Socionics : IEI-Ni
Global 5 : SCOAI
Enneagram : 8w9 sx/so
Have you ever been out somewhere and noticed other people's kids? They always catch you paying attention to them and get such big eyes when they look up and smile at you.
Adults seem entranced--so caught up in their own space that they don't notice everyone surrounding them. Kids exist in secret worlds, knee high along the bottom of shopping carts.
I wonder why I notice this and no one else does. I had that same feeling when my parents dragged me to church. Everyone would bow their heads to pray and I would look to see if anyone else looked up but no one ever did.
I feel like a ghost walking through life by myself like this--connected yet disconnected. I still look up in grocery stores and everywhere hoping to see someone else looking back.
One question asks if I have checklist traits that I look for in a potential partner. I do and hope to share some of them:
intellectually curious independent free thinker
compassionate and understanding
passionate and affectionate
sincere and able to communicate
loyal and dependable
I like talking with independent free thinkers. I am not religious but I don't really consider myself an atheist, either. I think both major political parties suck. When it comes to politics and the media, I question everything, follow the money, and trust no one.
My philosophy would be nihilistic Taoist. If you've seen The Matrix, it's just like that except that I don't know kung fu. I observe everything but I believe in nothing.
My view from within the premise of reality is a scientific one but I do subscribe to philosophical ideas. We create our world so it's important for us to make one we want to live in. There's no place in this world for hate or cruelty.
I don't have kids so that may be why I never really grew up. Some intellectuals seem almost offended by things like video games and graphic novels. Some people think adults should not even watch cartoons. I think these people need pies in faces.
Communication can be so incredibly important for me. I crave deep mutual understanding and intellectual intimacy. I try to be patient with getting to know someone new but I look forward to unlocking every door of every room.
I can be direct but see no reason to be rude. I have always intended to have tact while preserving sincerity and hope for the same from others. All that connectedness would be for naught if we couldn't establish trust.
Even though I am open-minded and accepting, I need a traditional relationship. I am ultimately looking for my permanent family. Is this really as unusual as it seems?
The truth would be that I do love sex. I am a passionate lover and crave affection. But for me, intimacy is never casual.
Did you really read all that? :)