[last update 12jan2010]

i got married to my boyfriend of 17 years on 17jul2008.

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if you really want to know what i'm like, browse my livejournal: http://stoneself.livejournal.com.

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mostly i'm here to fiddle with the matching algorithms and the quizzes. meeting friends to have fun with is good. i'm busy in fits and bursts.

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i did aids/lifecycle5 - 585 miles from sf to la. we raised $8 million for AIDS services. i also did alc2. i was a roadie fro alc6 - roadies support the riders. it's easier being a rider. i'm riding for alc7.

i'm training for a triathlon.

i'm a training ride leader for ALC7.

i'm only a little crazier than you.

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i'm interested in people, and i want to make the world a better place.

i love exploring and trying new things, but i'm comfortable spending a night a t home. by new things i mean just about anything i haven't seen or done yet.

i'm in an open/poly relationship.

my interests list from my livejournal account:

aids lifecycle, alc, animal, anime, art, art films, back roads, baduk, bdsm, beaches, berkeley, biking, board games, books, brandy, brettspielwelt, broadway, buddhism, card games, cards, cats, charities, charity, cirque du soliel, clinical therapy, cog sci, collecting, comics, communication, computer games, cosmology, crafting, creative writing, divination, enlightenment, environmentalism, equality, exploring, fabric architecture, fantasy, foreign films, forests, fountain pens, galleries, gambling, game design, games, gardening, gay, gnosticism, go, graphic novels, gym, harmony, healing, heart, helping people, home improvement, homosexuality, hope, icehouse, justice, kaleidoscopes, key chains, kindness, kink, lakes, languages, libraries, literature, love, magic, math, memes, men, mind, modern art, mountains, museums, music, musicals, mysticism, mythology, nature, new things, new york, nomic, ocean, outdoors, peace, pens, people watching, philosophy, photography, physics, poetry, politics, polyamory, power tools, psychology, quantum mechanics, queer, rain, religion, romance, sailing, san francisco, science fiction, second life, secondlife, sex, sociology, soul, spirit, spirituality, stitch, stories, streams, surfing, swimming, taoism, tarot, taz, teaching, tensile architecture, the examined life, therapy, thunderstorms, tikkun olam, trains, travel, , tutoring, uc berkeley, video games, volunteering, weight loss, weight training, wind surfing, winter, wisdom, wishes, wonder, writing, zen

I am inquisitive, curious, and eccentric

i am teaching/tutoring K-12 students after school.

i contract doing qa work. i'm looking for a permanent qa position. i'm really damn good - hire me!

i'm going to go to grad school for a Psychology Doctorate (PsyD). i want to be a therapist. i recently went back to UC Berkeley and graduated with degrees in Psychology and Cognitive Science.

if it's sunday, i'm leading a training for ALC7. if it's saturday, i'm riding my bike training for ALC7.

i'm training for a triathlon.

i'm only a little crazier than you.

listening.

complete strangers will tell my their life story and deep dark secrets in 10 minutes.

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teaching.

i love to teach kids. i love to volunteer. i enjoy being training ride leader (trl) for AIDS/LifeCycle. trls do more than ride with trainees - they give people cycling advice, they give advice about how to fundraise, and they give advice about life on the ride from sf to la.

not much. i like being invisible. i like watching people. i prefer to notice, rather than be noticed.

i'm open, honest, and frank. people tell me the most amazing things even at our first meeting.

