Oh man, it's been a hard week. Not hard like physically tolling, but emotionally, this week has been hell. On Saturday, my oldest dog got terribly sick and had to be put to sleep. That was heart rending in and of itself because she was with my family for 13 years. Her birthday is coming up on May 1st. And I just found out today that my best friend's dog passed on Tuesday. He had to be put to sleep after also getting incredibly sick. It made me feel sick to my stomach. Her dog was like my own. I was there when they adopted him. And I was there throughout his illness.

I don't even know where I was going with this post. I just wanted to say something on here. I guess I just hope someone on here can identify with my grief and know enough not to mock it.

Finally, it's happened. I've only been working at my job for about three weeks now, but I've had to put so much into it, what with so many 8 hour days in a row, that my body couldn't take it. Today, I managed to last a remarkable 5 hours before I had to dash to the bathroom. My legs were trembling and I was so cold. I was dizzy even after I had eaten my lunch and, even, after all that, I got nauseas enough that I thought I would be sick.

I'm debating whether or not going to work tomorrow is a good idea. I think I need a day off where I just rest and don't have to rush around to everyone.

My friend and I were at the mall today and while we were walking, we passed a group of guys. One of the guys on the far side of the clump actually leaned across his friend and patted my friend twice on the shoulder. Both of us are completely confused. Do you think this had anything to do with the see-through shirt she was wearing? Or was is just a random act of violence?

I am utterly at a loss. Help.

It's really quite strange. I've been living in the dorms of my college for a little over a week now, and I haven't really made many friends. There are some girls I talk to, but don't get very close to them. It feels like there's a barrier between me and the other girls.

But today, my friend Treesa came to visit from my hometown. She's gonna stay for the weekend, and already I'm happier. I'm more outgoing, chattier, and actually hungry. I'm comfortable with her and I know that's part of it.

I am so happy that I finally have someone to talk to!