I try to think expansively and openly, and sometimes that makes me “contrary” or iconoclastic because I often question dogma and the way things are. I am very easy going though, and when I challenge things, it is often with humor as a good way to share my point of view, and I abhor being offensive or rude. I laugh and smile, sometime too often, because just shifting our perspective slightly can reveal how much of what we all do (including me) can seem so silly.
As a kid, I loved reading and learning about science, and remember spending time laying in kitchen chairs with their backs placed on the floor under the table, imagining being in a rocket that was lifting off on adventures. Back then, science was my key to understanding the wonders of the world and universe. As I became older, I also became fascinated with the mysteries of our minds and things more ethereal. I appreciate both the rational/logical and the intuitive/emotional and I love the feelings that the clouds, sky, waves and nature evoke, simply from what they are, and the beauty I see in the processes that create them. Perhaps that is why my fascination and appreciation for artistic expression and creativity grew as well. I love museums and art galleries, and have a special affinity for contemporary art. After spending time absorbing and experiencing the works in a museum or gallery, it is amazing how my perception of the world outside is affected for some time afterwards. And I indulge in some creativity of my own, though I tend to hold those things somewhat more privately.
Perhaps what I wrote seems amorphous, and it would be better to simply say that the best of the above experiences can often be found when simply sitting quietly on a jetty, hiking an autumn trail, wandering a museum, kayaking on a cove, listening to music, sailing on a sound, having a good yoga class, or reading on the porch on a warm afternoon…not thinking, being in the moment feeling the sun and wind, absorbed in watching the clouds and water, and feeling a deep connection with someone.
I hope that I will meet and share an intriguing and fun journey with someone who understands and is perhaps fascinated by some of the same things I am. I would love someone with whom to travel more and explore places, and of course, each other. It would be wonderful to easily transition from illuminating discussions, to comfortable silence, to living in the present, to sublime physical and emotional moments of reaching and touching the deepest places within each other.
I believe I have learned some simple things that are essential for the wonderful experience of becoming closer and more open with each other, such as using our attention and awareness to sense and feel more clearly what is going on within the person we are with. Noticing that you could use a shoulder massage after a long day, or offering to get a cup of tea when you are already cozy on the couch, or simply caring enough to ask how you are when you seem to be out of sorts are among the simple grains of sand that may eventually build a beautiful beach.
I know that it is more than just a dream. I have been fortunate to experience enough glimpses of the mysterious things we call connection and resonance to be confident that what I am hoping for does exist, and I am unwilling to let go of the dream that someday that “je ne sais quoi” feeling will happen in a profound way with someone very special.
I know this profile sounds too much like I...I...I…, but I guess that is the nature of trying to paint a bit of the picture of who I am. Together I think you would find that I am not just in my own head, and would be surprised how present in the moment and aware of you I am. I still find it somewhat disturbing to go to someplace as simple as the market, and as I am walking around, see how many people pass by without ever looking up to share an acknowledging glance, a nod of the head or smile.
And, after saying all of this, I wonder if it still ends up mostly being in the hands of fate, and if fate will be generous enough to eventually allow that dream to come true.