On a search for greater meaning of myself, in myself. Defining my life through thoughts, words and pictures- i tend to write in order to clarify in writing what my mind can't seem to clarify on its own.

I crave intelligence. Contemplation, expansion, discussion-- I live to push thoughts to limits and ideas to their full potential. I thrive on ambition. I loathe apathy. There is passion in everything I do.

Inspire me, captivate me, intrigue me.

It seems I should go ahead and note here that I am, in fact, married. If you asked me ten years ago to describe the man of my dreams, it would not have been my husband. But we are matched on such an amazing level of compatability that we are so happy together. Someone very smart once told me "love happens when you stop looking for it." I truly believe it.

I'm a bit of a geek. I guess more than a bit, as I love computers and computer games, and movies and sci-fi. I took the 'Geek Test' and scored 56%. Yes, I am that girl who has seen every episode of the Xfiles twice and went to see Serenity in the theater in costume. I'm into obscure movies, and ancient history. I tried to learn to speak Sumerian just to use it in a story. My husband laughs at me because he'll come downstairs to see me positively riveted to the television, watching a documentary on tidal waves or the migration of great white sharks.

I was that girl in high school. Pretty, yes. But my, was she strange.

I talk a lot. And usually in circles. People have mentioned that asking me a question usually results in a longer answer than required. I'm glad that my friends have learned to accept this as quirky.

I am low maintenance. I am not jealous. I believe that jealousy is a waste of time and kills relationships. I trust easily. I love deeply. I miss my friends. I don't have as much money as I would like, but I'm working on it. So. That's me.

I'm studying for degrees that seem to elude me. I am the merchandise manager for a big name furniture company, which really involves doing a lot of shopping. I mean, I get paid to shop, which is pretty cool. Ithere's a lot of technical analysis that goes into it, but who cares. I'm madly in love with the man of my dreams and I have two cats with fuzzy bellies that beg to be kissed. I also am hopelessly addicted to World of Warcraft.

singing, dancing, thinking, talking, selling, smoking, drinking, reading, writing, dreaming, expanding, transforming, sleeping, painting, decorating, shopping, collecting and spending too much time on the computer.

My hair. I have a lot of it. Its actually to my hips at this point. Blonde and slightly wavy at the ends. It gets caught in drains and car doors, but people notice it.

It amuses me when people come up to me and inform me, "Hey, you have long hair." As if I never realized it until they pointed it out to me.

a.) Dark Rivers of the Heart by Dean Koontz, The Fionavar Tapestry trilogy by Guy Gavriel Kay, Fight Club by Chuck Pahlaniuk, The Vampire Diaries by LJ Smith, Lost Souls by Poppy Z. Brite, The Lost World by Michael Crichton, and Harry Potter. hee.

b.) Firefly, Serenity, Brotherhood of the Wolf, Lord of the Rings, Nochnoi Dozor, Resident Evil, Xfiles, Fight Club, Requiem For A Dream, Donnie Darko, 12 Monkeys, Butterfly Effect, Dawn of the Dead, Final Destination 2, Evil Dead, Hellraiser, The Salton Seas, Pitch Black, Chronicles of Riddick

c.) Tool, Skinny Puppy, kidneythieves, wumpscut, NiN, mogwai, the cure, switchblade symphony, sarah mclachlan, tori amos, k's choice, frank sinatra, paul anka

d.) sushi, bloody steak, lobster, steamer clams, ben and jerry's mint chocolate cookie, ritz sour cream and onion chips, lobster ravioli with vodka sauce and sundried tomatoes.

cigarettes. bourbon. a notebook. A pen. conversation. music.

2012. Writer's block. The future. Random things.

Out at dinner, either sushi or steak, and going to see a movie either before or afterwards.

I'll admit to anything, but there's far to much to say in one little paragraph.

Anyone can message me. That's why I did this. I'm looking to find more intelligent people to talk to. Just understand that I am looking for new friends, not to ruin my brand new marriage. I just want to be clear.