Let me explain. No, there is too much. Let me sum up.

"Never resist a sentence you like, in which language takes its own pleasure and in which, after having abused it for so long, you are stupefied by its innocence. "

I am a proud dice-rolling Browncoat that knows Han shot first, an earth goddess and an organic intellectual.

I am in a wonderful open relationship with my primary Capt_Yossarian. I am pansexual, queer, and find brains more important than what's between the legs, if you catch my drift.

Geek - I am a table-top rpg writer, player and designer. This is my hobby, part-career, and favoured activity amongst friends. To sit down with a group of people you love, explore worlds they've created, laugh often, be scared when appropriate, and be able to become someone else, however briefly, is a joy. The expression of creativity taken to run a decent game is something I admire. I have no small love for creating worlds.

Nerd - Literary theory, political theory, gender and sexuality, philosophy, literature, and true crime are some topics I devote my reading time to. I do not study at an institution (anymore) but do take it upon myself to explore these realms of knowledge because I love them. Any person that can knowledgeably speak of these topics (or others they are fluent in) will automatically make me swoon.

Protester - I realize in the modern world, other than to other Political Activists, protester is often a dirty word. I'm not here to change anyone's opinions on that word. I am politically active. I go to rallies, I talk passionately about what I believe and strive to educate myself further on what more I can be doing. I'm very good at making perfectly nice people feel bad.

Individual - I am a fiercely independent person. While I have no problem being supportive and comforting to those I care for, I generally do not like dependent people. I will expect you to stand on your own two feet. I have powerful beliefs and passions, but that doesn't mean I won't listen to another view-point. Just be prepared for a debate. I believe in living your convictions, and I expect the people I care for to do the same.

Lover - While I do not have a large number of close friends, for those I do respect and cherish, I am fiercely loyal to. I will do anything for someone I care for, often without question, and will defend them to a fault. I love private conversations, whispered endearments, small gestures, secret glances, poems hidden in pockets, and moments of understood silence.

Gender...something. Yeah. I guess. I don't strictly believe i'm female, or male, but somewhere in between. That's fine, I'm told. But right now I'm exploring that and where that leaves me. Gender fluid? Maybe? I'm gendered. That's for sure. But boy, aren't we all.

Butterfly, Spider and Lynx - There are three animals that appear in my life. The butterfly, a person that appears in someone's life, however briefly, and tends to improve it. The spider, a weaver of webs, a teller of tales. The Lynx, with the uncanny ability to see into our souls, know hidden truths, and walk the veil between worlds. Take what you will from these meanings, but they all define facets of myself.

What I'm looking for: Conversation, ideas, thoughts, exchanged interpretations, a spark, a connection, something to light up in the dark. I have great friends, I could always use more.

Oh. I'm also looking for a dominant partner. Experienced, preferably. If this isn't you, that's okay too. I'm just saying, I'm looking for that too.

Useful link: http://meredith2010.tumblr.com/post/388880517/gramscis-definition-of-an-organic-intellectual
Just in case you didn't know what an organic intellectual was.

"Now, we must all fear evil men. But there is another kind of evil which we must fear most, and that is the indifference of good men."

I'm trying to figure out who I am and all that I will be. It's an on-going project. I'll let you know how it turns out.

Last January, I started on my path to becoming a registered massage therapist. While I'm in school, I'm currently unemployed, so mostly I'm just a student. I ramble about anatomy. I enjoy palpating people's 11th and 12th ribs. I'm weird.

As of two septembers ago, I'm a knitter. I knit now. I'm okay at it. I like making stuffed animals and scarves. My ravelry name is fablesfolly. (Yes, you're only supposed to understand the last sentence if you're a knitter)

I'm also fighting the man, demanding a public inquiry into what happened at the G20 in Toronto, going to rallies and remembering my days as prisoner 0140 in cell OL5.

Recently I've started looking into making less of an impact on the earth around me. This means walking, watching my consumerism level, eating local only, avoiding using a lot of electricity, making my own clothing when new clothing is needed, and sustainable gardening.

On a less serious note, I'm learning how to make a fursuit. But not for me. If you have pointers, by all means.

