I haven't had much luck putting my best foot forward and friend once told me dating isn't about what you want in someone, it's about what you don't want and what can and cannot tolerate, so, I will put everything on the table now, and if you're still interested after reading, message me. This is the brutal honest truth about me.
I have Bipolar II disorder, which leaves me prone to mood swings and severe depression, I am on medication for it and in regular treatment for it, so it is not as severe as it used to be but, it is something I have to deal with and you will as well should we get together long term. I just have to take life and days day by day.
I like having my man in my life daily and constantly. If we aren't hanging out, I like to be texting or talking on the phone in person as often as time allows. It's what I like and am used to in relationships.
I have trust issues thanks to fake friends as a kid, an abandoned parent, and many guys I've dated, or almost dated lying to me and doing things behind my back. So yes, I have trust issues and fully admit to this. I apologize in advance but it is who I am, I hope to meet someone that doesn't cause this to become an issue, but know, it is an issue in general.
Because of said trust issues, I can be clingy and needy and feel rejected and pushed away easily, and constantly worry about this happening, possibly a result in part of my disorder, I am working on this as well, attached to this is that I am TERRIBLE with boundaries unless they are very clearly defined for me.
I am a very emotional and passionate person and feel very deeply, again, maybe as a by product of my disorder, some call me dramatic but I try to keep to a very bare minimum and usually, if people don't start drama with me, there will not be any drama. Most of my drama is self contained.
If any or all of this is unappealing to you, thank you for coming and have a wonderful day and good luck on your search.
Now for the rest about me.
I am an undergraduate at UCLA with a major in Art History. I should be graduating in June 2015 and then I will be returning to San Diego while I figure out what I am going to be doing next.
I am someone that many people would call "fancy pants" "boring" "pretentious" and would probably say "has a stick up his ass" etc... I am not prone to crazy drunken antics, wild parties, dancing on bars. I have no judgement about those things and they don't bother me when done, however, they are not things I have find enjoyable. Champagne and wine over beer and hard liquor, I'm gluten intolerant so beer and most liquor are out for me anyway.
I am a student and an intellectual. If you are someone that is intimidated by people with intellectual pursuits, and would view me as "weird" because I enjoy reading about Dutch Art and Ancient Greek Lyric Poetry (just a few of my many varied interests), we will not be anything close to a match. I want a guy that I can feel normal with and make me feel normal while still pursuing these interests. I do have plans to begin pursuing a PhD in Art History following completion of my undergrad. Possibly one in Ancient Studies after Art History.
That being said, I do have times where I enjoy non-intellectual activities as well, the Real Housewives series is huge guilty pleasure of mine, I'm a loyal viewer to OC, NJ, NYC, and BH. I also enjoy a lot of the nighttime dramas such as Game of Thrones, The Good Wife, Revenge, American Horror Story, Criminal Minds, Bones, and CSI.
I love to go shopping, it is probably my favorite method of relaxation, other than listening to music or watching TV. I enjoy just browsing and trying on clothes frequently. Express, A&F, J Crew, and Banana Republic are my favorite stores.
I may not be a 10 physically, but I make up for that in many other areas, that I hope the right guy will be happy with in the long run. That being said, I am working to improve myself physically.
I am a hopeless romantic. Chivalry is not dead to me and a lot of little things count to me. A "good morning" text from the right guy will make my day.
If you've made it this far and you're still interested, please say hello and message me.