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My self-summary Propose an edit

I like myself. I like to spend time with smart, funny people who have open views on the world. I like to laugh. I have a definite dark side, which I don't easily share, but which is there for the right people. I am a traveller, both in this world and within myself. I think too much and I ask too many questions. My thinking is not linear. I live within a tiny vortex of chaos, mostly of my own making, because that's just me and that's where I am comfortable. I am usually a little sleep-deprived, so I sometimes get very tangential without realizing no one else is keeping up. I appreciate someone who can give me a nudge back on track. i also like eating chinese food with chopsticks, not a fork. its a mostly useless skill, but i find it fun. =}

i am also sometimes called "duckie" or "the gnome queen".

feel free to check my myspace profile (http://www.myspace.com/shadowed_dream) if you have a burning desire to see more about the music i like, since that's primarily all that is there. I'm always open to an email here if you'd like to talk - I don't bite (much) and I don't mind talking to new people.

btw - if you've stalked me more than once, and you serial stalkers know who you are, just be brave and leave a message... =)

What I'm doing with my life Propose an edit

I recently moved back to Florida, in the Tampa area. I lived here several years ago for a time, and it was nice being back amidst family. We'll see how it goes this time - the grandparents and parents are older, a little more infirm, so its a whole new ballgame living near them this time around.

Not sure yet what I am going to do with myself while I am here - the thought of going back to school for a time has crossed my mind. It never hurts to add a little more education under one's belt, especially with the job situation being what it is. If I do go back to school, I'll be going for something with computers - exactly what, I'm not sure yet, but most likely something involving graphics or web design.

Writing is still my main passion and where most of my artistic talents are focused. All this tropic heat and indolent afternoons spend drinking on the veranda might inspire my inner Hemingway and give me the push to turn all those short stories and snippets languishing on my hard drive into something worth submitting to a publisher.

One never knows, and I kind of like it that way.

I'm really good at Propose an edit

Writing. Dark things, squirmy-not-so-comfortable things. Exploring the dark corners of the soul. Giving shape to those nameless desires we all hide from the light.

The first thing(s) people usually notice about me Propose an edit

My eyes. My hair.

My favorite books, movies, music, and food Propose an edit

I love to read - pretty much whatever I can get my hands on. Favored authors include Anne Rice, Tolkien, Poppy Z. Brite, and Jeff Long. I highly recommend his book "The Descent". I grew up on "Wuthering Heights", "The Count of Monte Cristo", and just about every classic I crossed paths with has had a lasting impact on me. Words fascinate me, and are a true passion.

I adore bad horror films. ~s~ I also like good horror films, martial arts films, and some foreign films (Cinema Paradiso, The Stormriders, Cold Comfort Farm...yummy!). Things that can set my imagination loose and take me to another place for the span of the movie. Another secret movie/TV vice...i adore the Jackass movies, Viva la Bam, and all the old CKY stuff. I even watch Wildboyz..~L~

Music changes for me from one mood to the next. My CDs range from HIM to Audioslave to Eminem to Rammestein to the Ramones to Smokey Robinson. No way to pin it down to any one type. Current music obsession: Suomi rock. Current favorite song: "I'm Not Jesus", Apocalyptica ft. Cory Taylor. And for anyone out in the San Fran area, check out Absinthe Boy if you get the chance - they are definitely worth the listen!

Greek food does it for me, along with mexican and chinese. If I had to pick my top 3 favorite foods, it would have to be mongolian beef, stuffed grape leaves (no meat!), and chocolate raspberry truffles.

The six things I could never do without Propose an edit

In no particular order...

1. My computer. My life is on this thing, stored in its memory.

2. My family. Everyone needs a touchstone in their life, and they are mine. Except for those times when they are making me crazed and i avoid them like the plague ~L~

3. Cherry Ice lipstick. Superficial, I know - but nothing gives an ego boost on a rough day in quite the same way.

4. Music. If you don't know why, an explanation won't help.

5. Books. See #4.

6. Humor.

I spend a lot of time thinking about Propose an edit

...the way the world is changing. How people relate to each other. All the violence and destruction that is becoming commonplace all around us.

...the paths I've chosen in life. The amazing places I've been and things I've seen. How much fortune has smiled upon me. Wishing I could give some of this joy to others.

...gathering the courage to open myself to another relationship. about whether the chance of happiness is worth the chance of pain.

...the merits of zombies vs. vampires.

...eyeliner boys, tattoos, ice palaces.

On a typical Friday night I am Propose an edit

...probably home indulging my addiction to the 'net. going out hasn't been as much fun since my favorite bar closed for smoke damage after a fire in the building adjacent to it.

The most private thing I'm willing to admit here Propose an edit

...okay, i lied about still believing in love. or maybe not so much lied as changed my mind. love exists, but its bloody hard to find, harder still to keep and nurture, and almost impossible not to end up hurting over. that said, i'm willing to risk it. maybe.

You should message me if Propose an edit

...you are looking to talk to a real person, take the time to get to know me and let me get to know you

...you can string together a coherent sentence, punctuation optional

...you have an overwhelming urge to sweep me off my feet and install me cozily in a tiny loft apartment with a garden where i can write all day and spend evenings with you in dark little bars drinking icy vodka and arguing the finer points of pon and zi

...you are able to grill blindfolded, naked and in the middle of a tornado

...you are planning to add me to your friends list. there is just something just a little creepy about being friended by someone who has never even said hello

...you're still here, reading at the very bottom of the profile page and haven't died of boredom yet =)

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