I am but a work-in-progress. I believe everyone and everything contains its own contradictions. Along these lines, my ingredients include gravity and levity, strength and frailty, responsibility and reckless abandon, grace and awkwardness, being analytical yet sentimental, sociable yet in need of solitary time, polished yet rough around the edges, and wild yet tameable. I seek depth without taking myself too seriously. I embody these seeming opposites; always gravitating somewhere between two extremes based on what the situation at hand calls for. But if it's true that all the world's a stage, and all the men and women merely players, I can play most any part for awhile, but I'm not a 'playa'. The real me cannot hide. The soul must speak.
I am a bit of a wanderlust; a daydreamer with one foot firmly rooted in the now. I am content to live a rather modest lifestyle in an upscaled consumerist world. I have my pop culture fixations, but generally narrow pursuits are not for me. I certainly don’t keep up with the Kardashians. I rejoice in the presence of people who are comfortable being open with their feelings, who can give and receive freely, and ultimately, people who are capable of accepting and loving unconditionally.
What makes my heart sing? Hiking beneath a lush canopy of redwoods, a 40mph-plus downhill rush on my bike, a mind-bending novel, playing my djembe, dancing like noone is watching, and discovering new ways to create.
Unfortunately, I'm currently facing some life challenges due to chronic pain in the balls of my feet, so dancing and cycling are on hold for now. My mobility is now limited and I am partially confined to a wheelchair. I'm undergoing physical therapy, and seeking alternative therapies for my metatarsalgia symptoms (google it if you are curious). Nonetheless, I manage to find fulfillment in other ways, such as journaling, meditating, toying with (admittedly fragmentary) writing projects, snuggling with my two affection-whore cats, and networking online with others who suffer from chronic pain. I find their courage and strength in the face of adversity to be inspiring, and their suffering routinely evokes wellsprings of compassion within me.
**My dogs and kids disclaimer.** I love kids, but I seem to relate to them better the older they are. (Kids are drawn to me because I'm different). I love animals, but Have an aversion to dogs who bark incessantly or insist on giving me tongue baths.