If your checking out my profile because I messaged you, please keep in mind that if you don't message me back I'm assuming that you think I'm too weird, and you are uncomfortable conversing with me. So even if you have nothing interesting to say and it's generic, just reply, even if it's weeks late.
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I been wondering if my profile is too forward, and maybe I should tone it down, but at the same time I still want to be honest of who I am.
Got any suggestions?
I keep editing my profile as I reflect on my self a little by little, adding and deleting, rewriting.
LAST EDITED: 11 13 09

English is not my first language, so my grammar is probably horrible. I'm relearning Russian, my first language. I'm so out of practice. My language skills aren't awesome in either language:(
I find some folks who can speak Russian with the proper accent very hot for some reason. I'm still trying to figure that one out.

I think that in my current path of re discovery. Lately I been feeling like "World In My Eyes by Depeche Mode"

I'm finding that I really can't appreciate people that have to classify everything as black and white concrete ideas with no gray areas. It's too stereotypical. Stereotypes are ok to describe what your into (your interests, hobbies, etc....), but not who you are, or your nature. Also, it seems that people who think this way are always right and think your wrong when there's a conflict of ideas, beliefs, interests, etc...... I just have to be honest with my self and say that this black & white concrete boxed in way is not one for me.

I'm a polyamorous, gothic, hippie, artist, drummer, eclectic/pagan, gear head who is into BDSM, music, and tinkering with machinery of any sort.
I'd love the opportunity to invent, construct stuff.

I'm comfortable with the concept of Polyamory, Polytrothism, Polyfidelity.

I suppose that in any style of relationship honesty, trust and communication go hand in hand, and in any relationship that these actions cease to exist (usually this is not intentional) will probably end on bad terms unless the situation is fixed. With multiple partners involved, good communication tends to be the stock of the relationships. I believe that in a poly relationship the break of communication is less likely to happen, because there are multiple people involved and good communication becomes the key to solving the issues that people may encounter with a poly relationship.

That said, if your interested, you will need to form a relationship of some sort with my partners as well, be it friendship or something more.

I'm dating ladyOdessy & Krystlecat We are a MFM triad who live together and are all bi. I have previously dated both of them separately and then together, but this didn't work for me 10 years ago because at that point I was very Monogamous, didn't want to share, got very jealous and left the relationship. I eventually got over it, and realized that what they have together is something I could not provide. I'm not a breeder (I got fixed). While I was out of the relationship, they got married and had a child. He's a bouncing bundle of joy. Who tends to drive me nuts sometimes. (I changed my profile to "likes children" yes I suppose they're not all bad, but I still don't want any of my own at this point in time. I'm just fine with borrowing your kid/s for a while, as long as you'll take them back.)

I'M ADDICTED TO DRUMMING
Sometimes I hate the fact that I love drumming so much, because I don't feel that I get to socialize enough. At the same time, especially after a bad day or week. I really feel the need to drum. It's like a drug to me. In some ways I am addicted to it.
I look at this as, drumming is part of my spiritual experience.
My eclectic / pagan / agnostic beliefs or something like that...

My religious path
I follow what I choose. I choose bits and pieces of different religions. I agree with some things, but not others.
I don't want to follow anyone's path, & I don't want anyone to follow me in my beliefs. If we agree on somethings, or click in some way that's great, but not expected.
My focus is currently on energy. Positive energy is good. Me and ladyOdesy like to practice "sex magic" as we call it. It comes very naturally to us when we are around each other (this explains why we flirt so much).
I guess the best way to describe the energy is that it is within everything around us, especially living things. Unfortunately, good energy in a big city is usually all mangled up by the amount of negativeness that it's resident often face, and this makes the energy all blah, like a life sucks sort of feeling, at least for me. So when I go to the mountains, or some open area, the unmangled and free from negativity energy flowing freely from all the living things is there, especially the trees. Nature is my church.
That's the basics. If you can feel it, you can manipulate it.
Don't even think about using this for any personal gain, karma is a b*ch.

There's more weird stuff in my posts/journal about me
Hormonally Altered before Birth

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Involving my self in Polyamorous relationships with good friends.
Meeting Poly friendly people. Meeting new people is scary, but it is easier if you believe they will except you for you.
Surfing OKC 8) taking tests, editing my profile.

Getting a divorce.
Trying to be friends with my ex. This is proving to be really confusing, because I don't know when & what to believe anymore when I talk to her. Realizing that I still harbor a lot of emotions for her, and praying I don't get screwed emotionally and financially.

