For me, life is about connecting. Connecting with people, connecting the lap top to the printer…except the latest printer is wireless. I work at practicing openness and like that in others. I see a difference between needy and vulnerability. Needy gets self absorbed, vulnerable is more about self exposure, visibility. I think a lot of people stay hidden-even from themselves.
Our culture often promotes and substitutes image over substance. It seems a good idea to be aware of what we are doing for the affirmation we all want (need?). To me, if one is off center, that seems more real in a largely scripted culture, but I guess that can become a script too. I doubt we can nail down identity, it seems fluid, but we do seem to have points of reference that are less mobil.
For me, balance seems central to healthy living. I'm tall and have little feet, so I fall over when doing tricky stuff. I practice/have practiced things like martial arts and yoga, where balance figures in... and I still fall over. 'That's life.' We continue to look for balance, but get lots of practice getting back up when we tumble. Finding balance in relationship seems an intentional practice between two people and love keeps the practice going? A lot of time in relationship seems to involve getting back up. Turns out, grace is important.
I believe that love is the most important thing we do in life. I know. That can sound fluffy and weird. I am a little weird, but I am not fluffy. To me, love starts with an attitude of kindness, then extends as a practice of listening and hearing, looking and seeing then affirming the value of who we see and hear. It's a worthwhile endeavor to me. I mostly fail, especially when I measure life from moment to moment. I know I don't have love all figured out. I think it would be keen to be 'in' love (deliriously). Meanwhile, love does have a practical side.
I am attracted to sweet people. I can't think of another word to describe what I mean. I'm not talking about syrup. "Sweet" is an attitude that seems to accompany those who have found a way to keep a positive perspective on life. Reality is the glass is both half full and half empty. I think 'it' doesn't have to do with the glass or contents, but the approach. I dunno. I like sweet people.
I want there to be such a thing as magic (but am kind of suspicious that there isn't and that what appears magical usually has a perfectly reasonable explanation). I've been labeled a closet Buddhist by more than one. Many major things that I have visualized in my life have materialized. I often 'pray/meditate' and stuff seems to happen when I do, consistently enough for me to keep 'praying/meditating'. Coincidence? I don't know. To what or whom do I pray? I have no clue... just to what or who ever may be (or not be) out there. Maybe strangely, acknowledging seems more important than having a name for what I acknowledge. I often find myself feeling grateful and end up expressing my gratitude to the ether. This may be nutty and should go under "the most private thing I'm willing to admit."
For those who are interested, I've taken a few tests that assess your personality. I'm EINTFP on Meyers Briggs (I know, two extra letters, but am level on EI and TF). I question authority of all types, including my own. I hate to see anyone hurting, even if they've been a jerk (heck, we are all potential jerks given the 'right' circumstances). Jerkdom is often a momentary choice, it doesn't have to be a permanent condition.
I think I may qualify as a nerd.