I try to be myself - a slightly oddball girl who tries to enjoy life but has become distant from her social world. I dive between being mature intellectual and being a silly kid - I'm the Introvert with the occassional extrovert depending on when you catch me and how nerotic I'm being. I'm the sweet innocent who has issues with hedonistic pleasure and the hedonist who revels in exploring the perverse side of the world with the right people.

Aside from my contradictions, Master and I live in Milton Keynes now together, which has left us feeling a little trapped. If youre around here and care to show us the town, feel free, I shall do my best to entertain ^_^

I'm a shades of grey kind of person - I'm looking for friends (or a female playmate) who understand the shades of grey I live in, the twisted forms of reltionships I have, whom I can be close to without a need for exclusivity.

It is avery selfish outlook - I do realise that, I am missing something in my social life which I'm hoping can be filled. In return I can but hope that anything I gain from others I can reciprocate. I can listen, I can attempt to entertain, I can try my best to lend my perspective on life if it will help illuminate things.

I am unusual, thoughtful, and subby

I'm preparing to take over the world? Unfortunatly that has been put on hold while i setle into a settled adult life. I have what is essentially a 9 - 5 normal weekday job, a partner I live with and weekends to ourselves.

I am currently working on a couple of projects - one which is making additional items for an outfit (you cannot seem to buy a purple tiara without it being plastic tackyness) and the other preparing my hello kitty 40k army for the next time I use them - theres a megabattle going on in january but the boys seem to have sorted themselves out without needing the kitties. They may however come out again once I have finished the new rhinos.

I have recently bought a rather decent haul of history books covering the Ottoman empire, the Spanish empire, and the Macedonian empire. Im looking forward to settling down on a dark cold night to read these - or snuggling into a chair in my local starbucks with a book and a gingerbread hot chocolate.

reading, politics, making bead thingys, making tea, cooking

I still intend to be good at slinking around in various PVC outfits looking like an ultimate fetish pirate wench too! This I do tend to reseve for home, hull and the intarwebs at the moment though as there seems to be nowhere suitable in this grid based town.

My long brown hair and occasionally the clothes I wear when im feeling confident and am not at work.

Failing that something weird i'm doing or saying...It's not normally deliberate as such, its just who i am.

anything anne rice, L.J smith, paula danzinger or jane austin - failing that, anything with words. I enjoy reading immensly though often dont have the time these days, I did manage to get through the Story of O in two days. Apparently I have found out that when I deal with physical trauma my ability to cope is related to how near a book is to me and if I can read it.

I have very few movies that are favorites as i'll watch anything i'm told to - but I corrupt people with hedwig and the angry inch, velvet goldmine and labyrinth I also am enjoying more sci fi films as my partner shows me his movie collection.

Music - anything old but especially alice cooper or queen I'm also becoming a voltaire fangirl. Saw him in london earlier last year ^_^ I gots me a hug and a cd ^_^ Alice cooper, joan jett and motohead were awesome....Next up will be sonisphere next year. I also like musical comedy such as tim minchin, tom lehrer and wierd al.

Foods - Chocolate! (yes, cliched, but I love it!) More Chocolate! Tea, especially Earl Grey, I introduce many people to the concept of tea beyond Tetleys. I enjoy loose leaf tea in teapots especially. I'll eat whatever I can be bothered when I can be bothered. I'm trying not to waste away, I can't do that to myself accidently again. I am however loving having my own kitchen and cooking stuff! so far I have made such delicacies as baileys cheesecake, rum and chocolate cake, dinosaur cookies and bara brith. I have also teated my workplace to a boiled rum fruitcake which required me using a massive tin and went down very well.

a good cuddle when needed. Thankfully most of the time this is fairly easy to get hold of. Failing that a mental hug often does me well, knowing that if people were with me I'd be safely in their arms.

friends - I know its cliche but my friends mean the world to me. I rarely show them enough appreciation or acknowledgement but they are in my heart and I couldnt do without them. I cant wait to get back to hull to spend time with some of them. I feel very distant without friends in my home town and hope that I can find some on here to go for a 'coffee' with (by which i mean tea or hot chocolate)

books - even as a child I loved books. Apparently when I broke my ankle I was really shaken and unsteady right up until I had the chance to get a book out when I immediatly calmed and went into another world.

soft toys - even in hull I had at least one or two kicking around, i have a large section of space at the end of the bed in our study for them - I like the idea that theyre staring at guests and making them feel slightly put off...mehehe

my darling isabella (computer) shes pretty - and keeps me sane.

Inner strength - I've learnt in the last few years that I can have a lot of this. I damn well need it sometimes just to keep going without becoming a bitter cynical old cat lady. A woman I'm rather afraid of turning into. You never know you have it in you untill youre drawn towards a point that you thought was a limit and taken past it and survive.

What is 'good' and 'bad' self worth.

Who am 'I'

why people act as they do

what the future holds

how wonderful friends can be

The alternates to public policy

At home winding down from the week or in the pub with my parents having a meal.

I wish I was a kitten sometimes and dream of having a cute goth girl I can play with who's mine.

I'm loyal to a fault even when I don't want to be.

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