Setting up my living space is proving to be a work in progress at this point in time.
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Current projects are:
Fix my vehicles: 2 sedans and a 83 4wd suby wagon gl my project.
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Current side projects are:
I'm looking for or need access to a welder so I can weld me a rack. I prefer TIG then MIG then Oxy Acetylene.
I also have an idea for making a set of suspension cuffs. I just need to find or make a Chinese wrist/hand trap (like the Chinese finger trap). I'm hopping that the Chinese wrist/hand trap will help not cut of circulation to my hands, at least not as much as the basic cuffs do.
Let me know if you got any ideas.
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Next projects are:
Fix house windows ~~~ finally getting around to it 11 10 09

Find a good industrial job (cant do an office job cause my back would lock up from sitting still all day long), working at a plant of some sort, as long as it's not a chem plant, and get off the unemployment.

Quit smoking ~~~ not smoking a pack of cloves a day, but now smoking menthols. At this point the cigarettes are wining. 11 10 09
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Education:
So far I have an Associates in Automotive with street rod and chassis fabrication from WyoTech, but this is more of a hobby currently.

Drumming on a Djembe or Doumbek.
Drawing abstract / tribal pattern art work.
I like to draw faces and eyes in that style. Eyes especially because they convey emotion, mood and often the eyes of the drawing follow you.
Fixing or jerry rigging things, usually cars.
Some of my friends call my project cars frankeinstiened, but hey they run, usually for cheap. I tend to go to the junk yard a lot sometimes. I also find junk yards and working on vehicles somewhat therapeutic at times, as long as I'm in the right mood for doing that stuff.

I’m good at T.M.I.
Sometimes not filtering what I say, alcohol makes this worse.
Soft sweet kisses, I don't like to suck face.
Oral sex just ask ladyOdessy or Krystlecat

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My prescription safety glasses or birth control goggles I think that's a gear head reference.
People always ask me why I always wear my safeties. The reason I don’t switch glasses, is because the difference in the lenses shape, angle, and cut gives me a head ache and takes my eyes a few days to adjust. Yes I’m that blind. Contacts drive me nuts, and I have never been able to successfully put both in at the same time.
It has been years sense my last attempt, maybe when I have insurance.
I usually dress like a mechanic or repair man, so I can appear normal.
If I don’t need to appear “normal”, then I dress for the occasion, usually this means out of the norm or just being comfortable which usually makes me look normal.

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FAVORITE OKC TEST:
Which Tarot Card Represents Your Higher Self? written by troisyeuxverts
The Alignment Test written by Xan81 I like the "Jedi Mindfuck" reference on the last page of the test.
What's Your Price? written by seeyoshirun Would you become a surrogate mother for someone if they offered enough money? Better question: do you think Arnold, the current governor of California, would make a good mother?
The Homicidal Maniac Testwritten by seeyoshirun Orgasms are linked to mental health. We kid you not.
The The Which Beatle are You Testwritten by bag_o_r
I see religion as . . .
a divider. Religion forces people to draw boundaries and isolate themselves from others. I believe in myself, or I pull different ideas from various religions.
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Books: how to books, Tech Manuals, I don't read a lot of books. I'm mainly interested in fact over fiction, I do most of my reading on the net, OKC, researching something of personal interest.
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Movies: A Clock Work Orange, Meet the Feebles, Kinky Boots,V for Vendetta, Boys Don't Cry, As Good As It Gets, The Harry Potter Series,
Pink Floyd The Wall, Fear n Loathing. I like movies that make you think, or show a point of view from someone else's perspective. Don't watch movies too often. It's nice to do with friends or like a date night, but usually I prefer to be doing stuff, or zoning with the PC, PS2, PS3. Listening to music. The TV is too distracting for me. I tend to zone on it too much.
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Music:
I identify the most with Pink Floyd, Depeche Mode, Marilyn Manson, Sarah McLaughlin, KMFDM................

