I'm still figuring out what i want to say about myself on here. I've kinda overwhelmed it with content and haven't taken the time yet to be more concise. TOO MUCH INFORMATION, OH NOES. A couple things to mention right off the bat -- I'm planning to move away from Boston at some point long term-future-ish (to wherever my herbal studies take me next. I'm looking at Tuscon). I'm fairly certain I don't want kids. My life is super busy lately, so I don't anticipate emailing people back much these days. Anyway, moving on...
I am made of contradiction in a world where most people see things more as either/or rather than both/and. I delight in balance and seeming paradox. A complicated and intense woman, and on the adverse very laid back, totally ridiculous, and super weird. An elegantly-refined redneck. An extroverted introvert. Hot geek. Real life cartoon. Big cat. Fierce and kind. Earthy and fiery. Soft'n'cuddly and tough as nails. Nimble and efficient, yet accident-prone (i’m always bumping into walls and stuff). Sensual and silly. Alchemical elf. I realize not all of those pairings are patently paradoxical.
A country gal at heart (i'm from the Appalachians, central PA), I like being in the sun, getting dirty, and being in my body. The intimacy I have with nature is incredibly important to me. I value authenticity above most things, and place physical, energetic, and spiritual connection to the living natural world on the same shelf of importance. There have been more than a few times that my relationships to plants, animals, and places outdoors have taught me, helped me heal, and changed me in profound ways. My friends are amazing and gorgeous and constantly inspire me and make my world more incredible. I love them fiercely. Genuine and honest connection and intimacy are extremely important to me, no matter the level of involvement of a relationship, from friends to lovers to committed partners. I can be both wonderful and challenging as a partner, as I desire (and in the case of partnerships, expect) people to be real and honest about themselves -- with themselves, firstly.
In me rests a passion for the healing arts and a penchant for looking straight into the heart of things. Pain and hardship can be wonderful teachers, as I see it, if one learns to open themselves to the experience. I’m naturally nurturing, though the adverse of that trait is that it has, in the past, often been to the detriment of my own self-care. My heart and my darkness are on my sleeve. I am very open about my shadow traits and shortcomings, as well as my joys and desires. These sorts of conversations with others are among some of my favorite kinds to have, as I am infinitely curious about how others see themselves and the world. Intimacy does not deepen without being able to plumb the darkness. Totally the queen of TMI, especially when it comes to sex and gross medical stuff. It is unfortunate in my eyes that so many important and intimate subjects are so taboo. I find the many ways in which humans can relate to be utterly fascinating -- the things we can learn by opening ourselves to others are endless. I tend not to favor being in straight monogamous relationships for this reason (among others), though I don't identify as strictly poly as my needs and boundaries are fluid according to how my relationship with myself and to a particular partner may resonate at any given time.
Beauty is all around us and I see it everywhere, and I love sharing that and inspiring others in that way. I have a great fondness for old-timey, ornate, elegant, yet not terribly over-stated aesthetics. I love to try new things and push the limits and boundaries of my perceptions and abilities. I love to play and to get creative with and expound upon what I already have learned (like making things and making medicine and talking to plants and making friends and sex and dance and myriads of new activities).
Possessed of orchid fever. Long-winded in writing.
I laugh at fart sounds.