face, Saw, Seabiscuit, Serendipity, Signs, Stardust, The Breakfast Club, The Edukators, The Last Samurai, The Life of David Gale, The Matrix, The Sixth Sense, The Terminal, Thirteen, Top Hat, Under the Tuscan Sun, Vicky Cristina Barcelona, While You Were Sleeping, White Chicks :D

c)mostly alternative/emo/indie rock and trance.. Acceptance, Acidman, A.F.I, A Heartwell Ending, A Perfect Circle, Amateur Takes Control, Anberlin, And Then I Turned Seven, Angelas Dish, Angels & Airwaves, Aphasia, Armin van Buuren, Armor For Sleep, Ash, Atreyu, Augustana, Au Revoir Simone, Azure Ray, Bad Religion, Bed Light For Blue Eyes, Blink 182, Boys Like Girls, Brand New, Breaking Benjamin, Broken Social Scene, Chris Tomlin, Coheed and Cambria, Coldplay, Collective Soul, Copeland, Cute Is What We Aim For, Dashboard Confessional, Dave Matthews Band, Death Cab For Cutie, Deftones, Delirious, Depeche Mode, DJ Tiesto, Drive Like Carson, Enigma, Era, Fall Out Boy, Feeder, Ferry Corsten, Filter, Finch, Five For Fighting, Foo Fighters, Frou Frou, Fuel, Funeral For A Friend, Further Seems Forever, Goo Goo Dolls, Gratitude, Green Day, Hawthorne Heights, Hot Chip, Imogen Heap, Incubus, Jack's Mannequin, Jars of Clay, Jeremy Camp, Jimmy Eat World, John Mayer, Kasabian, Korn, Lifehouse, Longview, Lostprophets, Lunarin, Matchbook Romance, Matchbox 20, Mew, Michelle Branch, Missy Higgins, Modest Mouse, Motion City Soundtrack, MxPx, Nirvana, Oasis, Our Lady Peace, Paul Oakenfold, Paul Van Dyk, Pink Floyd, Placebo, Puddle of Mudd, Quietdrive, Radiohead, Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Relient K, Rooney, Saosin, Saves The Day, Sean Tyas, Senses Fail, Sigur Ros, Silverstein, Smile Empty Soul, Snow Patrol, Spitz, Stereophonics, Story of the Year, Straylight Run, Switchfoot, Taking Back Sunday, Theatre of Tragedy, The Album Leaf, The All-American Rejects, The Ataris, The Calling, The Cranberries, The Early November, The Hush Sound, The Juliana Theory, The Killers, The Postal Service, The Used, Third Eye Blind, Thrice, Train, Travis, Truce, Tyler Hilton, U2, Unwritten Law, Underoath, Waking Ashland, West Grand Boulevard, Yellowcard..

d) oh my, I'm the person to look for when you want to find out the best food places in Singapore! Italian food, sushi, fish & chips, chocs, ice-cream, crispy chicken when i'm at the cinema :D I'm also a sucker for Baileys, yes I know that's not food

dreams, expression, music, film/theatre (both viewing and performing), inspiration, motivation, reading, writing, poetry, the arts, depth, meaning, drumming, playing the guitar, singing, sinful food, infectious laughter, overwhelming melancholy, complexity, freedom, self-discovery, love, pain, possibility, learning, passion, a sense of purpose, contemplation, the intellect, hugs, the unconventional, quiet sophistication, faith

yes obviously that's more than six things, but if I leave out any, it feels like I'm missing.

Currently: travel plans, where and what and the cheapest way to explore and the damned French resident card

How my life will turn out, my different dreams, how brilliant the world can seem at one moment and how sucky it can be at the next one, how I should live my life to the fullest, how I'm contented with the slightest things at times, yet so unsatisfied with my life, how time passes so fast and amazing experiences turn to mere memories, if God made Man or Man made God, if everything actually happens for a reason, or the world is governed by randomness and chaos.

How things change, but life still remains the same.. somehow.

I also have random thoughts like an l somersaulting with its head in the crack of k and and landing on its feet right behind m.

My beliefs, principles, ideals, and how and if they apply to the real world.

Using the computer, rushing some last-minute work, reading, watching a movie, checking out a live band or something.. I do head to certain clubs occasionally if I know there's good music, that is, trance. Awesome indie is harder to obtain here. I dislike hiphop/r&b with a vengeance. I usually prefer heading out on weekdays, because films are cheaper, and I won't get stuck in the middle of an immense crowd.

Currently: Travelling/exploring/discovering

I think I've OCD and BPD (not bipolar).

you're not extremely materialistic, believing that toys alone will bring you happiness. i'm looking for someone who shares the same interests and passions, who's like me and who will understand me, deep down inside. if you don't think you are but would still like to get to know me, go ahead :) do NOT however, message me, if you're a horny pervert looking to get some. you are NOT welcome at all..

... you think that I prize music above books because I have a waaaaaay larger quantity of bands in my list of favourite music.

If you want to share anything about living in your country, believe I'll have a wonderful experience in whichever country, or anything that might influence my decision on which location to head to or strike off my list, then please message me now!! :)