I'm a lot more into MUSIC vs TV/MOVIES. Usually I listen to rock (in the car), but it just depends what I'm in the mood for.
Rock in all it's differences and glory, Goth, Ambient, Techno, Industria. Some: country, rap, r&b, soul, jazz, and so forth, some artists i like some not so much, and sometimes I only like a few songs they did. I listen every thing from some thing like Marilyn Manson to Enya is a good way of describing it.
This list started in Aug09 and I keep adding band names to it:
Mc900 Foot Jesus, Blood Hound Gang, Razed in Black, Sneaker Pimps, Manson, NIN's, Matelica's old stuff, Led Zeplin, Pink Floyd, Rolling Stones, Jimmy Hendrix, Queen, Filter,Gorillas, Front Line Assembly, Haujob, System of a Down, Listening to all my mp3s Deftones, Lords of Acid, Front 242, Die Form, etc...
A lot of it has been Gothy Dark Techno / Industrial / Ambient kinda. That's the closest that I can classify it.
Found this awesome cite http://www.last.fm/ when I was reading someones OKC profile. You can find the Russian music there.
Russian music I like: Кино (“Kino”, Russian for Cinema or Movie), t.A.T.u., Владимир Высоцкий (Vladimir Semeonovich Vysotsky), ППК (PPK).
Heartbeat a pagan band
I have been listening to a lot of these lately 10 30 09: Sara Mcglocklin, Depeche Mode, Lords of Acid, Marilyn Manson ~ Coma White.
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Food: Generally I prefer good old hardy home cooking. It's cheap and It's not junk food. I'm really tired of junk/fast food.
Other Foods: Likely to try it at least ones. I like chines, russian, sushi.

Food can be fun;P
I like to play with my food when I'm allowed to

What do u taste good with?

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Other than the materialistic necessitates needed for living comfortably consisting of: a roof over my head of some sort, (stationary or mobile)
unfortunately an income of some sort, cause I don't live in a community with a bunch of sharing hippies where we all co-exist. So food, water, shelter.
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These following things are important to me, but I could technically survive with out them. Just that I will not be at all too happy about giving these up.
FRIENDS & FAMILY
INNER-PEACE / SPIRITUALITY: being introverted; reflecting, grounding, exploring
MELTING IDEAS TOGETHER: Imagination, creativity, creating, communicating, constructing
TOOLS I'm still wanting a garage to call my own where I can tinker.
DRUMS: Djembe style hand drum, it helps relieve stress and lets me be creative in a different way. I love creating music, and using a hand drum to communicate with others in a circle as we share and add to the rhythm is a wonderful experience, as long as there is a rhythm and no one is being a power drummer and rolling over everybody else.
NATURE: fresh air, mountains, trees, fields, creeks

Our cats, but they are with my ex, I miss them;(
Our oldest one Han died, 10 29 09 my ex was nice enough to let me see him a few days before he passed, when he wasn't doing so good. He probably died of kidney failure, his sister died of kidney failure about 4 years ago. Han almost made it to Halloween which would have been his 13th B-day.
He was a really good and smart kitty and I hope I'm lucky enough to find other kitties like him in the future. He was a persian bobcat mix.
If anyone knows anyone who has bobcat mixed kitties let me know, they make great pets, but you have to get them fixed at 4 weeks old by law and it's very expensive from what I hear.

I'm getting my kitty "Chevy" back, but he's an indoor cat and both of the pets in this household are indoor/outdoor trained, so I'm going to wait till the winter cold hit's then when I take him he will not want to go outside because it's too cold wet. I'm hopping that by spring he should be well adjusted and will not run away or get hit by a car. We have a 3 year old and he let's all the pets in and out and leaves doors open sometimes. So there's no point in trying to physically prevent the cat from going outside.

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The concept definition of Polyamory
"The two essential ingredients of the concept of "polyamory" are "more than one" and "loving." That is, it is expected that the people in such relationships have a loving emotional bond, are involved in each other's lives multi-dimensionally, and care for each other. This term is not intended to apply to merely casual recreational sex, anonymous orgies, one-night stands, pick-ups, prostitution, "cheating," serial monogamy, or the popular definition of swinging as "mate-swapping" parties."

Positive ways to deal with emotional issues.

The different ways to Poly, and which way I seek:
Depending on which guidelines and rules are set in a relationship. Hopefully these guide lines and rules are fair to all involved. I prefer an even 50/50 % split between me and my S.O. when involved in a Mono relationship style. In a Poly relationship style is it still 50/50 % split or is it in my case divided into 3rds so 33.3/33.3/33.3 % split? and 50/50 % split when directly dealing with a partner?

