I've been watching a lot of Humphrey Bogart film noir movies. He reminds me of my grandpa. I have strong men in my family and would like that in a partner. A take charge guy that is also gentle with me and respects my independence. And can see the strength in my gentle, compassionate demeanor. Gets me. my art and humor. and I get him in return. Someone that cares about being a good person and having a good heart and doing the right thing. not that they are perfect or have been in the past. but the basic bent of their life is good. Shirt off your back type. generous. social. has really good friends. Can cook. I ask a lot perhaps, but I offer a lot in return. I just want a someone that matches up to me and balances out the bits that need balance.
to quote some Jonathan Franzen:
I think, for one thing, that my love of birds became a portal to an important, less self-centered part of myself that I’d never even known existed. Instead of continuing to drift forward through my life as a global citizen, liking and disliking and withholding my commitment for some later date, I was forced to confront a self that I had to either straight-up accept or flat-out reject. ..Which is what love will do to a person. Because the fundamental fact about all of us is that we’re alive for a while but will die before long. This fact is the real root cause of all our anger and pain and despair. And you can either run from this fact or, by way of love, you can embrace it. ..When you stay in your room and rage or sneer or shrug your shoulders, as I did for many years, the world and its problems are impossibly daunting. But when you go out and put yourself in real relation to real people, or even just real animals, there’s a very real danger that you might love some of them.
And who knows what might happen to you then?
I get excited by a lot of things. Currently I am excited about fall, about hiking, getting out of the city into the nature. Traveling. archery. astronomy. quantum physics. seeing what comes out of me onto canvas.
A bit of bio: Moved back last summer from living 13 years in Chicago, 2 years in Berlin.
I am an INFJ (rare, 1% of population, maybe that's why i haven't met my match yet ;)). I have tested as an ENFP and INFP before, years ago. All fall under the Idealist which place big importance on meaning in life. The Myers Briggs classifications seem pretty right on. At least certain interpretations of them.
I can get into the heavy deep conversations but also have a fun side and think life is to be enjoyed.
Art is a really big deal. Really big. (also like to exaggerate to emphasize)
I've gotten into painting again after a year off and my apartment is filled with paintings (bedroom, living room, dining room). Some days I paint 2 or 3 pieces. My dad's whole side of the family are all artistic. My mom is not artistic but she knows a lot about my art ;) I would love to meet someone that appreciates that. I am doing sensory landscapes now and have branched out to portraits. My style flickers between abstraction and representation which ends up looking dreamlike.
Music is a really big deal. I would love to meet a music lover or self-proclaimed music nerd that can recommend shows. Is that you? ;) I feel lucky to be in Chicago because there is so much going on music-wise. I don't watch tv. I feel like a lot of tv is junk which is not to say that there isn't good tv out there. Its just that I can always think of something more worth while to do. Exceptions are doing marathons like Arrested Development. I read a lot. I love Astronomy magazine.