1. books that explore growth and/or the nature of reality
2. movies that are visually interesting and/or like the books in 1
3. music that ranges from enya to nin to bach to mozart to madonna to seal to black-eyed peas to lorenna mckennit
4. spicy food and anything new

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"Deportment is a sterile discipline. Habit built on superstition."
"Criticize it if you please. You are still no good at it."
"There’s nothing to be good at. It’s just an arbitrary set of standards. Why should I waste time learning to point my toes in a way that went out of fashion three hundred years ago? Why shouldn’t I set my own fashions?"
"You must form your own fashions in a way which demonstrates that you flout the standards from knowledge, not ignorance," replied Dame Brachet. "When you leave Greenlaw College, you may or may not be able to practice magic. That is a matter of talent and skill. But you will certainly be a witch of Greenlaw, and that station in the world carries expectations with it. You will be expected to speak with those of high degree and to speak fair to high and low. Your manner will be as vital as your matter, and, in some sad cases, your matter will not amount to much. So you had better learn a manner to make up for your other shortcomings."
From the first words, Faris followed this speech with eyes narrowed. "But I may flout the standards?"
"Of course," said Dame Brachet, with some asperity. "What do you think standards are for? Now drop your elbows and tuck your chin. Very good, Faris. Now point your toe."
From that day, Faris’s hands shook no more.

from A College of Magics by Caroline Stevermer

"The meaning never changes, my dear," she said gently, smoothing her full skirt with one hand like she always did, "but which meaning we recognize flickers like sunlight on the face of a pond. It never repeats itself."

from Kindred Rites by Katherine Eliska Kimbriel

"Yes, we are a silly lot." Shuboz said kind-heartedly. "But when you learn the things a wizard knows, you, too, will come to view the world with some amusement and a sense of humor. Otherwise, that knowledge would simply crush your spirit."

from Enchanter by Robin W. Bailey

1. things that keep my body alive
2. 
   
3. people
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5. growth

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I am not interested in happiness for all humanity,
but happiness for each of us.
- Boris Vian

My wish is that you be loved madly.
- Andre' Breton

Quidam,
a nameless passerby,
a solitary figure lingering on a street corner,
a person rushing past,
a person who lives lost amidst the crowd in an all-too-anonymous society.
- Quidam Official Program

When you hold a child's hand,
point to the sky and say,
"Look at the airplane up there, where do you think it's going?"
and he replies,
as though to an idiot,
"To the airport, of course!",
whose fault is it?
- Quidam Official Program

I would have wanted to give voice to the nameless who carry their silences like so many stones in their hearts.
- Quidam Official Program

I would have loved to scratch the slick surfaces of our good intentions with a coarse voice.
- Quidam Official Program

religion, philosophy, mysticism, psychology, the mind, growth, mental health, knowledge, wisdom, life, teaching, cognitive structures, practical psychology, practical cognitive science, politics, -isms, people, how people interact

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a hymn to all things

form is emptiness, and emptiness is form.
whatever is form, that is emptiness.
whatever is emptiness, that is form.
feeling is emptiness and form.
perception is emptiness and form.
impulse is emptiness and form.
consciousness is emptiness and form.

the way things are is formless.
it is neither created nor destroyed.
it is neither profane nor sacred.
it is neither perfect nor imperfect.

thus in emptiness there is no form.
there is neither emotion, sensation, nor will.
there is no objective reality.
there is no subjective reality.
there is no mind.
there is no soul.
there is no spirit.
there is no awakening.
there is no delusion.

to accept this one must accept that things are as they are.

neither words nor teaching will lead to this acceptance.

one beginning among many can be found here:
gone, gone, gone beyond, gone completely beyond, all things are!

working on some project.

projects range from cleaning to organizing to tweaking my bike to programming to writing to making a dreamcatcher to reading for a project to looking for a book at the bookstore to designing a game to making a graphic to training for alc5 to ranking up in some game to programming to writing to watching tv to playing 9ball to something new

ask me a question, and i'll almost always answer.

if you want to:

1. hang out (please be reasonably close to pacifica, ca)
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3. train together for aids lifecycle 10 (aidsride from sf to la) june 2011
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5. train together for a triathlon (total beginner here)
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7. train for a marathon (still a beginner)
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9. play board games
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11. ride 35-45 miles
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13. especially play go
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15. teach me how to surf
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17. teach me how to wind surf