Reading the poly dictionary and learning new fun facts and words like:
ONEIDA COMMUNITY....
POLYTROTHISM: The state or practice of maintaining multiple egalitarian relationships, each of which is equal with respect to decision-making and other practical matters.
FRUBBLE: A pleasant emotion of happiness arising from seeing one's partner with another partner. Contrast wibble; See also compersion.
WIBBLE: A feeling of insecurity, typically temporary or fleeting, when seeing a partner being affectionate with someone else. Wibbley: of or related to wibble, as Seeing those two together makes me feel wibbley. Contrast compersion, frubble.
COMPERSION: A feeling of joy when a partner invests in and takes pleasure from another romantic or sexual relationship. Commentary: Compersion can be thought of as the opposite of "jealousy;" it is a positive emotional reaction to a lover's other relationship.
http://www.xeromag.com/fvpolyglossary.html

I see my self changing from my life experience, mainly from my marriage and divorce. How I'm different now than before. Just things I have realized recently in the last few months. Slowly putting it all together, re-learning who I am now, because I was too busy to know my self when I was with my wife. A lot of the changes I have experienced come directly as a result of the break up. I'm coming to terms with myself, of who I am and what I need / want / desire / value in my life or something of that sort.

Traits I do not like about my self:
Shyness
Possessive; sometimes a little
Jealous; sometimes when emotions are involved or something is amiss.

My goals in order from long to short term.
Cars, concept car.
Getting a good job.
Inventing or rigging new stuff.
Herbology and Alchemy
My eclectic spirituality and where I'm going with it
Attending Poly and Pagan friendly gatherings,festivals.
Building a network of good folks
Working on relationships

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Hang out with friends, relearning Russian.
Going out... to somewhere? depends on who makes the plans
Surfing OkCupid.
Keeping my self entertained `8~) spending introverted time with me
Enjoying my self with one or both of my S.O. s
Maybe getting laid.
or maybe just sleeping.

I have not had any sort of regular, reoccurring schedule for the last few months, at least one that I have been following.

If I admit it publicly then it's not private anymore, is it?

With that in mind here's some stuff most people would consider private, but I just want to throw it out here so you know.
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I'm shy around folks I don't know well especially when interacting with them in person.

I would rather have someone tell me that they appreciate what i do for them, instead of the normal "thanks, i love you" kiss, kiss, kiss thing.
I have issues with the "L" word, it's misused and used way too often, and it has too broad of a meaning.

[6:21:11 am]sammcree:it's too broad of a meaning

I like to play minesweeper, sometimes late at night when I don't want to go to sleep. (if anyone remembers that game of the win98 OS)

I'm not a private person and my mouth came without a filter!
This usually starts to be true once I start to feel comfortable with the person during face to face interaction, or alcohol is involved. Online I'm a lot more open because all I have to worry about are some crazy people surfing the net.
You should read on for some general things most would consider T.M.I.. Also read my posts there's probably some T.M.I. there too.

Nyotaimori "body sushi" there is a name for it yay......
I have been wanting to do it for over 10years now... GRRRrrr....

Learning about fetishes on FetLife

Here are some of my general sexual preferences:
This is all respectively with folks I'm comfortable with.
I like to be sensual
I have this thing about kissing, it's a personal preference. Usually, as long as I'm rational, and not horny, I prefer to leave kissing out until I get to know someone. I suppose it also depends on the person. I think kissing is one of my emotional triggers. So please don't go there until you get to know me and you have good intentions. Sucking face or forceful kissing is not my style either.
I'm pickier with boys than girls.
I can be rather picky, it depends how introverted I'm feeling.
I have an oral fetish.
I like oral sex & 69. Giving is fun, as long as I get some too.
My favorite position involving ladies seems to be missionary, even though that's so vanilla. I just like kissing, and suckling on their breasts so much.
Don't have a favorite with men because it hasn't happened yet.
I want to further explore fetishes.
I'm a switch, except when I want to be tied up.
I want to play with the idea of being a dom. I think I might enjoy that.
In some ways I'm very dominating, I love when people squirm in pleasure, but are only allowed to enjoy themselves and cannot give any back. Then again I love being tied up and blind folded and teased as well.
Sensory deprivation while over stimulating the other senses.
Being whipped with a flogger.
Being bit and biting back (clamp down hickeys aren't cool).
Knife play (no blood please), but I do like a good sharp knife.
Squirming in pleasure.
I crave that feeling of release when you finally surrender yourself to the moment. It's better then going to the chiropractor. In some ways it's better then an orgasm.
3soms and orgies are great.

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Your honest, with your self and others.
OKC is a good place to learn & network.
SO IF YOU HAVE ANY QUESTIONS ASK AWAY. hate mail is not welcomed, I'll except constructive criticism.
Suggestions and discussions are welcome.

I think my profile identifies me well, but it's only a part of the whole. If you want to know more you'll just have to contact me. I think somethings about my self would be really hard to convey in writing, but if I figure out a good way of communicating this, it will get added to my profile or posts.

some of my broad interests:
community, polyamory, spirituality, fetishes, cars/machinery, art, cats/animals, camping.