**Update**
so yeah i'm not really looking for a relationship right now as to i'm planning on moving to vermont next april,i'm just getting out of 3 year relationship and starting over again...for the last time i hope. i'm a little down right now,so new friends would be great.
xoxo,
Brandy

Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful. It's the transition that's troublesome.
~Isaac Asimov (1920 - 1992)

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I'm Brandy.

I'm not here to be your lap dog, your whore, your interest. I don't pretend to be perfect and I don't pretend to be special. I can be a wreck sometimes and a borderline hypochondriac and I've done things to myself which I can't undo and in that process I've lost some people I care about, but all of those things make me who I am. I can't change now and even if I could I don't think I'd want too.

I am happy with myself and my past I have come to terms with and I won't be pitted against my self for anyone's pleasure. I can be skittish at times and timid when it comes to certain things, but I have a mind and opinions and I have reasons for being the way I am. If you care maybe one day you'll find out.

I'm hate being toyed with, of being hurt, and so if you do it to me don't expect me to stick around. As sweet and nice as I can be I can be cold- no, not a bitch, just cold, icy. It's my protection and I will wield it to it's full extent if I'm attacked.

My friends I would do anything for- a few of you know that. I'll sit up with you at all hours talking, consoling, being a friend.

I don't trust easily, though I might give off that guise. I don't show emotion easily if it is anything other than excitement or happiness. And I don't share with people my feelings on a whim. I'm vulnerable to what people say no matter what anyone likes to think.

I have a guilt complex and it sometimes affects things I do, but you know what, it's gotten better over the years- a lot better. It's just something that continues to exist in me.

I love sad songs and I love romance- so much so that at times the two intermingle and I don't know where one stops and the other begins. I lose myself in things I can't have and naively am blind to those that exist in front of me. I'm tired of giving my heart to people, but I'm not bitter.

I don't seek your acceptance or your trust and I don't expect you to understand me, because honestly I don't always understand myself. I don't understand but I seek to discover, and if you ask the right questions I can tell you almost anything. I won't change for you and I won't let you change for me. I value who you are and I accept everything you have to offer, but I won't follow blindly.

And some random things about me:

* I am probably one of the most modest people you know. I'm shy to a fault at times, I can accept compliments graciously, but I'll probably think you need your eyes checked or something of the sort.

* Most of my friends are "normal" so the speak, so don't let my appearance put you off. ^^ I'm actually pretty down to earth. ^^

* Boys in makeup, specifically eyeliner, make my knees weak. As do males in uniform. Girls in uniform are pretty sexy too actually.

* I'm a sucker for eyes...and smiles.ow! and guys with long hair

* Oh I do smile. Apparently I don't smile in photos, as I've been told, but I definitely smile all the time. =^.^=

* I am apparently the same in person as I am if you talk to me online. I've been told I am and told I'm not. The 'ares' seem to outweigh the "are nots" however I think that has to do with the purpose someone is meeting me. Come to think of it those who have met me on the friend basis find me the same. Those who haven't have found me a tad different.

* I'm a music snob. Contrary to someone's particular belief, I won't force my music upon you. I might beg you to listen to a song or something but if you absolutely don't want it, it doesn't happen.

* I am loyal to a fault sometimes. I've been described as a "puppy dog." I think it was perhaps an insult, but oh well.

* And don't think insulting me will work. I know I'm not a vision of typical and accepted beauty, I know I'm not perfect, and I know there will always be someone prettier or more graceful than me. So please don't try to ruffle my feathers. It doesn't work.

* I will not cyber, roleplay sexually, or anything of the sort with anyone.. You will be blocked.

*I call people "lovely" and "Sweety" if I think they are. Do not mistake it for me hitting on you.

* I am a roleplayer- have been for nine plus years (text based). I do forum based, though I have tried my hand at pen and paper rpgs.

* I love my stepson as if he were my own

* I jump in puddles and twirl in circles in the rain.

* If I tell you something doesn't matter when you ask my opinion, usually dealing with something to do, I honestly don't have an opinion. There's no hidden message there or anything of the sort. I just don't particularly have a preference.

* I'm a romantic in the wrong century

* I love to cuddle and kiss. Insanely so.

* I'm a very friendly person and I love meeting new people

* I think too much like a girl.

* I love to travel.

* I hate liars and I will not put up with you if you are one. I've had my share of them and I'm over it.

* Religions of all kinds are beautiful but don't try to toss your beliefs at me.

* I ADORE getting all dressed up.

* I BELIEVE in magic, unicorns, and faeries

* I like to bite and be bitten.

I'm really good at Listening. And talking. I'm an amazing talker. You have no idea. My mom used to pay me to shut up when I was little. ^^

And apparently I'm really good at being a friend. And I'm great at being silly and random...and apparently I give good hugs.

And I'm good at cuddling.

And making those faces that I put into action brackets...like..¬shifty eyes¬ and ¬scrunches nose¬...the only one I can't do is ¬arches eyebrow¬ Both my eyebrows seem to go up but oh well xD

I'm also good at dancing around my room with a hairbrush singing....it's fun and I've perfected it...

I'm good at making funny faces apparently...One day my face will freeze that way, but until than...xD

Brandy James

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i graduated high school at 17 went to college at Universtiy of South Florida ,and majored in Art history and anthropology....I'm currently in customer service..

My Eyes

(A)Poppy Z.Brite ~ Anne Rice ~ Laurell K.Hamilton (B)a clockwork orange ~horror movies ~lost boys ~The Monty Python movies ~ Donnie Darko~The 5th Element ~ The Dark Crystal ~ The Gods Must Be Crazy 1&2 ~ SpaceBalls ~ The Star Wars Series ~ TrainSpotting ~ Snatch (C)7 year bitch, babes in toyland, blackmetal, classical music, danzig,david bowie, genitortureres, glam, gothic, jack off jill, mesh, metal, ministry, nine inch nails, placebo, punk, rasputina, rockabilly, siouxse and the banshees, skinny puppy, switchblade symphony,the cure, the pretenders, tiger Army,tool,wolfsheim,

1)Music 2)Hawiian Pizza 3)Books 4)family 5)friends 6)art

if i'm where, i'm ready surrpose to be.... love , life, sex...

either I try to go out or i'm working...i play RPG's

I am a hopless romantic

if your open mindedlove art & music, looking for someone you can relate to....