I try to avoid being labeled and labelling others; Life is too fluid to expect gallivanting in only one particular way. In the same vein, self concepts are rarely comprehensive or inclusive of all possibile experiences. If I define my identity, I define my limits. Limits suck, therefore I do not define myself. My sense of self is expansive and mood-dependent. The only labels I would feel comfortable attributing to myself are human and philosopher. For more dubious appellations, I identify as an INFJ and a 4w5.
I was the youngest child out of four. My father was a Traditionalist Catholic and my mother a quasi-New Age liberal. The only glue that held them together was the fear of their own incompetence. They were entirely different people, excepting a heavy dose of defiance and a dedication to charity. Violence, both physical and emotional, was a mainstay between every pairing, no matter the age difference. My family was poor, but educated. Most of my earliest memories are of my father taking me to his classes at KU, then going to the Crossing for a beer and to perve on coeds. My branch of the family tree never got along with the other branches, or society in general really. It was a Bohemian and frictive environment for a conscientious and sensitive child to be born into. It framed the majority of my life thus far as an outsider with an inferiority complex. This wasn't helped by external circumstances. I was the new poor kid at the parochial school I was transferred to by my parents. I was the new white kid when we moved to inner city KCK. I was perceived as a constant aberration. Then I was "homeschooled." Which is code for "left entirely alone for four years, except for food, shelter, and a computer." I used this time to indulge in every kind of pirated media, debate, and video games. I had zero real interaction with other human beings as I fell into an entirely nocturnal life. I was told I was an adult at fourteen and had to schedule my own doctor's appointments, my GED examination at seventeen, and ACT at eighteen. I went to college and discovered that I had entered an entirely different life stream than my peers and elders. The rest of my life has been a project to build a bridge between the two.
This isn't coming from a place of bitterness or regret. It's coming from a place of being understood. I am eccentric in ways that many people have no frame of reference to understand. I like who I am and where I am in life, but for people to understand where I'm going with it, I need to be up front with my history. This is really only the tip of the iceberg, but I think it's enough to give an idea of it. If you're interested in more details, feel free to drop me a line.
Currently riding around the country on a bicycle, witnessing America in all its gritty lenses.