"Thou shalt not use poetry, art or music to get into girls' pants.
Use it to get into their heads."

I feel that this section is an attempt to stroke one's own ego. I
can't say there are many things, if any at all, that I'm truly
really good at. Anything I claim, I'm certain, if you know me
you'll find incident to prove me otherwise.

In my own life, I say I'm good at attracting bad luck and playing
ping-pong with insomnia. I'm not good at winning ping-pong,
however.

I'm unfortunately good at selling things. Mostly pet-food as of
late. But I guess that's a skill? Can I have a +4 to pet food
sales? (MinaMoogle says I can.)

"I always say perseverance is nine-tenths of any art--not that it's much help to be nine-tenths an artist, of course."

Again, this is something I feel someone else should fill out.

I'm not sure what people notice about me. The random men that stop me on the street (I live in a great neighbourhood for that) tend to notice, I'm certain, my cleavage. Or my smile, they say, which I'm certain is code for breasts anyways.

I will say the first thing people tend to notice about me, should they notice me, is that I exist.

"I think that all the silence is worse than all the violence."

Books? Well, I collect books, so there are a few too many to name. I particularly enjoy literary theory, philosophy, and political theory. I also enjoy fiction and horror. I enjoy true-crime, psychology at times, string theory at others, conspiracy theories, and children's literature.

Movies vary. I enjoy horror although there is a very small selection one can actually enjoy. I acknowledge this. But my heart lies with The Last Unicorn, Labyrinth and the script of Closer.

Music also has many genres that I'll listen to, although not all of them I'll enjoy. I prefer indie music. I have a maddening love for Leonard Cohen. I will listen to something as terrifying as Country music to some industrial and heavy metal, to the White Stripes and on to David Bowie, then back to Sarah Brightman and forward to Joanna Newsom, finally ending with Dan Le Sac vs Scroobius Pip.

Sushi, and only vegetarian sushi, is my favoured food. Followed closely by pasta. I also enjoy steak at rare times, and vast amounts of Thai food.

conversation, creativity, literature, fingers, laughter, and my civil rights.

six people I could never do without:
capt_yossarian, MinaMoogle, lowercaseemma, my mom, a guy named Ben, a girl named Alex

magic beans, talking animals, enchanted mirrors, granted wishes. Oh. And blue fairies.

Also: Sex, blood and politics. Not always together and not always apart. Gender-diverse and feminist parenting. Sustainable downtown gardening spaces. Walking instead of TTCing/driving. Sewing clothing. Bathtub laundry. Knitting projects. Mental health. French. Massage therapy and alternative healing methods.

Update: Anatomy! So much anatomy!

"So this is how liberty dies: with thunderous applause."

a) rolling dice and knitting
b) ranting about politics, oppression, or other modern issues, not all of them first world
c) knitting and ranting
d) kicking ass at a video game
e) kicking ass at a board game
f) all of the above
g) none of the above: studying/palpating/giving a massage/practicing my techniques (yes, sometimes just on the dog)

I can't find any person sexually attractive unless they have something intelligent to say--with many sentences exchanged between the two of us. Brains are sexy. It's all I crave.... in a less zombie way.

I won't add you to my facebook. I'm awful at geography. I will not text you to chat. I'm not really sure I identify as female. I really like blabbering anatomy at people. I probably won't laugh at your jokes.

I will answer anything you ask me to. But I am brutally honest.

"To survive this cultural urology you have to study alcohology."

it's four in the morning and the blank page is still blinking at you.
you can surprise, challenge or enlighten me.
you have something intelligent to say.
you're capable of mature relationships that don't involve me being your girlfriend.
you're lonely for the quietest kind of connection.
you're an exceptional human being.
you're more interesting than the book I'm reading.
you're a personal trainer and willing to trade training for massage. cause yeah. I wanna get fit. you wanna get a massage or several. sound like a deal?

you think:
I'm interesting on some level and want to know more about me.
I can't possibly be as bitchy as I sound (I'll prove you wrong).
You're better than all the other people on here.
You have a book I should read.
You're prepared for the zombie/oil/water apocalypse. In that order.